i think what fucked me up most about the midnight club is how desperate everyone was to believe in something, in anything. and in their desperation, all they found was each other. the stories mike flanagan create are actually heart-wrenching but this was on another level. the fact that he’s shown in every show that ghosts are not simply ghosts, they are wishes, and faith, and love, and sadness, and desperation. how when no one can bring themselves to believe in the truth they take to tales, and stories, to help themselves feel better. how every ghost story in the show was just themselves coping with their diseases and their pain. how fantastical is it that they held onto something so tightly, but it slipped through. like the sunlight in the trees or the wind through the grass. how no one blamed ilonka for believing in something so.. strange to make her friend better.
at the end of the day all they wanted was each other to do better. to live. how terrifying is it to know that you cannot live for much longer? to accept it? to let go of the ghosts and to simply stay present? how do you love and how do you lose? how do you accept loss? how do you grieve? how do you hold someone’s hand and not let go even when they do? how do you let someone go when they’re ready to but you’re not?
anyways this was my little tangent thing i’m still sobbing over the show. no one hmu will be rotting in my room for the next month
grief
breaking bad 02x13 // platonic love - eliza adler // dark paradise - lana del rey // the hunger games: mockingjay part II // francis forever - mitski // grey’s anatomy 02x27 // ivan the terrible and his son ivan - illya repin // somewhere only we know - keane // supercut - lorde // summertime sadness - lana del rey
the carnivorous lamb, agustín gómez arcos / supernatural, dream a little dream of me & all hell breaks loose pt.2
my home isn't my home anymore, something's gone wrong along the way
noor hindi dear god. dear bones. dear yellow.: "pledging alliegance" (via @feral-ballad) \\ andrew collins \\ athena nassar, from love is not always song, but the swelling (via @weltenwellen) \\ @holly-warbs \\ yanyi dream of the divided field: poems: "the friend” (via @dactylicreveries) \\ bartosz beda silent interior ii
kofi
GET TO KNOW ME MEME [1/10 movies]
We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.
Dead Poets Society (1989) | dir. Peter Weir
okay so true detective season 1 has been my hyperfixation for years now and it has left a giant void in my life like… nothing will ever be this good ever again. so in case any of you feel the same way I made a list of media that helped me with getting into a mindset that at least somewhat resembles the true detective s1 experience:
- Memories Of Murder (2003)
- Sicario (2015)
- Arrival (2016)
- The Conspiracy Against the Human Race by Thomas Ligotti
- Better Never To Have Been by David Benatar
- Saint Maud (2019)
- The Florida Project (2017)
- both Galveston and Between Here and the Yellow Sea by Nic Pizzolatto
- books on the show itself: Time Is A Flat Circle by Melissa Milazzo and True Detective And Philosophy (Blackwell)
- anything by Lovecraft tbh
- also anything by Zapffe :)
- The Devil All The Time (2020)
- Negative Space by Yeager
feel free to add onto my list please I am begging you
—female rage
? // medusa by caravaggio // gregory radionov // artemisia gentileschi // monstrous flesh: on women’s bodies in horror by rebecca harknis-cross // carrie (1976) // corruption by camille norton // midsommar (2019) // helen of troy does countertop dancing by margaret atwood // medusa in her throne by reza sedhi
if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing
Matthew McConaughey as ʀᴜꜱᴛ ᴄᴏʜʟᴇ ⸽⸽T⸽⸽r⸽⸽u⸽⸽e⸽⸽ ⸽⸽D⸽⸽e⸽⸽t⸽⸽e⸽⸽c⸽⸽t⸽⸽i⸽⸽v⸽⸽e⸽⸽ ⸽⸽ ₛₑₐₛₒₙ ₁ ᴅɪʀ. ᴄᴀʀy ᴊᴏᴊɪ ꜰᴜᴋᴜɴᴀɢᴀ