# Accurate Af

I bought a bundle of novelty shirts at a nearby gift shop…

Hello! Bonjour! Hola! Shalom!

My name is Sabrina and this blog is about to go live again. In time, I’ll explain whats been going on and the reason for my previous blog and forums disappearance. Fair warning, although I am actively capitalizing and checking for spelling, grammar might not be on the money. I’m currently in a Sleep Study facility and woke up about 30 minutes ago. I don’t know what sparked my wanting to do a post now, I’m usually not spontaneous like this. Maybe its the slight disconnect to society and my normal schedule that has me feeling nostalgic? 

The reason I’m here, and by here I mean the Sleep Center is because sleep and I have a very complicated relationship. The first time around with this test, the results weren’t too comforting, thus leading to a new diagnoses lead. As complicated as the relationship sleep and I have may be, I don’t mind it much. It allows me more time with my creativity and gives me a way to come up with content for you all. It’s a true Catch-22 case.

I guess it’s time I describe a little of where I am: I’m currently sitting in “The Lounge” being stared at by an employee who thinks I don’t know they’re staring, and by the official cameras to monitor my motor skills until it’s time to officially begin phase two of the study. Unfortunately, I’m far too comfortable with cameras, being watched, and attached to machines by wires and monitors. Do not fret, in time, I’ll explain it all. Remember I said this in the beginning. I’m a person that keeps their word. I got you.

As I pressed “Enter” to begin a new thought process, I looked at the title and chuckled. I would have added the Hebrew and Greek greeting but forgot how to spell it. No, I will not go to google. 

The employee I mentioned earlier is still staring but now I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve been angrily typing 70 words per minute or if its because they have never seen a Latina wear a Shimmer gloss at 7:36 in the morning on a Friday. Either way, they have to understand that at any given moment, I will have to scratch my nose due to allergies and they’ll have to deal with it. Soon you’ll find out that (don’t know why I’m blanking on his name) like the Parks and Recreation character said “I do what I want.” 

So many things I wish I could do, like vlog this BUT, In time, I’ll explain why I can’t vlog without my Pop Socket that is currently being thrown in a truck by an overworked Amazon employee.

I scrolled as saw how long this post will be.. so to spare you, I will stop typing and call it a day on here. Until we meet again! 

🤔 Seems about right

Shaun learning to use sarcasm and making jokes!

infinity war spoilers but I don’t give you context

Jimins eyeshadow game tho. 💅

Thor + some of his under-appreciated intelligence

Please be aware of this double standard.

Freddie Highmore was nominated for a Golden Globe for his portrayal of Shaun Murphy on The Good Doctor.

Now, as an autistic person, I think he’s done a great job of playing a character who is his own individual person. Shaun Murphy has a distinct personality as well as a past, aspirations, motivations, wants, needs and flaws. He doesn’t feel to me like a really bad cookie cutter of “random senseless behavior because hey this character is autistic” that tends to plague actors who play autistic characters. Scenes from Shaun’s POV show what drives his behaviors and tendencies. The “savant” stuff appears to be a really good memory and may also be his visual thinking, which is often portrayed by showing him mentally assembling or disassembling things.

I know the writers and crew are neurotypicals, but it feels like they’re really doing homework instead of showing what they *think* autism is. Freddie said in a Facebook Q & A that autistic consultants are helping with the show, so there is that. (Now let’s get the whole bunch away from Autism Speaks, blaaaah!)

The show’s creators stated that Shaun is supposed to just be Shaun, not a representative of all of autism everywhere. Everybody presents their autism a little bit differently, so of course Shaun may or may not remind you of you or an autistic person you know. I happen to share similar autistic traits to him, such as clasping my hands together (done that all my life!) and the way Shaun moves his body is similar to how I move mine.

But there is a double standard out there that NTAB* people often engage in regarding autistic / disabled people. I’m going to say “autistic” a lot below, but you can imagine “disabled” is there, too. Please take note of what I’m pointing out.

Neurotypicals who pretend to be autistic for movies or your TV screens get rewarded for acting in a way unnatural to them, and their ‘autism’ disappears as soon as the director yells “Cut!”

Actual autistic people who behave their normal way are judged, bullied, called cringey, excluded, are shut away and some of us get abused and murdered by our caregivers. 

Nobody yelling “Cut!” is going to make autistic people stop being autistic. We are often forced to act neurotypical via damaging therapies, and those of us trapped in a 24 / 7 acting job never see any reward for it.

We, as autistic people, have to listen to parents saying they wish we were never born or how they wish they could change us to be the person they “wanted” instead of who we are. We have to hear about people longing to cure and prevent us. We have to listen to charities talk about what tragedies we are and how burdensome we are on our families. We deal with being dismissed, spoken over, ignored and silenced.

Somebody can play us on TV and get rewarded and lauded for it, but us being ourselves is something to mock and destroy.

This is the truth any time an able-bodied actor takes on the role of a disabled person. It sends a message that disability is only acceptable if it can go away as soon as a director yells “Cut!”

We live in a society that rewards people who pretend to be autistic for entertainment, but shuns actually autistic people in the real world.

It’s a very dangerous double standard. 

Please be aware of it.

-( Anyone can reblog, and I encourage you to reblog so this spreads around. )-

* NTAB = Neuro-Typical, Able-Bodied

Ft Tony montana

😂💜💜💜

bet this is exactly what shikamaru thought before falling asleep