potato2601
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At the end of my rope and it keeps getting longer like some sort of clown handkerchief bit?
upstream, mary oliver; gravity and grace, simone weil; journal of a solitude, may sarton
there's nothing quite like a random piece of media you consumed ages ago and loved at the time but kinda forgot about after coming back to you years later absolutely out of nowhere like "you thought you could forget about me? don't worry! i'm here to be the only thing you care about yet again" and then the cycle repeats
it's fun but also painful because the intensity of the obsession revived makes it hard to focus on anything else like someone get these fictional people out of my head please
Queer media is about the disappointment and devastation of the word "friend"
Xiao Xingchen took the bowl with two hands. "Of course I want to live. If I may live on, then allow me to persist."
"Xiao Xingchen" saying this to Wei Wuxian is just. Gnawing my own arm off. I can't.
Like. Argh. Yeah, of course Xue Yang is a survivor. Feral street cat. Bobcat. Palas cat. He wants to live, he will live, and thrive, and every second of being alive is a middle finger to the former Chang clan leader and to everyone else who treated him like something they stepped in when he was just a kid who needed help.
But he's also saying this as Xiao Xingchen. As him, about him. As if saying this while pretending to be Xiao Xingchen will make it true for Xiao Xingchen.
He's as determined to raise Xiao Xingchen as he is to survive himself - and the howling, desperate Why of it all is killing him. Can't Xue Yang want to live enough for both of them? Why doesn't Xiao Xingchen want to live, like Xue Yang? Why doesn't Xiao Xingchen want to live like Xue Yang?
bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements
The way everyone I know is so comfortable and content to use chatgpt to do everything for them is actually fucking crazy. What do you mean you are using chatgpt to vent. What do you mean you can’t produce art without using chatgpt because you have no ideas. What do you mean you can’t write a basic fucking essay without using chatgpt. What do you MEAN you can’t do RESEARCH without it?!?!?!?!??!?! IT CAN’T DO RESEARCH. WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT ARE YOU ALL LOSING YOUR DAMN MINDS. You can’t have a fucking coherent original thought?!?!?!?! You’re not capable of thinking for yourself??? Oh my fucking GOD yeah let’s just destroy the planet because we’re too incompetent to fucking use our brains
should i eat first or shower first *has phone in couch time for another 3 hours due to choice procrastination, a behavioral phenomenon observed in pigeons and rats as well*
kim dokja and bihyungs dynamic before they get used to each other is so funny. me and the guy i keep trapped in my torture dungeon for entertainment (he keeps torturing himself and the others in new and creative ways i hadn't thought about before. hes actually kind of better at this than i am. im kinda scared)
“I love you.” His heart was trembling violently. “I love you, not the way a disciple loves his Shizun, but… I’m being bold, I… I love you.”
After a long pause, Chu Wanning finally said hoarsely,
“… I have a bad temper.”
“You’re very nice to me.”
“I, I’m old.”
“You look younger than me.”
“I’m so ugly…” “I’m not good-looking.”
“…”
“Not as beautiful as you.”
“Would you like to see my eyes?”
“Your eyes…?” Mo Ran’s gaze was gentle, reflecting the figure of a man in white. He said, “Did you see that? He’s the most beautiful person in the world.”
Chu Wanning glared at him. Although his heart was in turmoil, there was not much of an expression on his ice-cold face. Mo Ran gripped his palm, sweating profusely. He said softly, “I love you.”
Every time I see mxtx fandom discourse about how villains and antagonists “had no choice” in doing evil and how we should feel sympathy for this cowardice because “it’s not like they (actual factual ruling class) had the real power to break the mold,” I think of:
Si Xiyan, imprisoned disgraced cultivator, being told that she can be accepted back as the most beloved disciple of one of the most powerful cultivation sects in the world if only she would kill her baby, and her choosing to ingest the poison on her own so that her child could be born safely at the cost of her life.
Gongyi Xiao going against his entire sect to rescue Shen Qingqiu from the Water Prison despite already having an increasingly tenuous relationship with the sect leader and his daughter.
Shen Qingqiu, certified scum villain, risking his life over and over again to do right by Luo Binghe even though he is certain that Luo Binghe will repay his kindness with death.
I think of:
Lan Wangji, a clan heir, fighting his own beloved family to protect one of the few people in the cultivation world willing to stand up for what’s right, and accepting being whipped for it.
Jiang Yanli, a clan heir’s widow, running onto a battlefield and giving her life for her little brother.
the Wen siblings, labor camp escapees and remnants of a reviled clan, sacrificing themselves so that their protector wouldn’t be killed for the crime of self-defense.
Mianmian, a servant only just elevated to becoming a disciple, publicly defecting from her sect in protest of them slandering a hero.
I think of:
Yin Yu, a banished god, choosing death over regaining his godhood by harming Quan Zizhen—the shidi he’s always been told to had “stolen his rightful status” in life.
the street performer, a poor man who could only make money performing humiliating entertainment for the well-off, choosing death over saving his own life by harming the man who for all intents and purposes stole his business.
Mu Qing, a staple god for about 800 years who had betrayed friendship for the approval of other gods, finally choosing to make an enemy out of the ruler of the heavens over betraying his former friend again, even if it meant that said former friend would never believe that he didn’t betray him again.
Of all of these characters, some of them were people of privilege, but many of them were the very bottom of their social hierarchies. Some are staring down the edge of the knife with their only hope of survival and living well being to make the immoral choice. Nevertheless, they chose to be moral people by putting themselves on the line rather than sacrificing others for personal gain, a choice that no antagonist—all of whom are people of power and means even if they didn't start out that way—makes in an mxtx novel. “But everyone would have hated them!” is not an excuse for participating in evil. “But they would have died otherwise!” is not an excuse for participating in evil. If other characters of less means could do it, if their peers could do it, then why didn’t your fav?
“He hates me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk accepts him as a companion.
“He doesn’t care” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk waits 72 hours on the bridge.
“This is poisoned” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk offers him a meal.
“I’m stealing his story” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk decides kdj is his◼️◼️.
“He’ll get his revenge” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk keeps him safe.
“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk reaches out his hand.
“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk prevents his self-sacrificial plans.
“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk cradles him in an embrace.
“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk fights to save him.
“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk pierces his heart with a sword.
“I am alone” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk chases after him for 74000 years.
Moran and chu wanning experienced hardships true but so did xue meng he was there when chu wanning died he was broken too . When moran and shi mei left he felt lonely too. In the end he was left alone all by himself and he had no control over it. In two lifetimes he saw his parents die and in the second he learned that his father was not his father and his brother was not his brother. But he still believed in them loved them .He too admired chu wanning .
When fate sentences you with solitude. When family is dead and friends have other priorities it’s something that could happen to anyone and it’s something so immensely tragic .
absence is heavier when love was greater.
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how does one recover from the after effect of twenty five twenty one?
Ideas maturing from debut album to Unheard
In Work Song, "no grave can hold my body down, I'll crawl home to her." Addiction, imprisonment, crimes, death itself are no obstacle to love.
10 years later, Too Sweet acknowledges that more mundane obstacles like career, sleep schedule, and lifestyle/personality differences, can break two people apart.
In A Week is a gentle duet, full of nature descriptions, coming to the conclusion that it would be peaceful & romantic to lay down and die together.
10 years later, Wildflower & Barley is a gentle duet, full of nature descriptions, and the awareness that death is all around. But this time, the singers wish to be like the dirt, not to decompose but to work towards growing something new
The Guanyin temple confession is maybe my favorite scene of any piece of media I've ever consumed because it's so unpredictable.
You got the villain just halting his evil plot, full stop, in the middle of his gloating speech, no less, because "What do you MEAN you guys aren't even together?! What?! No, no, no, there won't be any romantic misunderstanding in my hostage situation! Honey, tell him!"
And then the calmest, most polite character alive procceeds to go his version of apeshit on this punk like "my brother like-likes you, you fucking pinecone! You useless twink! We all thought you were a hoe but you are just an imbecile!" (Which is a nice parallel to the Jiang brothers' hatred for the peacock, but I digress)
And THEN, when it's the perfect moment for a climatic love confession, homeboy goes and screams for everyone to hear that he... really wanted that dick, Hanguang-jun! Where's love? Who cares? WWX wants to ride you like a carnival ride: sticky and filthy and multiple times.
It's a wonder that Xichen didn't yank that string from Jing GuangYao to strangle WWX himself.
This has been my favorite addition, I cackled like a seal irl lol
it really is a wonderful story, isn't it?
