“Cry Away The Pain At Night So I Can Fake A Smile All Day.”

“Cry away the pain at night so I can fake a smile all day.”

— Unknown

➴ losing you was blue.

WHY THE MHA BOYS WOULD REJECT YOU.

pairings: eijiro kirishima, hitoshi shinsou, izuku midoriya, katsuki bakugou, shoto todoroki, hanta sero, denki kaminari, tokoyami fumikage, tenya iida x gn!reader (warning for angst !!)

EIJIRO KIRISHIMA always believed he could never measure up to your expectations. no matter what he tried doing, no matter what steps he took, no matter what reassuring words you gave– he still felt like the same kid who cried when he found out of his quirk. even when he tried his best to push every insecurity down, eijiro just couldn’t figure it out. because when all was said and done, he still felt broken– and to him, that wasn’t good enough. eijiro kirishima fears expectations and failure.

TOKOYAMI FUMIKAGE can’t see why you’d love him. what was there to love about him? he had a literal bird head. he didn’t talk to anyone, and tried to avoid most conversation if he could. so why would you want to be with him? tokoyami tried to say no as politely as possible, but as he did, something inside him just shattered. there was nothing to love about him that he could see. tokoyami fumikage feels that he’s incapable of being loved.

HITOSHI SHINSOU couldn’t bear to see your face when everything crashed and burned. and he didn’t want anything to fall apart. because as it seems, no matter what he does, he still feels like a monster. it’s undeniable. even when his entire life was set to be a hero people could look up to– hitoshi still didn’t know what to do. and he was willing to give up a relationship to work on that first, stuck in the mindset that he could only prioritize one thing. hitoshi shinsou just can’t find balance.

IZUKU MIDORIYA couldn’t handle the stress of knowing that someone else was counting on him. it wasn’t much of a big reason, really– but he felt that he just didn’t have time for a relationship. he let the phrase, i don’t have time fill his head. so even if he had finished everything, his hero days were over, and everything was gone, izuku still would have stayed in the mindset: i don’t have time for this. izuku midoriya tries to cover up his feelings.

KATSUKI BAKUGOU was lying when he said he didn’t have time for you. unlike midoriya, who’s telling a bit more of a truth, katsuki is playing a full-on lie– he loves you. oh boy. he doesn’t fall for anyone, but if he falls for you, you must have done something– because the reason why he rejected you, deep down, no matter how much he tries to forget you, it’s because he’s afraid of hurting you. he’s afraid of the rejection. he’s afraid of how things are going to go, how it’s going to hurt his hero career– katsuki bakugou is afraid of love.

HANTA SERO wouldn’t reject you in a million years. he wants to be kind to everyone, show him what he stands for and believes– except love, when he’s struggling with loving himself first, what else was there to do? there were so many people that he wanted to help, but so little he had for himself, from trying not to hate himself for being near the bottom of the class, to not having a flashier quirk like everyone else. hanta sero can’t see why he’s lovable.

TENYA IIDA doesn’t understand love. he’s seen people express it, he’s seen people get along, he’s seen all of it– and as the class rep, he feels that he needs to be able to show everyone to his best ability what he’s capable of. except deep down, somewhere inside him, he feels that love is something wretched and terrible. why was it a thing when it only caused unnecessary heartbreak? what was the point of it if you loved and gave, only to lose them in the end? (this is also definitely linked with tensei in the hosu city accident.) tenya iida doesn’t understand love.

SHOUTO TODOROKI doesn’t want to be in chains– or that’s what he believed, at least. a lot of people talk about putting him in hundreds of romantic relationships at school– but he’s never really resonated with any of it. realitsically, shouto’s defintion of love, the way he sees it all, has been twisted and deformed into something that he can’t bear to understand. after seeing his parents fight, calling it love and watching his family spiral– shouto todoroki sees love as faded and dull.

DENKI KAMINARI tries to love you. he really, really does. he tries to learn how to love you, but something just isn’t clicking. was it that you weren’t putting in the effort? no, you were. was it that he just felt out of place? no, he had friends to help him. so… what was it? there were days where he felt that he could never measure up to anyone else. everyone was so ahead, so strong, which such amazing quirks and abilities. he felt that he wasn’t good enough– denki kaminari can’t love himself.

a/n: this hurt my heart bbs </3 remember to go drink water and take care of yourselves!! mwah!!

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chenkaiii

3 years ago

#i miss you very much, my love

—tell-tale signs of them missing you / what do they do when they’re missing you.

CHARACTERS. Zhongli, Xiao, Venti, Thoma, Scaramouche, Kazuha, Kaeya, Gorou, Diluc, Childe, Ayato, Albedo, (Abyss) Aether

THEMES. Implied established relationship, hurt/comfort.

NOTES. there is no indication if the reader died, left them, or maybe is just out traveling :))) it’s your decision how to think of this one. I did not expect this to be angsty but alas, it is. I meant this to be comfort, actually, who hurt me lmao.

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ZHONGLI frequently strolls around the streets of Liyue; day in or day out, he walks and walks. Every time the other people, specifically the vendors would see and recognize him, they knew what was missing and what seemed to be the problem—you, you were not with him. He looks the same on the outside; respectful, dignified, and standing tall. Yet they could never fail to miss the certain glow on his eyes, his face, and his smile whenever you stood beside him. Unknown to them, however, he had got more time in the world to wait for you. So until then, he’d wait for your return as he walks along the streets of his land, waits for the time he could finally gaze upon your beauty once again; may it be under the sun or the stars from above.

XIAO asks for two plates of Almond Tofu—which is quite unusual of him since he never had that much of an appetite before, especially mortal food. Silence had always been his company, not until you came along. You brought him the voices of humans; who they were, what they were good of, what was the light hidden amongst the darkness that he had always seen. You gave him hope and the reason for people to love him—for him to appreciate himself more. His purpose was not just to protect all of Liyue, but he became someone for you, and the same can be said with you to him. He longs for the day you come back, and until you do, he has two plates of Almond Tofu; one for you, one for him. This is a symbol of him waiting for you, and until then, he will continue to do so, no matter how long it takes.

VENTI stays at home even if he’s longing for Dandelion Wine in the evenings when he’s all alone. He waits for your arrival, hopes that this night would be the night you come home and kiss him, hug him, cuddle with him. It all seems so foreign for him to be all alone once again, but it seemed he should get used to it by now. Not long after your absence, he finds himself swallowed up by loneliness, the words falling out of his lips like a cry—but it was tuned, with a melody that seemed to have resembled like a plea, begging for you to come back soon.

THOMA is often seen by the docks, staring far off into the ocean. One can tell that if they talk to him, he wouldn’t be able to give them the attention he so often gives to others. He is very well known to the Inazumans, which is why when he goes in a state like this, they would surely know what seems to be on his mind. You, of course. Your relationship with the Retainer of the Kamisato Clan is not that much of a secret. Contrary to that, everybody knew about it. When he stands by the docks, seemingly awaiting someone, or when people see him looking forlorn despite being surrounded by the strays on the place where he usually goes, they knew. He was missing you. And despite being able to always help everyone else, there seems to be no one who could do the same to him.

SCARAMOUCHE asks his subordinates if there’s any news from you. They would often scramble to their feet, trying to get to where he is when he calls, only to be asked “Anything from Y/n yet?” Most of them would complain whenever this happens to them, but even if they do, it doesn’t really affect SCARAMOUCHE. What’s more, is that he’s more out of it, really. Instead of getting annoyed than usual, he’s more… tame, so to speak. Damn. Why can’t you leave his mind already? He’s aware of what his lackeys are thinking—that you were able to reduce him into this kind of person; searching for your presence until he’s sure that you’re safe within his arm’s reach.

KAZUHA is more silent. Beidou and the Crew could only tease him about it for a while, only for it to backfire due to him being quite good with words. “Well, of course, I miss them. What sort of lover would I be if I don’t?” he will say. However, despite the lightness and ease in his words, it was quite the opposite of the pressure on his chest, and the lack of enthusiasm with the sight of the beautiful view ahead of him. What he seeks is you, and he has no other company but his words and the wind, to comfort him in this time of need. He doesn’t dwell on these feelings quite obviously, but only his soul would be testament to how much longing he could take before he couldn’t anymore.

KAEYA talks more, this is why it’s fairly obvious to other people what he was feeling, especially with you not beside him. Despite his best efforts to attempt to hide the secrecy of his emotions, to encase it in ice, not to be freed and seen, people knew nonetheless. And even if he realizes this himself, he continues to pretend and act like he was okay, like everything was fine and nothing changed since you left. Such a shame, really. How he forces the truth in other people’s minds and his, but the hollowness in his heart continues to stay as it was—empty. Like who he truly was without you.

GOROU buries his nose on your pillow and sleeps on it, or maybe hugs it and the scent that you left off of there lulls him to sleep. It has been so long that he has been alone that he could never truly remember what it felt like anymore before you left. Everything felt so new again as if you had been fixated and remained permanent in his life. He seeks for your presence, and he could only find it with the clothes you left, or the pillow that remained empty on the nights he returns home. Home… it doesn’t even feel like one anymore without you.

DILUC drowns himself in his work. He finds comfort on a busy day, to disrupt his thoughts of you from plaguing his mind, making him corrupted of memories of when you were there, supporting him, getting him through work without making him feel exhausted afterward. But he does it again—over and over again, he thinks about you. The more he does think about you, the more he works. The bags under his eyes, the weariness of his voice, and the slump on his shoulders. No one has the heart or courage to speak up, because they knew he would only close up, return back to the old him when you still weren’t there in his life to brighten it up.

CHILDE is rather antsy, which results in him getting quite messy and irresponsible in his work. It frustrates him, but he doesn’t want to show it in front of other people, especially his subordinates. You are his strength, but you’re also his weakness as well. That is a fact he came to realize before you two had even gotten into a relationship, Yet, he accepted the challenge because he loved you—he has genuine feelings for you. It’s funny, right? A Harbinger, someone who inflicts pain to anyone, being hurt because of love. How childish, the others of his same occupation would think. But he’s proud of this relationship, of you. And he’s a mess without you, which is why you need to go back—you need to come back into his arms and make him feel whole again.

AYATO will often be seen waiting. By the lounge of the Kamisato residence, or maybe by the garden, sometimes strolling around, which will make his sibling, Ayaka, see him often. This will be a recurring habit of his, to await your return since he was too preoccupied to do his work. He will still do what he needs to, but whenever he had the chance, he waits patiently for your return. He’s selfish, he wants to see you first, to greet you first, to embrace you in his arms first. So please, just come back to him—that is his only prayer every single day.

ALBEDO works more to the point of overworking himself, much like Diluc. The only difference is that ALBEDO does this because he has no one to tell him to stop, to rest for a while—that was how convincing you were. You knew how to coax him into doing something someone like him doesn’t really need, but seeing how much you cared for him and his health, he will do so. Actually, he may even have a note by his desk, one that has your handwriting, reminding him to “Take a rest, my love.” He’d read it with your voice in his mind, making him smile unconsciously and stare at the note for a little while longer.

AETHER will try to find you. Even if he doesn’t look like it because he still does what he should while in the process of finding you, he made an oath with himself to do so, wherever you may be. He has faith that you and he will meet again. To gods be damned. The stars will one day align and make him see your eyes which he so longed for in the days you were gone.

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⤷ aether x gn!reader

synopsis: 0.5k ; when venti tasked him with giving people advice for their romantic feelings, he wasn’t expecting someone to say your name.

warnings/genre: jealousy, it’s fluffy if you squint, stuff from the windblume festival event?

His legs were sore.

That was the only thing Aether could think about at this point, it wasn’t even the afternoon yet and he felt worn out. He’d been running all over Mondstat, doing chores for other people, helping other people. It wasn’t that he minded it at all; he liked helping people, plus they compensated him.

But he was tired. All he wanted to do was take a break. He’d agreed to help Venti though, regardless of how many other people he’d been doing favors for today.

“One more,” Venti smiled. “That guy over there, his name is Deacon.”

His face was oddly familiar to Aether, but it took tired eyes a few moments to register the knight uniform the guy was wearing. Aether nodded in response, and was then walked over to greet the guy.

Most of what he was saying went over Aether’s head — he couldn’t help it, he was half-asleep. All he really needed to do was pay attention to whatever signal Venti gave anyway.

“...uh so, I don’t really know what kind of gift Y/n would like. Any ideas?”

Wait.

Surely this guy was not talking about the same Y/n that Aether had in mind… right? Sure, he’d never actually told you how he feels, but the constant, playful flirting had to be enough to steer people away. He always hoped it did, anyway, at least until he could gather enough courage.

Though he looked over to Venti, he ignored the bard’s signal. Venti’s signal was clearly one of assurance, but instead, Aether shook his head at the guy.

“I don’t think you should. Y/n… I don’t know, they never seemed into you, even if that’s kind of blunt to say. Uhm, aren’t you on duty right now though?”

It wasn’t a lie; Aether was positive that you didn’t even know the guy’s name. But still, the honorary knight wasn’t supposed to be so bitter, wasn’t supposed to get jealous so easily.

“Yeah, yeah. I am. Thank you though, I think I’ll reconsider it.”

As soon as the guy was out of earshot, Venti’s voice chimed. He had a snarky expression on his face, he looked so amused, but for once Aether couldn’t laugh about it like he normally would.

“So, are you going to be giving anyone a windblume then? Y/n, maybe?”

“...It’s not like that.”

“Jealousy is a somewhat common emotion, it’s not that hard to see. So go tell Y/n how you feel, what’s the worst that could really happen?”

A lot, apparently. He supposes it’s not as bad as it could be; you didn’t reject him, but the thing is, he didn’t even tell you how he feels. Now he’s standing beside you, awkwardly, unable to say anything.

“You ok, Aether?” Your voice was gentle and laced with concern. Such a simple thing caused his heart to flutter, and yet you probably had no idea.

“Hm? Oh, yeah, I’m all good. I think I just need to relax for a bit. I’m tired is all.”

You smiled sweetly, then moved to wrap your arms around him. He buried his face into the side of your neck, letting out a quiet, content hum. He just hoped you couldn’t feel his heart beating out of his chest.