Why do I compare myself to giants and then wonder why I feel so small?
i managed to calm myself down from sudden anxiety today for the first time ever!? ♡♡ i'm really making progress !
Are teen years just supposed to be a shit show? Is my mindset supposed to change every 10 minutes? Am I supposed to go back and forth between the want to ruin my whole life and the want to build on and take care of myself? Am I supposed to feel this hostile towards my family? Am I supposed to feel like no one likes me? Is this what I should’ve expected?
"No matter how bad you think you look, someone's always gonna think you're hot." -Paraphrased from a woman thrice my age.
Who I would like to be:
Minthara Baenre
Cunty
Crushes the spark from her enemies eyes for power and dominance
Believes men are dirt
Fucking gorgeous
Who I actually am:
Dame Aylin
Friend to all and absolutely worships my partner
Only mean when others are mean to me first
Believes everyone is equal under Selûne
Scarred and somehow always spotted with dirt
Socializing as someone who is extremely strange has gotten a lot easier for me when I realized that the people who's opinions really matter to me aren't going to leave me or be mad at me just because I used the wrong phrasing or didn't have the right expression on my face when I said something and whatever other stuff like that. The people that really matter will stick around and celebrate the way we exist together, goblin noises and all
Last night, for the fourth time in as many weeks, I was able to provide a compassionate ear for someone that desperately needed to be heard.
Now more than ever, the world needs kindness; and I’m so glad that I was able to make my own small contribution in this regard.
I did a good thing today.
It makes me think... maybe I have value after all.