“I Can Only Note That The Past Is Beautiful Because One Never Realises An Emotion At The Time. It Expands

green academia

(my personal favourite sub-aesthetic)

once i found out what dark academia was it was over for me

lana del rey

Oh to be the Broken Ace.

To be so good at everything that you’re never good enough.

To walk around with a regal air that nobody questions because your reputation always precedes you.

People avoid you because they don’t trust themselves to act around you.

Even more, they don’t trust your response.

The people around you harbour the worst kind of doubt, the deepest kind of fear, the most damaging kind of insecurity.

And that’s the thing.

You are good.

Annoyingly so.

Your all-consuming demons have made sure of it.

one day my bookshelves will be filled with penguin classics. one day.

Sometimes it’s absolutely scary to do something just because you care so much, and if it goes wrong, the disappointment can feel crushing. But trying is better than being paralyzed. There is more regret in inaction than in making a bad choice. It’s not too late to do something you’ve been putting off out of anxiety. You’re more than capable of doing this. Let’s try to think more about realistic future scenarios instead of catastrophic ones. Yeah, life is not always perfect, but you don’t have to be either. You are good enough as you are, keep going. You deserve to try. There is more to life than the awful scenarios anxiety comes up with and tries to protect you from. Just remember that isolation and inaction are cutting you off from the world, and it’s hurting you on the long run.

You are so much more than anxiety, than catastrophe, tragedy or failure. What matters most is that you keep trying, not that you do everything perfectly. Take slow steps. Do it at the best of your abilities without burning out. Each day at a time. You’re not alone in this. 🌱

                  The Power of the Sublime (Imaginative Architecture)

1-2 Prospettiva architettonica, Pietro Gaspari; Colegiata de San Isidro, Ventura Rodriguez

3  Piranesi’s design for a monumental staircase 

4. Stage Design, Giuseppe Galli Bibiena 

5-6 Interior of San’t Ignazio, Gian Paolo Panini. The Illumination of the Cross in Saint Peter’s Basilica on Good Friday by Giovanni Battista Piranesi 

7. Imperial Mausoleum, Piranesi

8-9 Large sculpture gallery built on arches and lit from above, Architecture and Perspectives, Piranesi; roup of columns which support two arches of a great courtyard, Piranesi

sneak peek of my bookshelf

What a beautiful book. The afterword of made me cry after a long emotional journey of small glimpses of his life:

"...the coffin had been covered with yellow flowers, 'his favorite color [...] a symbol of the light of which he dreamed both in his heart and in his work.'"

— Van Gogh, The Letters of Vincent van Gogh