Insideoutsideft - Somehow My View Of Beauty

Dudes, just write. Stop asking me if you should start/continue/finish what you’re writing despite having x, y, or z problem. If you want to write I am in NO WAY authorized to tell you when to stop/start. That’s up to you and always will be.

If you think “no one will ever genuinely like this” you are 100% wrong. 100%. Think about all the trash out there that has fans. I wrote stuff when I was twelve that had more genuine fans among my family/classmates than ANYTHING I never shared with another living soul. It’s impossible to write something no one will like.

If you think “I’ll never finish it so why even bother?” you’re only depriving yourself, man. That’s like saying, “I like this cookie, but I can’t eat the whole bag. Guess I won’t even try one.” ????? Just write the story, to hell with endings. Some of the best works in the world went unfinished by the author/composer/architect, yet we admire the heck out of them. Maybe, instead of thinking you’ll never finish something, tell yourself this is the one you will finish (and repeat it until you do).

If you feel “this hurts to write, I’m too close to the subject material” either set it aside or full speed ahead. You MUST know how many classics, prize winners, and life changers came from someone’s very real pain and experience. Addicts, traumatized persons, victims, quite often they find solace and healing in writing about their experiences. Most importantly, so do their readers.

If you want to write, write. Otherwise only you are standing in the way of what you want.

study playlist

calming musicians to listen to while studying:

- cavetown

-troye sivan 

- the 1975

- the neighborhood 

- declan McKenna 

- arctic monkeys

 - lorde 

things to do more:

take a journal and camera everywhere I go.

write down lovely words that people said to me, poems, ideas, and quotes that inspire me.

plan fun itineraries for weekends and bucket lists for seasons.

eat fresh fruits.

don’t let my insecurities stop me from enjoying things.

do everything I want to do that takes daily practice, patience and some discomfort.

collect recipes to make.

tell people i love them and compliment what I like about them.

watch classic movies.

hug people tightly.

let myself calm down and relax.

break tasks down so I don’t get overwhelmed.

drink tea or fruit infused water.

put on my favorite perfume, even if i’m not going out.

don’t wait for the perfect day to start a new thing.

make plans with friends and actually follow through.

give myself permission to not be perfect, and remember something is better than nothing.

make my bed in the morning.

tidy my desk and remove things and tabs i don’t use often.

go to inspiring places like gardens, art museums, old cafés, oceans or forests.

make playlists or write to cope with emotions.

take photos of everything i love.

Awkward Sibling Hug

“Look, I’ve been thinking about it. I won’t be gone forever, okay? I’ll still visit you at home, and we’ll chat online. We’ll make it work.”

“I don’t want it to work… I just wish summer could last forever.”

“But it can’t, Mabel. Look, things aren’t gonna stay frozen this way. It’s part of growing up. Things change. Summer ends.”

Night and Day, Marc Rimmer

“Elliott let me in… it’s your birthday let me in… I don’t care that it’s raining… I got you the eggplant you wanted…”

I just started playing Stardew Valley for the first time and here’s how it’s going!