Theemptyseashell - Verified Fangirl

everyday a new taylor swift song is stuck in my head

“When they took everything from you, you found a way to make something from nothing.”

— Leigh Bardugo, Six of Crows

You know the melancholic feeling when you listen to an old song and it brings everything from the past back, the friendships, inside jokes, memories, events.

"yOuR trAuMa mAde yOu sTroNger" no bitch it made me prone to disassociation and afraid of loud noises

“The world only exists in your eyes. You can make it as big or as small as you want.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald / The Crack-Up

After you leave a toxic or abusive environment, a lot of normal things are going to feel weird, and just plainly awful at the beginning. Buying that thing you've always wanted can make you feel guilty for spending money on yourself. Resting can feel a lot more like being lazy. Safety and happiness can feel so temporary, almost like you are just waiting for life to get bad again.

It's normal, it's part of the process. You will get used to be at peace. To feel joy. To be safe. I know you will<3

I GET SO FUCKING TRIGGERED WHEN I SEE SOMEONE WHO HAS A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH THEIR DAD BECAUSE I WILL NEVER FUCKING HAVE THAT. 

“Be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.”

— Max Ehrmann

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all.