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NOT supportive to your system friends:

- "can you make [alter] front?"

- always asking who's fronting

- getting upset when they can't remember something

VERY supportive to your system friends:

- giving them money

- "here's $50 for you"

- relinquishing your money to them

- offering them money

Made by @deludedfools on January 7th, 2024.

Requested by @lixheng.

Credits artist @moririforever

Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.

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Artist credits @fluffystarrie

system protip: if trying to keep track of your switches and fragments feels impossible and is driving you crazy, stop doing it. or at the very least dont put as much weight into making it perfect. you dont need to track every switch, you dont need every fragment logged. sometimes its easier to just exist as a system than drive yourself up the wall trying to micromanage everything about your complex disorder

can we talk about the darker parts of attention seeking in hpd? not just dressing up and being flirty.

let's talk about compulsively lying

let's talk about compulsively lying so much that you're not even sure if what you say is true or not

let's talk about wishing you were injured or ill for the attention

let's talk about faking injuries or illness

let's talk about purposefully injuring yourself

let's talk about putting yourself in dangerous situations by talking to sketchy people

let's talk about not knowing how to say no to those people

let's talk about involuntary trauma dumping

let's talk about socially ostracizing yourself by acting in an inappropriate way for the temporary rush of attention it gives you

let's talk about questioning your own personality, values, and morals because they get so easily shaped by whoever you're around

let's talk about how easily manipulated people with hpd are

let's talk about how easily abused people with hpd are

let's talk about vulnerable people with hpd are

let's stop this dichotomy of demonizing or romanticizing/fetishizing hpd

chuuya art after 10000 years????? i tried again with him he still is very hard to draw. But he's my special

Who would’ve guessed our colonel is a memelord

I'm trying to remember that I don't hate my friends, to remind myself that I am just hurt.

I am not wanting them to actually suffer, I just want them to know what it feels like to be ignored.

I am doing my best to acknowledge that I do not want to see them dead, that I just want them to stay and hug me.

I try to know that I am not a terrible person, while screaming at myself that I am.