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She loves him, as she’s always loved him.

follower celebration edit: for @rorylgilmore

idk how many times I edited this stupid thing but I really hope this is the last time. if you’ve liked this a long time ago and come here now you’re probably like ???? what happened?

long story short, tumblr has a limit on posts, I think it’s the amount of links you can put in one post. so I had to come up with a solution and the one that I liked the most was making masterlists for each group (reactions and scenarios) and then each idol. it’s a lot of masterlists, but it’s a lot cleaner too and ordered, so I’m actually quite happy with it. simply click on the masterlist you want to check out and it’ll redirect you to where you want to go ♥

→ bts reactions → bts scenarios → kim seokjin → min yoongi → jung hoseok → kim namjoon → park jimin → kim taehyung → jeon jeongguk → ot7 → diamond maknae → dal

→ got7 reactions → got7 scenarios → mark tuan → im jaebum → jackson wang → bambam → kim yugyeom

→ monsta x reactions → yoo kihyun → chae hyungwon → lee jooheon → im changkyun

→ shinee scenarios  → choi minho → lee taemin

→ red velvet reactions → kim yerim

→ nct reactions → john seo → lucas → mark lee → lee donghyuck

→  jessica ho →  sunmi

→ chou tzuyu

→ song yuqi

→ im yoona

→ blackpink scenarios

→ exo reactions → exo scenarios

→ seventeen scenarios → vernon

→ txt scenarios → txt reactions

→ ateez scenarios

→ ot5 → a.c.e reactions

Lin-Manuel Miranda and his star in the Hollywood Walk of Fame!!

The Return of an Empress Masterlist

Title: The Return of an Empress

Status: Completed

Pairing: OT7 x Reader

Genre: Isekai, Angst, Romance, Fluff, Smut 

Characters: Empress!Reader, Advisor!Jin, Advisor!Yoongi, General!Hoseok, Advisor!Namjoon, Assassin!Jimin, Knight!Taehyung, Knight!Jungkook

Summary: After one fateful night, you find yourself transmigrated into your favorite novel as the Empress that shares the same name as you. As a bookworm, most would think you’d be happy, but how could you be happy when the Empress you’ve become is expected to be killed in three months. The only thing on your mind now is to learn how to survive.

Warning: May contain depictions of violence and mentions of abuse throughout the story.

Total Word Count:  280,808

Smut - | ☼ |  Fluff - | ♡ |  Angst - | ☆ |

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I’m Not Yours | kth. teaser II

↠ pairing: Kim Taehyung x Female Reader

↠ summary: Being set up with someone when you’re not looking to date is pretty tough.

Being set up with someone who has no interest in you is pretty hard too.

However, being set up with someone who is head over heels for your best friend? Now that’s a challenge within itself.

↠ genre: college au, strangers to lovers, friends to lovers, a messy love triangle, fratboy!tae, angst, fluff & smut

↠ rating: 18+

↠ word count: 5K (for chapter 1)

↠ warnings: angst, crying, feelings, tae unknowingly hurts oc, shouting (for the teaser), depiction of a toxic friendship, accusations are made, it’s one angsty mess... sorry 😩

↠ a/n: here is the second teaser for this fic! i wanted to show everyone a different side to this series, a complete opposite of the banner 👀 thank you to @kimtaehyng for the lovely banner which i love very much 💗 & @chateautae for having a final read of this before i posted, helping me fix it up 💗 feedback would be greatly appreciated & the tag list is still open <3

masterlist || series masterlist

↠ TEASER:

“Did you really just sleep with him?” Eunji spits out at you with eyes full of anger and deceit.

“She didn’t sleep with me! I would never even think of doing something like that.” Taehyung strongly defends himself whilst unwittingly shifting further away from you.

Your eyes follow his movements, eyebrows furrowing in confusion.

“Please, as if I’d be one to believe that.” Eunji scoffs as she paces back and forth in your bedroom, the feeling of stress overwhelming her completely.

“I’m literally in love with you, exactly why would I sleep with her?” Taehyung explains almost repulsively as he watches Eunji with careful eyes, evidently analysing her next possible response.

There was too much going on for you to even consider what thoughts you had brewing in your mind.

“You two have been spending an awful amount of time together, I wouldn’t be surpri-'' Eunji begins to snap back before she is interrupted by Taehyung once again.

“That doesn’t mean anything! She’s nothing compared to you! I love you!” Taehyung bellows out without any thought.

You feel your body go limp and your throat begins to tighten, tears threatening to spill.

Eunji’s face mirrors yours, pale with concern and hurting. Her expression softens as she stills in shock from Taehyung’s bluntness.

It takes Taehyung a moment to understand the tension he has now created. His stomach drops instantaneously as he slowly turns to look at you with guilt.

“Y/N I-” he utters quietly whilst moving forward, reaching for your arm. He fails to take hold of your crying self as you rush towards your bedroom door.

“Please, just leave.” Is all that you manage to muster out of yourself, before slamming the wooden door behind you.

Taehyung jumps at the sound of the damning slam as he falls back onto your bed, his pent up emotions finally escaping him. He bitterly regrets not having control over the harsh diction he had so casually spat out.

Taehyung lets his tears fall, cursing at himself for the seemingly irreparable damage he was now responsible for.

↠ taglist: @chateautae @opaljm @kookiestarlight @jimidol @xiaokoo @agustdakasuga @moonchild1 @lizsvcks @btsis7okay @honeyminsvga @vantxx95 @veronawrites @diorggukie @kimtaehyng @somewhereofftheglobe @boopytae @kokoandkookie @kikisfic @ppeachyttae @svftbaby @vaekth @swcetnight @writtenwhalien @strawverryxmilktae @taegularities @cantchooseanamebye @namjooningelsewhere @preciouschimine @dvalitaes @bangtanhome @aomi-nabi @mwitsmejk @oddlymnsmh @buttvi @taejinnies @taebabie11

↠ release date: tbc

↠ first teaser

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feel free to send me a message if you want to know how heavy the angst is or if there is a happy ending for a story in particular, I will be happy to clear it up and answer any of your doubts. thanks and happy reading!

{✯} personal favorites

⇢ jeon jungkook | reader

∘   blue orchids ✯       ↳ soulmate & hanahaki au | angst & fluff | drabbles: moonlight, home after rain ∘   first light (feat. taehyung)     ↳ hotarubi no mori e au | angst & fluff ∘   the swirling ways of stars     ↳ fantasy au | angst & fluff ∘   written on the sky     ↳ ‘seeking a friend for the end of the world’ au | mostly angst, bits of fluff ∘   the train of lost souls (feat. hoseok) ✯     ↳ fantasy au | mostly angst, hints of fluff ∘   now we dream apart     ↳ soulmate au | angst ∘   below thunder showers (feat. yoongi) ✯     ↳ sci-fi au | angst, drama, thriller, bits of fluff ∘   water ripples     ↳ christmas themed | fantasy au | mild angst and fluff

⇢ kim taehyung | reader

∘   first light (feat. jungkook)     ↳ hotarubi no mori e au | angst & fluff ∘   drumming song (m)     ↳ dark fantasy au | angst ∘   ballade to the dawn (m)     ↳ christmas themed | idol & songwriter au | fluff, soft angst ∘   limbo     ↳ guardian angel au | angst ∘   away from the sun ✯     ↳ soulmate au | mainly fluff, hints of soft angst ∘  danse macabre (m) (coming soon)    ↳ horror & paranormal au ∘  fly me to the moon    ↳ fantasy au, magician au | fluff

⇢ park jimin | reader

∘   the blue notebooks     ↳ time travel au | soft angst, hints of fluff ∘   lavender hues (m) ✯     ↳ fantasy au | angst & fluff ∘   your silent portrait (coming soon)     ↳ fantasy au | based on koe no katachi | angst and fluff ∘   the waltz between us ✯     ↳ christmas themed | fantasy au | angst and fluff

⇢ min yoongi | reader

∘   below thunder showers (feat. jungkook) ✯     ↳ sci-fi au | angst, drama, thriller, bits of fluff ∘   without the stars     ↳ slice of life | angst ∘   the raindrop prelude     ↳ pianist au | angst & fluff

⇢ jung hoseok | reader

∘   the train of lost souls (feat. jungkook) ✯    ↳ fantasy au | mostly angst, hints of fluff ∘   gold and silver     ↳ medieval & fantasy au, based on game of thrones | drama, angst, romance

⇢ ot7 | reader

∘   a requiem of time (coming soon)     ↳ immortal oc au | angst & fluff

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↳ re-est. january 19, 2020 ↳ copyright © by hueseok

all rights reserved. no part of my work is to be reposted / translated / used in any kind of platform without my permission. i only use tumblr and this account to post fics !

DISCLAIMER. all the stories below are a work of fiction. names, characters, businesses, places, events, and incidents are either the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner.

LAST UPDATED. july 22, 2021

LIVE TO DIE. [ 10.1k | angst | vampire au ] ━ you’ve always heard it from everyone around you that the years given to one human life could never be enough to let you do all the things you wanted to do before you die. they reckon it’s too short or perhaps human life itself is too fragile to be able to live your life to the fullest. and you believe them—yet when you meet seokjin and get to know him little by little, you begin to think that maybe that isn’t true after all.

SWEET NOTHINGS. [ 3k | smut | sugar daddy au ] ━ you aren’t supposed to be so threatened to know that he’ll be going to a strip club for a bachelor’s party. but since he’s miles away far from your sight, you might as well just give him a reminder who’s waiting for him back home.

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shy kisses. ━ “in which seokjin still gets shy whenever you two kiss, despite dating for a significant amount of time now.”

jackpot. | nsfw ━ “in which seokjin just always gets reminded of how lucky he is to have you as his wife.”

THE REALITY OF FALLING IN LOVE. [ 11.2k | angst | pining au ] ━ for the past two years of being close friends with min yoongi, the only boy you’ve had an interest in is park jimin. he knows that, that’s for sure, and that’s why despite his unwavering feelings for you, he can’t risk it all and confess. though when jimin himself urges him to be upfront of what he felt for you, he decides to do it for once. the result? not so much of a happily ever after. but who said falling in love was easy, right?

LOVE GROWS WHERE YOU GO. [ 11.4k | angst, smut | arranged marriage au ] ━ determined to make you and yoongi grow closer for your upcoming wedding in two weeks, your parents plan a trip for the both of you that lasts five days long. you know you should be ecstatic about it, considering your longtime crush on your fiancé, but by how you’re positive that he secretly despises your whole being, you don’t find this mini vacation with him something to look forward to. that is until things take an unexpected turn and suddenly, he makes it apparent he doesn’t hate you at all as you reckoned.

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pact. ━ “in which yoongi proposes a funny and yet not quite entirely impossible idea.”

the face behind the voice. ━ “in which you finally the meet the person behind the radio who you may or may not be dreading to initially meet.”

OLD FLAME. [ 10.7k | angst, light fluff | exes au ] ━ four days before your brother’s wedding, he’s assigned you to go fetch his best friend at the airport and drive him all the way to the venue with you. the only problem? the said best friend is hoseok, an ex (sorta) who you also haven’t seen for almost 7 years. a lot have changed definitely, but it seems like the unresolved feelings you have for each other are still there.

NOT BY THE MOON. [ 6.8k | fluff, smut | f2l au, werewolves au ] ━ every three months, hoseok goes away from town to take care of himself as he undergoes in the state of rut, because there’s absolutely no way he’s going to be near you at such a time, especially when you’re the only one he wants.

related drabble/s: deleted scene

LINGER. [ 5.5k | angst, smut | forbidden love au ] ━ engaging in a relationship with someone you know is already betrothed to someone else is a move that hoseok knows is absolutely stupid, yet he still finds himself entangled in the very same situation with you, in which even though he knows he shouldn’t be expecting you to stay with him despite having your complete love and attention—still begs and hopes that in the end, you will.

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morning temptations. | nsfw ━ “in which hoseok tries to seduce you from going to work.”

common friend benefits. ━ “in which having mutual friends with your crush, hoseok, definitely has its perks.”

generous gift. ( 01, 02 ) | nsfw ━ “in which hoseok, the prince you’re betrothed to, asks for a gift as he bids his farewell a day before leaving.”

attention please. | nsfw ━ “in which hoseok thinks of a particularly fun way to get your attention.”

beautiful mint life. | nsfw ━ “in which the way hoseok comes out of the shower and always smells minty fresh never fails to turn you on.”

kiss, marry, kill. | nsfw ━ “in which you’re the only person counted on to kill the villainous king of the land. however, you find yourself not being able to do it on the night you’re supposed to fulfill your duty because of one great flaw: your growing affection for king hoseok.”

“pull over. let me drive for awhile.” ━ “in which hoseok insists to take his turn as the driver in your road trip together.”

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[ 7:32PM ] ━ “the one with the greeting.”

[ 10:24AM ] ━ “the one with the lip balm.”

GIVE ME LOVE. [ 15k | angst, smut | est. relationship au ] ━ you’ve been in a relationship with your boyfriend for over five years now, yet the talk of marriage has never been initiated between the two of you. of course, you try to somehow squeeze it in from time to time, but it seems like no matter what, namjoon just won’t take the hint.

ENCHANTED. [ 5.6k | fluff, smut | harry potter au ] ━ being married for almost a year now, namjoon thinks it’s time for you and him to start trying to build your own family together. so, to introduce the concept to you as enticing as he can, he prepares a romantic and cozy date night where he intends to drop the idea to you, his lovely wife, unaware that when he does, he’ll be getting the biggest and most shocking news in his life.

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sleepless nights. ━ “in which even when you’re far away, you still make namjoon fall asleep in ease.”

kiss test. ━ “in which namjoon asks for a kiss (just for reference in this book he’s writing, he says).”

“can you picture it? you and i together?” ━ “in which namjoon’s the reason why you have cold feet.”

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[ 11:44PM ] ━ “the one with the funny question.”

[ 8:34AM ] ━ “the one with jock!namjoon.”

CALL ME BABY. [ 12.3k | fluff, smut | f2l au, fake dating au ] ━ sparked by the will to help you turn an annoying situation into your favor, jimin pretends that he’s your boyfriend. but what’s supposed to be a one time thing happens more than once when you get invited to a party and he has to come with you, and suddenly unknown feelings start to reveal themselves and a platonic relationship begins to get pretty awkward.

QUIET KISSES. [ 4.5k | fluff, smut | est. relationship au ] ━ it’s hard keeping a secret from your seven-year-old son, especially if it’s your relationship with his uncle jimin, your best friend for as long as your remember and someone who only recently did you begin dating. or alternatively, the one where you and jimin do it in the room next to your son’s with the hopes that you’ll be quiet enough to not get caught.

related drabble/s: big reveal

SYNTAX ERROR. [ 7.1k | fluff, smut | fwb au ] ━ there’s an obvious difference between being solely fuck buddies and fuck buddies who are slowly getting emotionally attached to one another. unfortunately for you and jimin, it seems like you’re falling in the second category. so, what’s the solution to not be in that kind set-up anymore? you stop being friends with benefits, of course. and for jimin, that means you don’t see each other for sex anymore. you actually move forward and date for real.

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perhaps this time. ━ “in which after all this time, you and jimin might really do exceed than just being friends.”

zero o’clock. ━ “in which jimin has a way of comforting you that compares to no one.”

picture-perfect moment. | nsfw ━ “in which after expressing that you wanted to try doing something risqué at least once in your life to your boyfriend, jimin—he suggests that the act be a rather scandalous activity inside a photo booth.”

“my family thinks we are dating.” ━ “in which you have to pretend to be jimin’s girlfriend in order to play along with his family’s view on the both of you.”

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[ 12:56AM ] ━ “the one with tight cuddles.”

KINGDOM COME. [ 10.5k | angst, smut | modern royalty au ] ━ with the royal council pressuring you to produce an heir, you try and give in to their requests and find a husband that will give you a child—just not from the person they’ve been thinking of though, but rather from the man who has always been secretly in your heart.

LOVE IS NOT OVER. [ 33.3k | angst | exes au, parents au ] ━ after getting a divorce two years ago, you can’t exactly say that your feelings for your ex-husband have completely vanished in the course of those depressing and quite miserable months. so when fate decides to play with you once again, letting your paths cross more often than liked thanks to your daughter, you tell yourself that you shouldn’t be as stupid and reckless as you were before—but things aren’t as easy as it seems, especially when taehyung begins to plant the idea that he’s possibly trying to win you back.

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at least. ━ “in which it’s no secret that taehyung’s not exactly a gifted cook, but hey, it’s the thought that counts, right?”

coffeephobic. ━ “in which taehyung hates coffee but you really love it.”

fake it ‘til you make it. ━ “in which you’re fake dating taehyung, one of the most sought out actors in hollywood, just so that the both of you can ride on each others’ fame.”

love or in love. ━ “in which taehyung asks you an important question, laying out very questionable factors too.”

dessert. | nsfw ━ “in which taehyung gives you an amusing yet all the same arousing lap dance.”

“we can’t be friends anymore…. i will always see you as someone else.” ━ “in which your friendship with taehyung seems impossible to fix, especially as he plans to move another university to avoid you.”

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[ 01:56AM ] ━ “the one with the feeling of love.”

CHEWIE & CHOCO BOY. [ 14.5k | fluff, angst | f2l au ] ━ all your life, jeongguk has always been and only been your best friend. no matter the countless misunderstandings and the never ending teasing when it came to the true nature of your relationship, you two remained firm about it—saying that you were really just really good friends and nothing more. though lately, that doesn’t seem to be right anymore, especially as the both of you begin getting confused yourselves.

LOVESHIP. [ 8.4k | sequel to chewie & choco boy ] ━ all your life, jeongguk has always been and only been your best friend. though that is until you started dating him and things just can’t be better than it is. but shifting from being just friends and being a couple isn’t as easy as it seems, especially when a certain ex just keeps on reminding you your insecurities about finally being jeongguk’s girlfriend.

HEARTBREAK VETERANS. [ 7.8k | fluff, angst | s2l au ] ━ there’s nothing bad about attending your best friend’s wedding, right? but when you’re attending the wedding of your said best friend who you’re secretly in love with, well, that’s where things really do appear bad. so, what better way to pity yourself than by ditching the reception and going to the nearest bar to get drunk? at least there you’ll freely be miserable. besides, you even got the chance to connect with the hot busker, resonating with him not only musically, but emotionally as well.

related drabble/s: still with you

MIO ANGELO. [ 33.3k | fluff, smut, angst | mafia au ] ━ it’s no secret to the whole nation how powerful the jeon family was. the efforts of the highly respected don jungsoo was the reason why the name of their clan continues to be a name that people thought greatly of and sometimes even feared. despite your father working alongside with the don, you never truly understood what the family possessed to earn them such acclaim; that is until you got closer to one of his grandsons, jeon jeongguk, that you caught a glimpse of how much power they truly seized as you see it first hand and become a part of it yourself.

related drabble/s: bonus scene #1; bonus scene #2

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LOST STARS. [ mini series. | fluff, angst | e2l au ] ━ the last person you’d expect to be there for you is your roommate, jeongguk, on the night you break up with your cheating boyfriend; because as far as you’re concerned, the both of you aren’t exactly friends, and he definitely shouldn’t be running to get you upon hearing you sob via phone call. so when he does, you begin thinking that maybe you’ve just been hard on him over the years, or perhaps he just liked pretending to be an annoying shit most of the time. either way, it becomes the beginning of an unexpected friendship finally blossoming.

DEXTERITY + STUPIDITY. [ drabble series. | fluff, smut | medical au ] ━ a drabble collection that features surgical intern!jeongguk x surgical resident!reader as they go through their odd senior-junior relationship, obviously having the hots for each other and yet, frustratingly goes into twists and turns in order to properly act on it.

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i love you. ━ “in which jeongguk says i love you for the first time by accident.”

i’m yours. ━ “in which you’re arranged to marry jeongguk, and for the most part, you don’t like him… until one day, you do.”

baby driver. ━ “in which jeongguk helps you to get better at driving.”

in heat. | nsfw ━ “in which jeongguk, the alpha, always gets possessive whenever he’s in heat.”

rousing rendezvous. | nsfw ━ “in which you and jeongguk hook-up inside the royal library.”

ʕ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっ BTS / OT7 REACTIONS.

oops, baby, i love you. ━ “in which they say those three meaningful words for the first time.”

peanut butter and jealous. ━ “in which they can’t help but get jealous as you talk to someone else for too long, they either make it too obvious or not at all (or so they think).”

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ʕ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっ OTHERS.

42 ways to say i love you. ( drabbles. )

drabble game.

where the drabble games go.

I Know It’s Breaking Your Heart

Calum Hood x fem! reader ; Luke Hemmings x fem! reader

Warning: angst and mild swear words

Word Count: 2515

Summary: It’s hard to watch the person you love in pain due to the feelings they hold for someone else. Y/N knows that Calum has feelings for her, and Calum is aware that she knows too. So what’s stopping the two from becoming official? Y/N loves Calum’s best friend.

a/n: This is inspired or based on the song ‘ghostin’ by Ariana Grande. It’s absolutely phenomenal, incredible, and heartbreaking and I do advise you to listen to it while reading.

I know you hear me when I cry I try to hold it in the night While you’re sleepin’ next to me But it’s your arms that I need this time (This time)

You hated feeling vulnerable.

Blinking away the tears threatening to fall down, you stare at the Instagram post that Luke uploaded a couple days ago. Thao🖤, it’s captioned, as it displays a beautiful image of him and Sierra. The picture is so simple yet so captivating that it radiates romance through the screen, making your heart ache once more from unwanted jealousy.

You close your eyes and place the phone beside you with the screen facing down before one hand goes to wipe away fallen tears, all the while the other rises to grasp and twist the garment covering you heart in current pain.

Soft sobs can be heard in the room, echoing throughout the air and bouncing from wall to wall. The silence is deafening, but you couldn’t seem to feel anything other than your aching heart as you vulnerably tuck your head in between your knees in attempt of self-consolation.

“Y/N?” You hear Calum’s voice call you from outside the studio. “It’s almost midnight lovely, why are you still here?”

Look at the cards that we’ve been dealt If you were anybody else Probably wouldn’t last a day Every tear’s a rain parade from hell (From hell)

You slowly look up from your position and place your eyes on the raven-haired man. Standing up abruptly, you pull him close in a tight embrace as you sob onto his chest.

Calum doesn’t say anything but rather only pulls you closer against him, burying his face on your neck.

To say that the two of you have been in this situation only once or twice would be an extreme understatement. You’ve lost count of the times that Calum has found you in this certain state of vulnerability, the first time being months back when Luke first talked about Sierra romantically.

That was at Ashton’s house on a Sunday morning after a Saturday night out.

You remember how Luke’s eyes shone under the light-washed room when he talked about meeting Sierra the night before, and how he hasn’t felt that way since first meeting his ex - when things were non-toxic and healthy. You remember how his dimples came out as his smile widened when he spoke of the cheesy pick up line he used to approach her. You remember the boys patting him on the back, happy that he’s found someone that was then a possible love interest. You remember being one of the ones to smile and hug him, telling him that he truly deserves someone to love in a way unexplainable. And you remember him thanking you for that, telling you how much he appreciates all that you’ve done for him and the band.

But then you also remember having to excuse yourself after breakfast because ‘you had to use the restroom,’ but really it’s because you almost felt yourself choking from holding back the tears. You remember suddenly bursting out of your seat and head straight to the bathroom, bumping into Calum on the way. You remember how Calum checked on you as soon as you two collided and how his face softened as soon as he saw your broken state. You remember faking a smile before pushing past him and finally reach the bathroom. You remember having to lock the door and open the faucet so that no one could hear you crying and in pain. You remember how Calum knocked softly and asked you to let him in, not taking no for an answer. And once you did, he allowed his actions to speak volumes and only hugged you tight against his chest, whispering sweet nothings and words of comfort against your ear all the while softly rubbing your back.

You remember the first out of the countless low points in your life, and each time Calum was always there for you. You don’t know whether you could’ve gone on remaining to be such good friends with Luke and the rest of the boys if he wasn’t there for you. You probably wouldn’t last a day without his comfort. Calum was and still remains to be your anchor, - your lifeline.

Baby, you do it so well You been so understanding, you been so good And I’m puttin’ you through more than one ever should And I’m hating myself ‘cause you don’t want to Admit that it hurts you

But it’s so wrong. It’s so wrong what you’re doing to him.

It doesn’t take a genius to understand why he’s done all that he’s done for you. Sure he’s your friend, but so is Ash and Mike, so is Crystal and Kay.

So when you asked him why,

“Cal, why are you doing this?”

“Hm?”

“Why are you here? Why aren’t you out right now with the rest of the boys? It’s a Friday night, Cal. You could’ve met a girl today.”

“The only girl I need is right here with me.”

“Cal I’m serious. Why do you stay with me? I mean- don’t get me wrong, I appreciate all that you’ve done for me and I truly love you from the bottom of my heart, but you know you don’t have to do any of this.”

“I know that Y/N.”

“Okay, so why do you?”

-and he replies with nothing, you knew.

The silence was the loudest of all answers he could’ve possibly given.

After what felt like hours, the two of you pull apart and out of the embrace. Your eyes still remain closed as you try to steady your breathing. Lips quivering from both the pain and the cold, you feel Calum wrap around his jacket around you which then makes you suddenly step away from him.

Startled, Calum reaches forward to touch your shoulder in a comforting manner, “I’m sorry Y/N I didn’t mean to scare you. I just wanted to give you my jacket since you seem col-”

“I’m sorry, Cal.” You cut him off with a whisper.

“What?” He replies, his gaze softening at the sight of your defenseless exteriority and his heart aching from your delicate words.

I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again Over him, mmh I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again 'Stead of ghostin’ him

Sighing, you raise your head to look at him before smiling weakly, “I know you care about me. In- in the same way I care about Luke, and-” You readjust yourself by looking away from him, “I know it hurts you. I know it hurts you seeing me cry because of how I feel for him and God Cal, I’m so sorry for being selfish and accepting your embrace every time you come to me.”

“No no no no no Y/N no-” He tries to cut you off.

“Im so sorry for being such a hypocrite and not putting your feelings in consideration the same way you’ve been putting mine. I’m so sorry for just thinking about me Cal. I know it’s breaking your heart and- fuck, I’m so fucking sorry that I’m just allowing myself to do this to you.” You sputter your words out quickly, pausing in between due to the sobs escaping your lips.

Letting out a weak laugh, you smile as you look up at him, “God I wish I love you instead of him. I wish I loved you instead, Cal.”

“Shh shh, don’t say those things alright? You can’t possibly blame yourself for how you feel.” He responds soothingly, his hand finding its way to the back of your head as he pulls you in another hug, yet this one being firmer and tighter. “-I would know. It’s not your fault, Y/N.”

You grasp the fabric of his back and squeeze in attempt of comfort, smiling sadly and ironically, “The fucked up part is that it’s not his either.”

Letting out a soft sigh, you sway from side to side as you’re in the embrace, “He’s so happy with her, and I should be happy for him. But instead I drown myself in misery. I can’t even last an hour during a date without wishing I was with him instead. I’m so fucking pathetic, honestly.”

“We both are.”

“Guess we are perfect for eachother then.”

“Guess so.”

We’ll get through this, we’ll get past this, I’m a girl with A whole lot of baggage But I love you, we’ll get past this, I’m a girl with A whole lot of baggage, yeah

Making your way out of the studio, Calum again tries to wrap his jacket around you, and you let him. 

You thank him silently before giving a small smile and pushing the door open, Calum trudging along behind you closely. 

The both of you silently walk through the halls as you pass by the records and record labels upon which are in bright colors, screaming in yellow and green from the Sounds Good Feels Good album and red and blue for Youngblood. Your eyes find themselves scanning the walls ahead as you say memories captured in camera. 

Suddenly coming to a stop, Calum realizes the distance between you and him as he finds himself ahead of you. Turning around, he sees you biting your lip as you clearly try to hold back the tears. You were looking at the displayed image of you and Luke in a very tight embrace, taken just backstage when the guys have won their first ARIA award. Ironically, the sweet moment between the two of you was captured by Calum himself. 

You take one last look before swallowing the lump that formed in your throat as you continue your walk, grabbing Calum’s hand in the process. 

Calum slightly gets startled at your actions for some reason, even though hand holding is a very common gesture that the two of you do. Perhaps it was the timing upon which you did it. Or maybe he’s just falling in love with you even more, so much more that what was once a friendly action became a meaningful touch to him. 

Smiling sadly, Calum says nothing in fear that you’d suddenly let go.

Though I wish he were here instead Don’t want that living in your head He just comes to visit me When I’m dreaming every now and then (And then)

Once the two of you reach the outside, you pull him to a stop and look at him. 

He stares back at you with a kind of fondness that warms your heart, how could you have possibly been blessed by whichever power is about above with someone like him? 

Putting down the bags, you ask him to do the same, and as he does what he is told, you then take a hold of both his hands and place the in between the both of you.  

You smile before looking up at him, the difference in height taking a huge toll in the distance between both of your sights. Sighing softly, “I want to try us, Cal.” 

Taken aback, Calum looks at you in confusion, “What are you-”

“I don’t know when yet-” You cut him off, “and I don’t know how. I don’t know whether it’ll work out, and I don’t know whether this is crazy or not but- but I want to try, Cal.”

It takes a while for Calum to respond as he only stares at you adamantly before speaking up, “Y/N I love you.”

“Cal-”

“No. I love you. I’m in love with you. And I don’t know what that means to you or for you but I can’t just put my emotions on the line like this in hopes that you’ll run out of feelings for Luke and turn to me instead. That’s not fair, lovely. And I’m sorry but I can’t do that. I can’t just be a second choice.”

He finishes with a gentle tuck of your hair behind your ear, and suddenly you feel your heart flutter at the gesture.

This small interaction and display of affection has given you the boost to speak about what you mean, “Cal, of course not. I could never ever ask you to do such a thing. You’re not my- and should never ever be anyone’s second choice.”

You pause, trying to find the right words to say.

“And I’m not asking for that. I’m not asking for dates, or goodmorning texts, or gifts. I’m not asking for anything more than our current now. I’m not asking for you or myself or anyone to do anything. The only difference from now on is that I’ll recognize the fact that you have these feelings for me. That’s something I’ve never done before Cal, and you know it. Each time you’ve showed me affection I’ve brushed it off. Each time you’ve showed your love for me I chose to blindly ignore it. But I won’t anymore. I won’t ignore your love anymore, and I won’t pretend that you don’t anymore.”

Fumbling over with your words, you can just feel his eyes staring at you. It made you feel a sense of weakness, a tremble in your knees as you for the first time in existence felt intimidated by his presence. 

A kind of feeling you’ve only gotten around Luke.

“I’m not asking you to keep loving me, I’m just saying that if you do still choose to, I won’t hide how I feel about them anymore.”

It was a very long pause. A very long silence.

You hear distant car noises from down the street and certain chatters from crowds across the block. It feels as if you’re in a scene located in a desert and a tumbleweed passes by.

“And how do you feel about them, Y/N?”He finally asks, more daringly than sweet.

You kind of liked it.

“Just now?” You look up at him straightly, your head tipped up as his are tipped down, “I kind of like it, Cal.” 

And after all that we been through (And after all that we been through) There’s so much to look forward to What was done and what was said Leave it all here in this bed with you (With you)

You have no clue what is to come after that interaction. You don’t even know whether you made the right choice. 

You didn’t love Calum,

not yet.

But somehow you cared and longed for him lovingly. The way you needed him is unlike any other person you needed before. Not even Luke. He understands and connects with you in every way and every level. He brings you a sense of peace, a sense of calmness and joy and happiness that is incomparable to anything of existence. And that night, you felt something else other than joy or peace or happiness. No, instead you felt an immediate connection - a connection so strong that you felt so drawn to him than ever before. 

You didn’t feel love, you felt a connection on its way to love.

This connection is a type that developed over time, and after a long way hell in traffic, it’s finally reached its destination. 

soulmate (n): a connection so strong that you are drawn to them in a way you have never experienced before; as this connection develops over time, you experience a love so deep, strong, and complex, that you begin to doubt that you have ever truly loved anyone before. 

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