OMG YAAYYYYY Are You Feeling Okay Though?? Have You Taken Any Medicine?? If You Have Come Down With Something,

ᥥ⑅ᥥ unhealthy relationship, unlimited flow / killing games, codependency implied, mention of killing

but imagine that you have a childhood sweetheart, and he is so beautiful that even flowers, even the sky, even the sea, even precious stones, even a fire — nothing can compare with him, and he looks as if he really smells of perfumes and mists, but at the same time he is beautiful not only as a woman, even if he is thin and flexible like bamboo, but as a man, wide and stable, and you constantly look at him 24/7, thinking about how much he is smart, ambitious, loving and caring, adoring you with all his soul and more, then looking around, afraid that someone will take him away, because years later you don't even care if he becomes ugly, but before your eyes he has gone from an incredibly beautiful boy to the same young man.

and everything is fine with you: he initiates a relationship, takes care of you all the years, continues to take care of you even when he makes you an offer at home in an intimate setting (respecting and fulfilling your desire if you suddenly want a public proposal, asking in advance), and you are already married, and he always takes care of you, builds with you plans for the future, your families communicate closely, he is always respectful, but not "too shy or timid"... Eeen if all these annoying perverts keep hitting on him, as if they don't notice the ring on his finger or your presence!...

... just so that one day you wake up in a world where you refuse to play some kind of horror game in real time, without being able to get out, saving your life, with the same incomprehensible "players", fearing for your life, knowing that your husband is waiting for you at home, probably anxious that you've been away for so long, and you're even ashamed that you haven't said goodbye to him in any way and can't contact him, but you're forced to stay here — and when you're almost desperate, you meet your husband!...

... but it's not your husband?

they look the same, the same mole, the same curve of the eyes, the same smell, the same breath, the same look — but it's not your husband. something's wrong- why doesn't your husband recognize you? and it's so annoying! why can they harass him, taken man, and seduce him like shameless rakes, but you, a legitimate spouse, can't do anything?! it's annoying! he's your husband! it's definitely him! how could it not be him?! it's one person! is this damn place playing with you?! you're trying to find out something, but it's useless! Is it really an NPC? but they are the same! How can this be a projection? even the most perfect projection can't be that good!

... when you manage to return home after completing your mission, you can't help but scare your husband with your agitated behavior, as if you're some kind of angry dog or spouse and he's an unfaithful husband, — even if he's trying to play along with you and trying to find out what's wrong, massaging your shoulders and asking you to tell him what not so much, looking into your eyes so... touchingly and promising to improve if you talk to him and spend more time with him... that your heart melts.

you're just... on your nerves. of course, you can't say anything, but you're still glad that he accepts you, even if he doesn't understand anything. he's so good! much better than everything that happened! no NPC can compare to him! he is so loyal, gentle and loving, as if he cannot live without you, as if you are the center of his universe, and looks at you with the eyes of a sad dog... that you don't find the strength to feel any dissatisfaction in the end.

... but when you are forced to return to the "game" again, there is an NPC who looks like him again. and again. and again. and again. and again, someone is trying to seduce and flirt with them! why is someone flirting and seducing your husband (even if it's a projection) in front of your eyes?! you can't stand it! It's your husband! yours! how dare they touch his waist, make greasy compliments despite his disgust, try to touch him, offer him privacy, make greasy, obscene phrases and jokes behind his back- if they could, they would have stripped him here already!

disgusting! beasts!

you can't be polite or kind enough! how can you just watch?! you're definitely going to get into a fight with someone! right here!

you're so shocked when it's this "likeness of your husband" who protects you by hitting you first, and takes care of your wounds, even if it's a zombie apocalypse — but you're still amazed that he didn't try to stop you as the instigator, and instead asks you to go with him. or when he gives you supplies. or when he's looking out for you. or when he takes care of you even in terrible conditions, promising you that he will definitely buy you new clothes and put you in order as soon as the world becomes "like before," and you try to smile, but everything inside you gets cold. why does he look so much like him, even if you know it's not him? why is he just- are you cheating on your husband with this likeness of a husband who is exactly his copy, not even a mirror image, who breathes the same way, looks the same, holds the same, walks the same, they are the same, you don't see a single difference, and you get scared.

this is the first time that you die in a mission on your own, because you cannot withstand this strange, uncomfortable, abnormal overload, even if your death still counts as success in the mission — but when you open your eyes, lying on the bed,

your husband looms over you,

looking almost... frightening. and scary. very.

“... my love, you were restless in your sleep. do you want to talk, or should I get some water? or both?”

both.

both, — and you're afraid of it.

YOURE MAKING A ZERG WORK???? OMGOMG NOF UCKING WAY

Is it a work of a Zerg novel you've read??? If so, is it okay if I ask which one 👀👀

I CANT WAIT THO AHDJDMHWKSKS

mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah♡♡♡ your brain is SOOOO huge and brainy<3333 as always, to be honest,,,, your tastes are very sophisticated and advanced /hj /pos

char will be heavy key like a main character from "After Transmigrating Into a Villain Cannon Fodder Male Zerg" [novelupdates] cuz he's sooo bratty and adorable</3 I love the first chapters of this novel, it's so sweet,,,, they're not exactly the same characters, but the motives are the same<3 I think the cute short zerg male who is a yan!transmigrator is a good character; I've already filled out 50% of the day's work, but it's only the world building so far, - but still don't have much left<333

Oh yeah??? Well, guess what???

*evil boops u evil boops u evil boops u evil boops u* evil boops u*

Hello darling <333

I know I'd be interested, but Zerg novels/stories are definitely much more niche than a lot of other ones. Tumblr is definitely not the place to post works of niche genres/subgenres if you want a lot of engagement. If you still want to post on Tumblr, that's fine, I just encourage crossposting lol.

But at the same time, not many people write works on many BL/Danmei novels, so writing for that itself is already very niche. You just happen to be writing a niche work for an already niche (writing/fanfic) community. Either way, you have readers here who happily follow you and enjoy your works, so for all we know, this may even grow your audience even more!! <33

Ur ao3 is still the same one as before, right???

hihihi love<333

... you know, I do not know if you notice it or not, but your tone (if can say that about the text) sometimes varies so much,,,,, if I did not know that it was you, I would have thought that it was someone else</3 /neu /pos even don't get me wrong, I don't usually point things out to people- but it's so sweet that I can't keep quiet anymore, you are often so unintentionally? adorable💔💔💔 you can't blame me for wanting to praise you, you make me want to hold you and cry /ht /lovingly

AWWWW I LOVE YOU TOO BOO💔💔💔 I'm not moody about the attention, but just the interest. like, there are niche works that are interesting, and there are works on a popular topic (you know what I'm talking about...) that are not interesting. I'm not annoyed by the niche or lack of attention, - especially because I'm uncomfortable with too much attention here, that's why I move a lot, - but I'm disturbed from thoughts of making uninteresting work and being unable to vibe with it,,,, anyway— main thing to have pleasure and vibe around!!! and I hope you will write again soon too, boo :333 /ht

I don't trust my gut in terms of "it's interesting or not," because there are different niches, but we've thrived quite well with our novels, you know, so that calms me down. like, popularity is more a consequence of the fact that my work is interesting, rather than a goal in itself</3

but anyway,,,, thank you so much for comforting me and supporting<////3 you are so sweet, I don't even know if I'll ever be able to get it back</3 and I'm not planning<3 you're stuck with me now. I'm in your closet to bite your ankles at night.

yesss, it's the same, I don't plan to change it<333 I only change pseuds, but the account is always the same. anyway, I'm thinking of leaving a link to it here, so that I don't get lost if anything.

you're also making that tone here!!! /t I'm going to work with this as an omegaverse🤓👆a little mess with tags, I can always add or remove extra ones, soooo<333

okay, but imagine that you are, for example, a transmigrator and all that, and you accidentally find yourself in the world of the dark problematic book that you read, but as one of the parents of the future female mc (where, you know, she only has a very controlling and caring father who went crazy after the death of her husband, but then she finds herself in a world without support and all sorts of horror begins), while her second parent [you] died shortly after her birth (not as a result of childbirth, but let's imagine that there is no "childbirth" in this world as such, but that's another topic) partly because of their homesickness and soul pain, since "father abducted his spouse [you] and forcibly married them and held them just like he holds daughter."

and imagine that you are now this very spouse, even before meeting your "husband", but after a chance acquaintance with him you realize that you like him and he is actually very respectful and careful and so loving, even if still clearly "love sick", and you have a good marriage (despite the fact that you have to run away anyway, because your new "family" is very against it), and you live well together and love each other — and you still die, but you don't disappear.

instead, staying until the next "circle of reincarnation", which will come in a couple of decades, and all this time you are watching how your husband, who was supposed to be overprotective of your daughter and make her stay at home, actually gradually turns your gentle princess into a very combative, smart and cunning girl who grows up on his stories about you and your love and this "cruel world", and you even begin to suspect that your daughter may be a transmigrator too,,,,,, at the same time, your vision of what is happening is limited, but you also cannot completely leave, because it turns out that you need to complete a mission, to break the cycle of rebirth that you are currently experiencing, as the plot of the book is cyclical until it is broken from the inside or repaired, and you are reborn into someone like an NPC maid,,,,,,,,

Well... if you'd like to share (even another tiny peek), I'm not refusing.... but at the same time, I can happily wait to see it with all the other crumbs ( >∇< )ﾉ

That's amazing progress so far though, especially if you're still working on it!!!!!!

... I must admit, my post was a trap so that you would write me a message & I could send you more pieces even if you hadn't asked😔 /guilty/j /<3 I was actually planning to send them to you because I can, but now I can send them on initiative :3333

I don't remember what I sent you before, so I'm going to feed you with the random pieces<3 I've been trying to find something particularly interesting, but I haven't found anything straight 'wow' so far, so keep the first half<33

I've finished the first half!!! I'm thinking tomorrow/today (I'm not sure what time you have right now, but it's already "tomorrow" for me, February 2nd, and I think you have too) I will be ready :333 and I'll start writing my new babygirl, I've already done the design and banners<3333

you really sent me another text just to tell me that you love me</////3 😭 so precious /pos I love you so much,,,,, if we were in that experiment with marshmallows and willpower (I do not know if you have heard of it or not), where you can get one marshmallow now or two after lunch, I would eat you-marshmallow right away, because the second one like you can not exist & because I would not have waited for lunch with such an opportunity😔 /t /hj /<3333 i love you more/t

I think my soul healed a little after I read that /t But in all seriousness, THATS SO GOOD SO FAR ASBFJSK

REALLY?! YAAYYYY I CANT WAIT (It's still the 1st for me ://) Ooooo!!! And new banners!!!! I can't wait to see them all

HAHA I did yes lol, right as I hit the ask button I saw I didn't say it back so I had to send a separate on. You always have the most unique way to compliment someone /pos I'd eat you too!! No other doves exist like you, I'm very happy I found you <33 /ht /gen tho

you have a soul? /t /j thank you,,,,,,, you're too sweet for everyone's wellbeing :((( /t /pos /affectionate I'm going to make this work a mess, because I haven't written anything for a long time, and I want to paint my hand before I start writing about babygirl<3

eheheh<3333 they are sooo aesthetic<333 too bad you can't see them so far... /playfully /ht

awwww, loveheart,,,, I'm just always trying to impress you<3 I haven't been able to make you blush again yet, but I'm sure I'll do it again one day /t /affectionate

mhm mhm, no other doves besides me? ehe ehe, it's a good news<333 and me too!!! you are my little precious lucky charm and still such a good fellow writer, cotta<///3 im blessed to have you in my life, you have no idea how much!!!♡♡♡

... noooo, of course not... why would you think so? I'm not going to be like that... haha... I mean... ifykyk, big sib/bro...

it's like 3am for me😔 but I'm trying to fix my sleep schedule to sleep before 1:30-2:00 am!!! i mean, I use an alarm clock to wake up in the morning to have the same wake-up mode, but there are still problems with falling asleep</3

... WAIT it's afternoon for you??? 😨😨😨

... panna cotta, I hope you like zergs, because if you don't, then pretend that you haven't seen this first work<///3 you know, boo, they say as you name the boat, so it will float, - and we're going to be a niche at the bottom of the sea

I've run out of the hyperfix that's been with me for more than six months, so I'm going back to writing... all roads lead to Rome, obviously...

Omg wait are u still shadowbanned 😟😟

-panna cotta

AHAHAH no darling💔 I just came to my senses. I think I got sick or something,,,, as soon as I was unbanned, I went to write to you and then fell asleep<3 and thought about our sweetboy from that tentacles novel... but first i need to post my zerg post♥️♥️♥️