Alec: I Love-

𝒅𝒐𝒏’𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒐

+ itoshi sae x f!reader | wc 2.1k | content: fluff, slight angst, hurt/comfort, mentions of jealousy/insecurities

notes: of course when i’m back i write for sae … who else is possible of holding me hostage like this ? :’)

summary: he’s stupid and stubborn and bad at being a boyfriend. you make him want to be better though. always.

itoshi sae has a bad habit.

he’s not used to relationships, or the notion of having to care for someone in a certain romantic way that tests his own boundaries. this much is apparent in the way he’s only ever had one relationship before you and it was over before he started, because he’d chosen career over his ex.

and no, the situation right now with you isn’t like that. even so, it’s tough; when you feel down for no particular reason and sae doesn’t know how to handle it. and sometimes he’s tired too and you catch him at the wrong timing and you both end up sulking the entire night.

you won’t lie—you have a bad habit too. you can’t really bring yourself to express exactly how you feel. it’s difficult to open up just like that, especially when you aren’t used to it. but sae’s especially confused with how to handle these situations, like right now.

right now; when you’re sobbing in front of him and he’s feeling frustrated. when you can’t really handle the heat well—he’s a world-renowned soccer player, one of the world eleven. and next to him, no one even knows you. not when you have a non-disclosure agreement and have to keep everything super private.

it’s funny how you thought it’d be simple. then again, you didn’t factor in all the external disturbances. it tests your patience whenever sae makes the headlines when he’s out for a simple lunch with friends and makes it to the front page with a dating rumor with a top model. it’s tough for you to hold it in when you see people shipping him with someone you can only wish to be.

insecurity just hits you sometimes.

“is it really that hard to just assure me, sae?”

that includes now, when you’ve just had a shitty day and he’s so so tired from all the events he’s had to go to now, having to parade around with that top model, all to promote a brand’s upcoming fragrance line. emotions run high, neither of you have the capacity to deal with this right now.

“look, i’m so fucking tired, can we just deal with this in the morning?”

some pessimistic part of you is telling you he’ll just brush it off in the morning—all the jealousy, the frustration. you don’t even think you can last staying mad at him for that long.

“what’s the problem with talking about it now?”

“i don’t want to talk about it now, could you just let it go for the night?”

both of your voices get higher and higher, just a hair’s breadth away from actual shouting. that’s when sae reels himself in, averting his gaze.

and there goes sae’s bad habit; grabbing his keys and walking out of your shared apartment, no umbrella even though it’s raining outside and he’ll get soaked just trying to walk to the car.

you can’t find it in yourself to tell him to stay safe because you’re all out of energy tonight. everything has been sucked dry into your anxiety, and you’re spent. now what can you even do besides curl up on the couch, wondering if you’re too much?

when your phone lights up, you catch the wallpaper—a picture of sae looking off camera while he presses a kiss on your head.

it just makes you feel worse.

he’s tired. his efforts are spent. on soccer, not you. but still. it’s exhausting. couldn’t you have just waited for a few more fucking hours?

he’s tired. so fucking tired.

“hey.”

it’s a lame greeting, but that’s all he can manage right now. shidou’s in his doorway, a cock in his brow and a very annoyed look on his face.

“oi, i got a girl here—”

“don’t care, i’ll just crash on the couch,” sae cuts him off, trudging through the door and settling himself on the leather black couch, the familiarity sinking in. he used to live here with shidou before he got together with you after all.

shidou mumbles something like suit yourself before he leaves his old roommate be, mulling over the remains of his relationship with you.

sae opens his phone, the picture of you at the beach that he snapped glaring at him in this dim light. he swallows the lump in his throat—he doesn’t know how to feel. part of him knows that you feel like shit each time he does this; you’ve made it known over at least three different occasions now. but his head’s throbbing way too much and his muscles are way too sore and all he really wanted was just to come home to you, to the peacefulness he always loves.

is he really the asshole here?

a notification pops up on his phone an hour later. sae’s first train of thought is to wonder if it’s you. but it’s nothing important. it’s just oliver going over the next training’s details. the same old thing. but then sae looks up at the date and he curses inwardly.

it’s your second year anniversary. two years since you’d dated this fickle, troublesome guy.

sae’s head ducks between his palms, elbows resting on his thighs, as he considers the weight of his words.

this morning he woke up without even so much as a greeting for you; all he knew was he’d be late for practice if he didn’t leave in exactly five minutes. he’d rushed out the door and only responded to your morning greeting with a grunt. sae didn’t spare you any time for the rest of the day either, when you’d attempted to ask him out for dinner. he left you on read before ultimately tossing his phone to the side. when he came back home you’d given him a kiss and he barely reacted, too tired to give you anything even when you showed him the big dinner spread you’d cooked.

now he’s here—in an apartment at the other end of the city that’s no longer his while he left you alone in your shared apartment, leaving the argument unresolved and letting you stew in your own thoughts.

sae lets the time fly right by, staring at the ceiling while he contemplates everything. but the answer is plain and simple to him: you.

he’s tired and he’s hopelessly invested in soccer and he shouldn’t have time for anything else in his life but he wants you. he doesn’t know nearly half the right things to do in whatever situations, but the thought that he could really possibly lose you this time is enough to overwhelm him—sae grabs his car keys and leaves just as shidou and his girl leaves the room.

“oi, made up already?” he shouts after him through his front door.

sae rolls his eyes and ignores him; all he needed was some time to himself anyway. he’s glad shidou wasn’t there to poison his head with anything (or more like, he wasn’t there to convince him to drink his guts off).

ten minutes later he’s in his car and speeding back to the apartment, back to you. because no, it’s not too hard for him to assure you—it’s what he should have done. just because he’s used to being the center of dating rumours doesn’t mean you are. just because he knows it’s nothing doesn’t mean you don’t get insecure because of them.

after all, he remembers what he told you that night he asked you to be his. that he’ll make sure you’re happy. being happy all the time isn’t realistic, but at the very least, sae should’ve known better than to keep leaving you alone with your thoughts.

he speeds through the familiar city roads, however fast he’s going just doesn’t seem fast enough. but he still makes it safely back to your shared apartment within twenty minutes, and hopefully still fast enough to make sure you’re not completely disappointed in him.

it’s still raining and the living room lights are still on and he can faintly make out where you’re pacing the room through the blinds. sae feels like a creep staring at you from his car, but his heart’s pounding loudly in his ears and he can’t help but think he’s seen that sleek black car parked next to his somewhere before.

keys out the ignition, rain pattering lightly on his head, he gets out only to meet who he knows has been there for you since day one.

“done running already?” the hostility of your best friend irks him, but he can’t say he didn’t earn it. “that’s faster than i thought.”

“reo.”

your visitor rakes his hand through his purple hair, sighing and rolling his eyes. thanks to sae’s busy schedule, he hasn’t really had time to hang out with any of your friends, and probably hence their usual animosity towards him. though, well, nagi seems to be more indifferent than anything.

“if you’re here to break up with her, don’t worry, i’ll take care of her,” reo tells him, an air of indifference surrounding him. three guesses who you go to whenever you feel upset about your relationship.

sae clenches his fists, reminding himself that reo’s your best friend and punching him would do more harm than good. “i won’t,” is all sae says before he pushes past him, already done with whatever this conversation is.

reo scoffs, “for a guy who loves her, you do a shit job of showing it.”

and although sae shuts the lobby doors right after, reo’s words stay ingrained in his head. it’s not like sae doesn’t know it, but fuck if he knows what to do about it. but when he opens the front door and is greeted by the sight of your red puffy eyes, he forgets everything. forgets the frustration and the anger and the stupid excuses in his head—they’re all secondary when it comes to you anyway.

his feet take him straight to you, pulling you against his chest and holding you tight.

“i’m sorry,” he says, and that’s the easiest it’s ever come out.

from your lack of response, sae finds himself hoping for the best, hoping that he didn’t just lose you because of his stupid impulses. but then he feels your arms wrap around his waist and he hears himself breathing a sigh of relief.

“you’re an ass, you know that?” you sniffle, and it’s kind of hard to breathe when he’s pressing against you that much but you’re more relieved than anything that you don’t really care.

sae chuckles, weakly, the tension leaving his shoulders. “i know.” he can feel you pouting without even having to look at you.

“i should really leave you,” you whine, though your actions betray your words, holding him even tighter.

“then why do you put up with me?” it’s a funny thing, how he can be afraid to lose you yet he can tell that you’re not someone who gives up so easily.

that’s exactly why he has to prove that you didn’t choose the wrong person to be with.

“i guess i’m just stupid too.”

you’re not. sae’s going to make sure no one else thinks you’re stupid for staying with him. it’s enough having your best friend think that, but that’s fine, sae’ll prove him wrong soon enough. it sucks that he’s only good for soccer, but at the rate you’re going? you’ll teach him how to be a good boyfriend. he’s two years in and learning slowly but he’ll get there.

you’re the only one who can get him there.

“no,” sae says, all of a sudden, and you pull away, confused.

“no what?”

“what you asked earlier… it isn’t too hard. i’ll work on it.”

oh, must be right before he left, when you’d asked if it was hard for him to just assure you sometimes. to be honest, you didn’t think he’d even listened. but sae is sae and he’s stubborn and stupid and a little bit of an ass, but he still listens to everything you say.

you try not to break out into a smile—you don’t want to show him how whipped you really are. “i’ll hold you to your word, then.”

sae smiles, ruffling the top of your head before slowly pulling you in again. “so… don’t leave me, okay?”

it sinks in what he’s saying. you didn’t think you’d ever hear sae say those kinds of words. but it’s unfair, really, because how can you say no when he’s like this?

“you already know i won’t.”

and somehow, you’re right. sae knows you won’t. doesn’t mean he’ll get caught lacking though.

“good then.”

because he plans on keeping you forever.

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12 minutes. that's how long it's been since you texted itoshi sae back. 12 whole minutes.

he frowns at his phone, glaring daggers at the poor innocent screen that's really done nothing wrong. he hopes you can feel his stare through the device. 12 minutes is a long, long time; what could you possibly be doing that could be more important than texting your boyfriend back?

he stares at the screen as time ticks on. 12 minutes becomes 12 minutes and 30 seconds. 40. 50. 55. 59. 13 minutes. now, that is entirely too long. but he can’t double text because he’s not that desperate, he thinks. (he is. but his ego is fragile.) so he opts to state some more. and then a little more after that.

at the 13 minute and 45 second mark, his hand hovers tentatively over the call button as he debates his next moves; would calling you make him look a fool? or would it perhaps save you from whatever kidnapper was trying to nab you, or alien trying to abduct you? because in sae’s book, those were the only viable reasons as to why you may not message him back right away.

he gives in and calls you. he counts every single ring until you finally, finally pick up: “sae? hello?”

a wave of tension melts off his bones, anxiety he hadn’t even realised was building. relief tastes good and minty on his tongue as he relishes the sound of your voice. how honey-sweet is always sounded whenever you said his name. he doesn’t even realise he’s verbally ghosted you until you ask, “is anyone even there?”

“yeah. i’m here.”

he doesn’t need to be there to see the expression on your face— you look annoyed, confused, miffed. so pretty, too, always pretty. he’s not whipped though. not whipped, not desperate. just a regular guy worried about his girlfriend. (he’s not that pathetic— right?)

“why are you calling me? what’s up?”

he feels petulant and whiny like a child when he speaks as levelly as he can, “you didn’t answer my text.”

he’s not desperate. and he’s not whipped. but you laugh over the phone, and sae feels himself falling, positively swooning like the sappiest little bitch in town.

“babe, my last text to you was ‘bye’. i had to drive.”

oh. he supposes that you’re right. embarrassment mixes with indignation mixed with unbridled affection as he grasps for straws, “i know. i just wanted to make sure you got there okay.”

he hears you snort a laugh on the other end of the phone and he’s melting again despite his unchanged appearance. his free hand thrums against the table he’s seated at as he hangs on your every word, movement, sound, action.

“sure. sure you did. and now that you know i’m okay, it’s cool if i hang up, right?”

he responds a little too quickly. “no. stay on the line.”

“why should i?”

he narrows his eyes. “don’t be difficult.”

“okay. i’ll leave, then—“

“wait.”

a pause. he speaks again: “i just want to talk to you. stay with me.”

you almost want to push more, to tease a bit. to make him say please. but your stomach is already churning like crazy and you’ve got a swath of butterflies in your chest and god, do you love him. so you just say, “okay.”

you hear the slightest smile in his voice when he replies. “thank you.”

itoshi sae is usually not desperate. he’s not whipped, he doesn’t say please, he doesn’t say thanks. but for you? he thinks he can change the rules, just a little, if that’s what it means to have you.

mistymark’s masterlist

key: ▶▶▶ = ongoing, ✓ = completed, all are fluff (or have fluffy endings) unless specified

NCT

series:

HIDEAWAY HOLLOW SERIES [NCT Dream] NCT AS BOYFRIENDS SERIES [NCT 2018]

the ex boyfriend interview. [NCT Dream] ↳in which you’re asked to do a video interview with your ex boyfriend surrounding your past relationship

the one with the second chance. [NCT Dream] ↳ in which you take part in a second interview with your ex. {sequel to the ex boyfriend interview series}

the one with the subway [NCT Dream Christmas special] ↳in which 12 strangers are must endure what feels like the longest train ride in history on christmas eve

Don’t Need Your Love angst series [DNYL members, excludes Hrvy lmao]

VIGILANTE/S ↳ in which you consider yourself somewhat of a vigilante. {superpowered!au}

mistakes were made [NCT Dream - Jaemin] ↳ in which you are a famous YouTuber and your fans really really like your best friend, Jaemin {script format}

group // headcanons // reactions:

rating nct series: ↳ based on what they would do if you asked them to hold your drink ↳ based on how they’d help you slash your ex’s tires ↳ based on what their tinder profiles would look like ↳ based on how they drink their milo ↳ based on how they kiss you for the first time

hugging nct dream

nct dream as classmates 

nct dream as college students ↳ nct dream as kids in my zoom classes ↳ nct dream as kids in my zoom classes (semester 2 edition)

nct dream as hogwarts students 

nct 00 line band au [NCT Dream]

00 line x private school uniforms [NCT Dream]

nct dream react to you being shipped with another member [ot6]

nct dream x spotify [00-02 line] nct 127 x spotify [OT10]

nct dream x brooklyn 99 characters

elemental!nct dream {head canons} ↳ elemental!jaemin {flirting; dot points} ↳ elemental!hyuck {flirting; dot points} ↳ elemental!jisung {headcanon} ↳ elemental!jisung and elemental!chenle {headcanons; list} frat boys!yuta and jaehyun

nct + wayv as types of friends [OT21]

spiderman!mark (these aren’t connected/part of the same story) ↳ first date + first kiss (drabble) ↳ finding out (drabble)

fake dating!00 line ↳ hyuck catching feelings ↳ kissing at a party with jaemin (drabble) ↳ being dared to kiss jaemin

the one with the homecoming date [NCT Dream] ↳ [intro] [jeno] [donghyuck] ▶▶▶

enemies to lovers!yukhei ↳ contribution

number neighbour!au with mark

uni boyfriend!jaehyun {ask}

renjun keeping art of you in his wallet {ask}

med student!yuta (idea for the one with the std)

superpowered!au ↳ enemy immortal!hyuck having a crush on you (drabble) ↳ enemy immortal!hyuck needing your help ↳ enemy immortal!hyuck needing your help part two ↳ enemy immortal!hyuck on a mission (x-men-ish) ↳ friend immortal!hyuck in the world of the dead

secret agent!jaehyun surgical intern!jaehyun

mark + swearing

Taeyong + dying his hair in ur bathroom

fake fake dating!au with fuckboy!doyoung (summary)

soulmate!au with opposites!hyuck and y/n (summary)

a fwb!au with non-specified member (fic idea)

werewolf!jeno (fic idea)

dumb prom date!chenle (summary)

individual:

《《 lee taeyong 》》

- the one with the retaliation COMING SOON!! in which taeyong likes to make y/n flustered by leaning in too close whenever they’re talking and hitting on her, but she’s decided she’s had enough {university!au}

- the one with the combat class [1] ▶▶▶ in which taeyong has been ‘just friends’ with y/n for too long and a little alcohol surely is the best way to make a move feat. doyoung {university au} {follower dictated fic}

《《 moon taeil 》》

- the one with the bowling date. DRABBLE in which you and taeil really suck at bowling.

《《 johnny seo 》》

↳ johnny would [1]

- the one with the med student ✓ in which johnny works at a coffee shop and a particular med student cares more for his health than he does {coffee shop!au} {drabble} ↳ q: did you call or text y/n? ↳ q: did you end up visiting y/n at the clinic?

- the one with the secret COMING SOON!! in which y/n is a little clingy and johnny’s a little paranoid {secret dating!au} {university!au}

- the one with the soulmates ✓ in which soulmates can hear snippets of each other’s thoughts and what the fuck is going on his head {soulmates!au} {strangers to lovers!au}

- the one with the long day. ✓ in which johnny’s had a long day and really just wants to get home to you (and sleep)

- the one with the argument. DRABBLE in which Johnny is fighting with his girlfriend and you, unfortunately, are there to witness the whole thing [angst-y] {best friends!au}

- the one in the shower. DRABBLE in which Johnny accidentally asks for nudes.

- the one with the vampire. ✓ in which johnny’s a vampire and you still kiss him. {vampire!au, duh}

- the one where you cancel your date. ✓ DRABBLE in which you’re sick but Johnny won’t let that stand in the way of your date. {short}

- the one in Paris. TIMESTAMP in which youre really tired. but youre also in Paris.

- the one with the acceptance letter. DRABBLE in which Johnny shows up on your doorstep when he gets his acceptance letter. {angst, mutual pining}

- the one with the car ride. TIMESTAMP in which you’re drunk and Johnny drives you home. 

《《 nakamoto yuta 》》

- the one with the unexpected help [1] ▶▶▶ in which a group project causes tension between y/n and her partner yuta {enemies to lovers! au} {university!au}

- the one with the step stool ✓ in which yuta and y/n are coworkers and he finds it funny that you can’t reach things on the top shelf {barista!au} {enemies to lovers!au} ↳ q: have you murdered yuta yet?

- the one with all the dates COMING SOON!! in which y/n accidentally ruined his date, so he’s gonna make sure he gets revenge for it

- the one with the motel ✓ in which 127 goes on a road trip and there aren’t enough rooms in the motel {enemies to lovers!au}

- the one with the blocked drain pipe. ✓ in which a blocked shower drain causes y/n to turn up on Yuta’s doorstep in nothing but a towel {friends w benefits!au} {neighbours!au} 

- the boyfriend one. ✓ in which yuta is a boyfriend {part of the NCT as boyfriends series}

- the one with the std [intro] [1] [2] ▶▶▶ in which yuta and y/n are pretty much arch rivals, though no one understands why; they’re just competitive in class and, now, at their work placements. easily two of the brightest students of their class, they’re both used to being number one - the only number one. but after y/n ruins one of yuta’s dates, he vows to ruin every single one she goes on, too.

- the one with the vodka. ✓ in which yuta is drunk and should go home. {or the things you said when you were drunk} {part of the 50 things you said series}

- the one with the baby. ▶▶▶ in which you’re supposed to be minding Yuta’s cousin and it doesn’t go so well. {established relationship!au} {slight angst}

《《 qian kun 》》

- the one with the prince ✓ in which kun works at Disneyland, and even without the costume looks like a prince {Disneyland!au}

《《 kim doyoung 》》

- the one with the combat class [1] ▶▶▶ in which y/n’s window looks out directly onto the grass where doyoung does his combat class feat. taeyong {university!au} {fan dictated fic}

《《 chittaphon leechaiyapornkul (ten) 》》

《《 jung yoonoh (jaehyun) 》》

- the one with the roommates [1] [2] [3] [4] [epilogue] ✓ in which jaehyun and y/n are roommates and pretending to be his fiancé seems like a really good idea {roommates!au} {fuckboy!au} {friends to lovers!au}

- the one with the diet coke bottle ✓ in which jaehyun suggests they play spin the bottle, but now everyone except him is kissing y/n {university!au}

- the one with the youtuber [INTRO] [1] [2] [3] ON HIATUS in which youtube somehow brings jaehyun and y/n together {social media au} {college au}

- the one with the apple juice ✓ in which drunk jaehyun confesses his feelings for y/n (the things you said when you were drunk) {university!au} {best friends to lovers!au}

- the one with the cover. ▶▶▶ in which jaehyun and y/n are detectives working undercover at NCT U as new recruits of the jump street program {21 jump street!au} {friends to lovers!au}

- the one with the drunken confession. ✓ in which jaehyun realises he might be in love with someone and its not the person he just broke up with {best friends to lovers!au}

- the one with the hangover. ✓ in which jaehyun made a stupid decision and wants y/n’s forgiveness {part of the 100tws project}

- the one with the power cut. ✓ in which a power cut reunites y/n and jaehyun {ex friends with benefits!au} {friends to lovers!au} {part of the 1ydp.}

- the one with the keycard. ✓ in which the heater breaks in the hotel room and y/n is really cold. like really cold. {enemies to lovers!au} {bed sharing!au} {part of the 1ydp}

- the one with the benefits. ✓ in which jaehyun is y/n’s best friend’s older brother and their relationship is… physical {smut} {drabble}

- the one with the mole. ✓ DRABBLE in which y/n betrays the agency and her partner, jaehyun, doesn’t believe it. {secret agents!au} {warning: guns and violence}

- the one with the gourmet pasta. ✓ DRABBLE in which you and jaehyun have a domestic routine, and you want to surprise him with pasta. {or: the things you said with no space between us} {part of the 50 things you said series}

- the one with the kiss in the bathroom. ✓ DRABBLE in which your brother finds out about your secret relationship with his best friend. {part of the 50 things you said series}

- the one with the rules. ✓ DRABBLE in which jaehyun is a prince and seems to be breaking all the rules. [cinderella!au]

- the one at New Years. ✓ DRABBLE in which you’d made plans to kiss Jaehyun at midnight. 

- the one at the bus stop. [part two] DRABBLE in which jaehyun doesn’t feel like he’s home. {slight angst}

《《 dong sicheng (winwin) 》》

- the one with the annotations ✓ in which sicheng works in the library and finds y/n’s notes in the books wrong hilarious {libary!au}

- cute and flirty + boyfriend!sicheng [DRABBLE]

《《 kim jungwoo 》》

《《 wong yukhei (lucas) 》》

- the one with the anonymous pen pal ✓ in which y/n and lucas write notes to each other on their desk and love just happens to be on their side (university!au)

- the one with the paint prank ✓ in which the nct u boys prank y/n’s group and she ends up striking a pitiful deal with the genius behind it (idol!reader)

- the one with the skyscraper COMING SOON!! in which lucas is always afraid he’ll lose y/n in big crowds so he grabs y/n’s hand but suddenly he starts to do it when there’s no one around and y/n is sUS {university!au}

- the one with the drunk ex. ✓ in which both y/n’s crush and ex boyfriend are at the same party {friends to lovers!au} {part of the 1ydp}

- the one with the pick up lines. ✓ in which lucas knows a bunch of pick up lines and insists on using them all {best friends to lovers!au} {part of the 1ydp}

- the one with the handprint in the wall. ✓ DRABBLE in which two handprints in a wall make you meet someone new.

- the one on FaceTime. DRABBLE in which your homework is hard but Lucas is willing to help.

《《 hendery 》》

- the boyfriend one. ✓ in which hendery is your boyfriend. (bulleted)

《《 mark lee 》》

- the one with no curtains [pt 2 angst ver.] [pt 2 fluff ver.] ✓ in which mark lives opposite y/n and always forgets to close the curtains while he’s changing {neighbour!au} [before u attack me, its pure]

- the one with all the spoilers ✓ in which y/n spends all her time with the host’s roommate instead of the birthday boy himself (the things you said when we were the only ones left) {university!au} {strangers to lovers!au}

- the one with the how to’s [intro] [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] ▶▶▶ in which y/n is a columnist and just really needs to write an article, whilst mark is an idol and just really needs a date {social media au}

- the boyfriend one. ✓ in which mark is a boyfriend {bulleted} {part of boyfriend!NCT series}

- the one with the study room. ✓ in which mark really likes to test fate with rock-paper-scissors but y/n just wants to finish this group project {group project!au}

- the one with the stagehand. ✓ in which mark really wants to impress y/n but singing is not the way to go apparently

- the one with the feelings [1] [2] ▶▶▶ in which mark and y/n have a lot of feelings but never at the same time apparently {or: the times we fought our feelings for each other and the one time we didn’t}

- the one with the internship. ✓ in which mark and y/n have to live together during an internship upon meeting but it turns out they’ve met before {university!au} {strangers to lovers!au} {part for the ‘100 things we said’ series}

- the one with the study break. ✓ in which mark is a really annoying boyfriend who just wants you to stop studying for a moment

- the one with the theatre. ✓ DRABBLE in which mark and y/n kinda hate each other but they kiss on stage anyway

- the one with ‘that friend’. ✓ DRABBLE in which mark doesn’t want to be ‘that friend’ anymore

- the one with the tattoo. ✓ in which y/n’s tattoo suddenly disappears and it might be because of the boy from the go-kart track {soulmate!au}

- the one with the water bottle. ✓ in which mark’s water bottle is not filled with water (at all) {part of the 1ydp}

- the one with the anniversary. ✓ in which mark forgets your anniversary, but its okay because so do you {angst} {part of the 1ydp}

- the one with the glass of water. ✓ 18+ in which mark is y/n’s brother’s best friend and they really need to be quiet because it’s midnight and they’re not supposed to be doing this {smut}

- the one with the driver’s license. ✓ DRABBLE in which mark doesn’t trust you to drive. 

- the one with the ex boyfriend. ✓ in which you and your ex boyfriend, mark, take part in a video interview surrounding your past relationship. {part of the ex boyfriend series}

- the one with the lunch date. ✓ DRABBLE in which mark sleeps in and youre supposed to have a lunch date today.

- the one with the jacket. ✓ DRABBLE in which it’s cold and mark really wishes you had taken a jacket. {or: the things you said to show your love} {part of the 50 things you said series}

- the one with the bad dream. ✓ DRABBLE in which you had a bad dream and seek comfort in your roommate’s room.

- the one with the grey hoodie. ✓ DRABBLE in which you go to your ex boyfriend’s house to get the things you left there. [angst-y]

- the one with the assistants. ✓ DRABBLE in which you and mark are assistants to the worst people on the planet, but it’s not so bad when you have each other.

- the one with the emotional support boyfriend. ✓ DRABBLE in which you and mark agree to date purely for emotional support.

- the one with the tiktok. ✓ TIMESTAMP in which mark wants to film a tiktok with you, and it may or may not be because he gets to kiss you. {best friends to lovers}

- the one with the study date. ✓ TIMESTAMP in which there is confusion over whether studying together is or isn’t a date.

《《 huang renjun 》》

- the one with the cupboard in the art room COMING SOON!! in which renjun just needs more paint and he finds y/n hiding in the cupboard

- the one with the rooftop party. ✓ in which renjun and y/n meet at a party but he doesnt think they’ll ever meet again (the things you said when we thought we’d never see each other again) {university!au}

- the one with the hopeless romantic. [DRABBLE] in which renjun is a hopeless romantic and hes hopelessly in love with the girl he bumped into on the street

- the one with the ex boyfriend. ✓ in which you and your ex boyfriend, renjun, take part in a video interview surrounding your past relationship. {part of the ex boyfriends series}

- the one with the New Years eve party.  [2]  ▶▶▶ in which you’re invited to your ex boyfriend’s family’s New Years eve party [angst-y]

- the one with the second chance. ✓ in which you and renjun take part in a video interview six months later. {sequel to the one with the ex boyfriend.}

《《 lee jeno 》》

- the one with the summer job [1] ▶▶▶ in which yn needs work placement and ends up working in an infirmary to help little kids, and one very injured jeno {summer camp au} {part of the Hideaway Hollow series}

- the one where it all ends COMING SOON!! in which breaking up is for the best, but jeno and y/n want to spend the time they have left as best as possible 

- the one with the contract [1] ▶▶▶ in which y/n really likes someone else so jeno offers to date her (naturally) {part of the 100tws series} {fake dating!au} {high school!au}

- the boyfriend one. ✓ in which jeno is a boyfriend {bulleted} {part of the boyfriend!NCT series}

- the one with the lost cat. [1] ▶▶▶ in which Jeno’s looking for a cat and he finds his ex instead {neighbours!au} {exes to lovers!au} {part of the 1ydp}

- the one before it ends. [1] ▶▶▶ in which a break-up is for the best but dammit theyre gonna spend what little time they have as best as possible {angst-y}

- the one with the ex boyfriend. [jeno] ✓ in which you and your ex boyfriend, jeno, take part in a video interview surrounding your past relationship. {video interview}

- the one with the makeup. TIMESTAMP in which, somehow, you convince jeno to let you put makeup on him

- the one with the banner. DRABBLE in which you want to celebrate Jeno’s last day as an MC

- the one with coffee boy. TIMESTAMP in which jeno is a barista and gives you a free coffee.

- the one with the school dance. DRABBLE in which Jeno wishes he had asked you to the school dance.

- the one with the unsent messages. in which jeno still wants to text you all the time, even after you broke up. {angst}

《《 lee donghyuck (haechan) 》》

- the one where you’re enemies [1] [2] ▶▶▶ in which haechan and y/n are chemistry partners and a project might be enough to bring them together {text au}

- the one with the desk mates COMING SOON!! in which the teachers think you and donghyuck are cute and make you desk mates all the time and ngl theres a bit of chemistry there (and it’s not just because of the chemicals in the lab)

- the one with the study date COMING SOON!! in which donghyuck and y/n need to study but he has a habit of breaking things {high school!au}

- the one with the balcony. ✓ in which it’s too cold to sleep outside and donghyuck can’t sleep in his own room {part of the 100 things we’ve said project} {enemies to lovers!au} 

- the boyfriend one. ✓ in which donghyuck is a boyfriend {bulleted} {part of the boyfriend!NCT series}

- the one with the bruises. ✓ in which donghyuck gets hurt but luckily his neighbour is there to help fix him up {neighbour!au} {part of the 100 things we’ve said series}

- the one with the social butterfly. [12:12] in which hyuck could totally confess if you didn’t stop to talk to someone new every three seconds. [blurb]

- the one with the ex boyfriend. [donghyuck] ✓ in which you and your ex boyfriend, donghyuck, take part in a video interview surrounding your past relationship. [part of the ex boyfriend!nct series]

- the one with the note. ✓ TIMESTAMP in which your crush gives you a note in class. {crack/humour}

- the one with the mind reading. ✓ DRABBLE in which Renjun can read minds, and he knows Donghyuck is thinking about you. 

- the one where you’re someone else. [pt.2] ▶▶▶ in which you wake up in someone else’s body. more than once. {body switch!au} {enemies to lovers!au}

- the one where it’s not valentines day. ✓ DRABBLE in which your boyfriend hates valentine’s day but loves you.

- the one with the birthday wishes. ✓ DRABBLE in which donghyuck loves to celebrate your birthday.

- the one with the study date. ✓ TIMESTAMP in which the study date with your best friend turns into a real date. {best friends to lovers}

《《 na jaemin 》》

- the one with the washing machine [1] [2] [+ bonus] ✓ in which y/n lives in the same building as jaemin and the common laundry is a very messy place {neighbours!au}

- the one with the summer camp [1] ▶▶▶ in which y/n and jaemin are both ‘team leaders’ at a summer camp for little people and he may be hot but goddammit your collection of twelve-year-olds are going to beat his into the dust if its the last thing they do {part of the Hideaway Hollow series} {summer camp!au}

- the one with the mistletoe COMING SOON!! in which both jaemin’s crush and mistletoe are at this party so let’s make it happen {high school!au}

- the shopping one. ✓ in which jaemin goes shopping with you {bulleted}

- the one with all the ajax. ✓ in which y/n needs to clean her apartment and she finds a lot more than cleaning products in the apartment above her own

- the one with the detention. [1] ▶▶▶ in which jaemin’s a bit of an asshole but y/n is determined to do this chemistry project {enemies to lovers!au}

- the one with the ex boyfriend. [jaemin] ✓ in which you and your ex boyfriend, jaemin, take part in a video interview surrounding your past relationship.

- the one with the threat. TIMESTAMP in which you ask your best friend if he’s going to kiss you

- the one on Spotify. TIMESTAMP in which your crush is listening to your music.

- the one where you’re someone else. ▶▶▶ in which you wake up in someone else’s body. more than once. {body switch!au} {high school!au}

- the one where you break his heart. TIMESTAMP in which jaemin shows up at your house but you might love someone else. {fwb!au} {angst}

- the one with all the voicemails. in which your best friend always leaves you voicemails even though you never check them. {best friends to lovers!au}

- seven minutes in heaven + crush!jaemin [DRABBLE]

《《 zhong chenle 》》

- the one with the halloween party. ✓ in which y/n and chenle are enemies but can’t recognise each other at a costume party {high school!au} {bulleted fic}

- the one with the ex boyfriend. ✓ in which you and your ex boyfriend, chenle, take part in a video interview surrounding your past relationship.

- the one with the prom date. DRABBLE in which chenle is or isn’t your prom date, depending on who you ask.

- the one where you’re gone. TIMESTAMP in which chenle can still recognise your perfume even months after you break up. {short}

- the one with the impromptu picnic. TIMESTAMP in which you and your boyfriend have a picnic but you’re dating your relationship the whole time. {short} {inspired by are you bored yet? by wallows and clairo}

《《 park jisung 》》

- the one with the girl who calls him stringbean. [10:22] in which jisung’s girlfriend calls him stringbean and he can’t figure out why he doesn’t like it {timestamp}

- the one with the whipped cream. ✓ DRABBLE in which you and your boyfriend pull a prank on the others, and revenge is imminent

- the one with the ex boyfriend. ✓ in which you and your best friend, jisung, take part in an interview surrounding your past relationship.

fake texts and social media

- stupid questions with nct dream COMPLETED.

- nct dream twitter COMPLETED.

- nct dream vs. renjun on twitter COMPLETED.

- a meme hyuck moodboard

- asking best friend!donghyuck out on a date COMPLETED.

answered questions

- what sort of fashion/style on a girl would donghyuck be attracted to?

- what sort of fashion/style on a girl would jeno be attracted to?

- if nct dream were woolies bakery items, what would they be?

- if nct dream were dog breeds, what would they be?

- if nct dream were nct dream title tracks, what would they be?

- what would nct dream major in in uni?

- nct dream x Brooklyn 99 characters

fic inspiration / title a fic for me challenge

the one with the superpowers [NCT Dream series] paint me [Huang Renjun x reader] the one with the list [Johnny Suh x reader] [Nakamoto Yuta x reader] the one with the nicotine addiction[Lee Taeyong x reader] the one with the glitter pens [Lee Donghyuck x reader] the one where chenle’s a vampire [Zhong Chenle x reader] contradicting thoughts [Mark Lee x reader] the one where mark finds out [Mark Lee x reader] xoxo valentine [Jung Jaehyun x reader] mark of a star [Mark Lee x reader]

the one with the lost bookmark [Qian Kun x reader] the one with the half-finished sentence [Mark Lee x reader] the one with the purple hair [Johnny Suh x reader] the one with the allergies [Lee Jeno x reader] the one with the cinnamon bun air freshener [Johnny Suh x reader] the one with the ninja turtles phone case [Mark Lee x reader] the one with the secret identity [Mark Lee x reader] the one with the stuck pickle jar [Johnny Suh x reader] the one with the spell book [Lee Jeno x reader]

coronavirus inspired fic ideas

THE BOYZ

all works

the boyz as hogwarts students [OT12]

ATEEZ

all works

《《 choi san 》》

- the one with the practice room. DRABBLE in which san’s tired after dance practice and just wants to cuddle.

even in your last moments with itoshi sae, you can't bring yourself to say what you truly want.

itoshi sae x gn!reader, angst

there’s an inkling of guilt that eats at you. “am i selfish?” for wanting to see pain in sae’s eyes, for wanting to see an indication that he’s just as hurt as you are?

but, in front of you, he sits with his lips pressed tight. he’s purposely avoiding your gaze, eyes downcast on his intertwined (ringless) fingers in front of him, and he’s still. his eyes are indifferent, maybe even apathetic. it’s a cruel feeling, knowing that even in the end, you would never be able to reach him. you want him to look at you— you want to look him in the eye with a strong facade and ask him all these questions that plague your thoughts, but instead the words die on your tongue.

you just want him to look at you. but he doesn’t.

a beat of silence. “do you love them?” the question rolls off your tongue, and you wait with baited breath for his answer. though, you already know what it’s going to be, and you wonder why you’re even bothering asking. for acceptance? for closure? or maybe in your mind, you think that as long as he doesn’t say it, it’s not true. (but you already know, it is true.)

another beat of silence. “i do,” sae answers and his voice is almost too low to hear, but the words ring loud and clear in your ears. it repeats like a broken record in your mind, and you can’t ignore the pang you feel in your heart. his eyes finally flicker up to meet yours, and yet you feel yourself tearing your gaze away. the part of you that yearns for him starts to feel like it’s burning under his stare. “i’m sorry,” he adds, but it feels like more of an afterthought.

or maybe damage control. you don’t really know.

you feel like crying at him, you feel like cussing him out, you feel like hurting him the same way he had with you— “you have nothing to be sorry for, sae.” you end up pathetically reassuring him. “i understand.” you don't, though you say it anyways. it’s hard to miss the frown that forms on his lips at your words, and he reaches out to hold your hands in his one last time. but, maybe to save your last shred of dignity, you pull your hands away.

for a brief moment, you think about staying. maybe you could sit here with him for a little longer, pretend that something could change. but the ring on your finger is starting to burn on your skin, and even the once-shiny diamond seems dim— a mockery of you and sae.

there's a small clink on the table when you finally rip it off your fingers. sae isn't able to bring himself to look at it.

your feet move on their own, dragging you toward the door. each step you take away from sae feels heavy. it feels wrong; it feels like a part of you is being left behind with him, but you don’t turn back.

you can’t.

©rindreamery, 2024

I NEED HELP !!!

Around 4 years ago I began reading a soukoku fic that was based on the movie your name, sadly I closed the window in which I was reading it 🥲and I have not been able to find it ever since.

If anyone has any clues, please help this soul

Please soukoku community, I believe in you 😭

PLEASE PLEAAASE don’t say a fic is slow burn if the characters are fucking on chapter THREE omg I need REAL slow burn, the agonising one, slow burn so slow you think they’ll never end up together ‼️‼️ slow burn where the TENSION is building up so BAD the eye contact is as good as smut PLEASE

Lando Norris and 6!

something about him is made for somebody like me | lando norris

song; the boy is mine - ariana grande

a/n: anon let me tell you right now your mind is immaculate because i had a fic based on this exact song about lando but i didn’t ended up posting it howeverrrr i always had the idea to do something like this and you just made it possible so thank you 😽

part of the spotify wrapped special

You were never one for having many crushes. In fact, you could count on one hand the number of guys you’d liked, and you’d still have fingers left over. But Lando Norris? My God. You didn’t know what it was about him, but you were convinced you were destined to be together. He was made for you.

Of course, your feelings for Lando were your little secret. Outwardly, you had no intention of showing just how smitten you were. But back at your apartment at night, you’d consult your tarot cards, asking when the time would come for things to start falling into place. If your friends could see you, they would definitely be confused. Since when did you make such an effort for a guy? But they wouldn’t understand—Lando wasn’t just any guy.

Sometimes, it felt like your efforts paid off, like when Lando smiled at you in the paddock or greeted you casually.

“Hi, y/n,” he’d say, always with that mischievous grin that was so undeniably his.

He never skipped a greeting—not even on the days he had some model-of-the-month on his arm—but it never went further than that. So, you decided to take matters into your own hands.

It started innocently enough. You lit a candle for him and wrote letters, asking the universe to make him notice you the way you noticed him. Then, you began engaging him in casual conversations at the paddock before ignoring him for a couple of days, only to flash him a radiant smile as if nothing had happened. Not long after, Lando started bringing you fruit in the mornings to your workstation. You smiled to yourself—he’d never done that before.

One day, after a tough qualifying session that left him starting P11, you handed him a quartz crystal, saying it was for good luck. The next day, he won the race. Another time, you mentioned you’d light a candle for him, and he landed pole position. Lando started looking forward to your tokens or words of encouragement each weekend. And when you didn’t give him anything? Something always went wrong.

He began depending on you, convinced you were his good luck charm.

It wasn’t witchcraft, really. He was already a great driver—you just gave him a little boost of confidence, and he did the rest. But now, not a day went by when Lando didn’t scan the paddock for you as soon as he arrived. He began to miss you when you weren’t around. The endless stream of women in his Instagram DMs no longer mattered; the only woman who held his attention was you, and you always seemed preoccupied with everyone else but him.

It wasn’t just about luck anymore. Lando wanted to be around you all the time.

What was this feeling? And why did everything suddenly smell like vanilla and coconut?

Lando frowned when he finally spotted you, laughing with Oscar. Since when were you two friends? And why were you laughing so hard? There was no way the Australian was that funny, he thought. Jealousy coursed through his veins, and he had to restrain himself from dragging you to the most secluded corner of the paddock. Instead, he walked over to Oscar and casually informed him that Andrea was looking for him, leaving you and Lando alone.

“I was actually looking for you,” the Brit said, his expression serious.

You had to suppress a smile as you looked at him—furrowed brow, clenched fists, flushed cheeks. He was jealous. Another step in your plan was working perfectly.

“Well, you found me,” you replied innocently, flashing him a sweet smile.

Lando gave you a lopsided grin, studying you. You looked so soft and sweet—he wondered how you’d look in his bed. If only he knew.

“Nothing for good luck today?” he murmured. The air between you grew warmer, and you felt your cheeks flush under his intense, yearning gaze.

“I forgot to bring something,” you replied nonchalantly. “But I could draw some cards tonight if that would help you feel more confident.”

Lando shook his head, his eyes fixed on your lips.

“You and your witchy ways. They’re going to be the death of me,” he said, stepping closer until his face was just inches from yours.

“I’m not a witch,” you defended yourself, because you weren't. To your knowledge, at least.

The scent of vanilla and coconut flooded his senses, and he nearly groaned. Lately, he smelled it all the time. It took him a moment to realize it was just your perfume. Witch or not, Lando was utterly bewitched by you.

“Maybe something else?” he murmured, circling back to his earlier question. “Just a taste,” he said, his gaze dropping to your lips, and you knew exactly what he meant.

You hid your smile, realizing you now held all the cards.

“Let’s do something,” you began. “Get pole position, and then I’ll see you in my room.”

He actually whined.

“Give me something now—for luck,” he pleaded.

You shook your head.

“After what I’ll do, you’re going to become world champion.”

You winked at him and Lando smirked mischievously, while you concealed your darkest desires behind your sweetest smile. The boy was finally yours.

Me: Forgets my friend’s/family’s birthday. even my my own birthday sometimes.

also me: TODAY IS MY BOY PERCY’S BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUD ILY HAVE SOME BLUE CAKE