Monday Anime Line Up

Weirdly Productive?🤔

I haven't done much today honestly physically cause I still can't, but mentally...yeah I've done quite a lot...if that makes sense.😬

Let me explain. I decided to be part of the low consumer 2025 movement or under consumption core where i only get what I truly need and nothing else. I have been waiting for my taxes to come in order to make this happen and today is the day. 😤

Right away I bought the rolling cart for the kitchen cause I have a kitchen converted from a laundry room...don't ask, and have no counter space to cook properly. Then I got the meat slicer that I needed to buy bulk meat and cut it down to the sizes I need which is gonna save money for sure cause I need super thin meats for Japanese recipes and that is considered exotic or special cut and costs more.🤨

The last thing I picked up was new silverware cause out of three sets i bought in the last three years I have all the knives and nothing else. Yeah...my kids heard it good about that and now it is a $5 charge if I find ANY missing from the new set from everyone. I'm not messing around with this shit.😠

Other than a few used pieces of clothing for my daughter and I from Thred Up and adding three subscriptions for groceries including Costco, I am done. That's it. Also I learned something interesting that might be useful for others. Think about what you make an hour and then think about what you want to buy. How many hours do you have to work afford it? My daughter's sushi plate at Shop Rite is $14.99. That's a little less than an hour of my pay. If I eat my fav at Taco Bell, it's $8.00 and than includes up charge for frozen drink, added rice, and rounding up for charity. That's half an hour of work for me. Interesting huh? Think about that next time you want to treat yourself.🧐

This is what I listen to over and over again when I have had a shit day...like today.

When They Don’t want to Write

Nothing is more frustrating then when the person that you are writing with doesn’t want to write. I don;t mean that they are dealing with life or personal problems, I mean they just don;t want to. No reasons given. 

When I chose to write with someone, I am letting the person know that I put my faith and trust in them to uphold their end of the fic as much as I have to hold up mine. While the ideal is to write everyday, in reality this does not work out usually. Still when a story is lying stagnant cause on of the writers is being stubborn or is just ignoring me, it hurts. I then have the dilemma of moving on without them, but also hurting their feelings for not waiting for them.

Anyone else ever had this happen to them or any idea what to do int he situation?

Whats My Age Again

I did this last year with all the guys just for fun and it was so amusing I just wanted to post it again. I should do it for what they look like now too! ^0^

2004 ~ Age 27

2006 ~ Age 29

2007 ~ Age 30

2010 ~ Age 33

2014 ~ Age 37

Feeling Like Something is Missing

Watching You Tube vids and thinking about either eating something or going to bed is a normal thing for me every night, but tonight I feel like something is missing and I can't figure out what it is. 🤔

I mean I just finished a rough work night where I really went too far and I am sure my back and knee will be making me pay for it when I am trying to sleep but i felt fulfilled so that counts for something. Still I feel like something is missing.😖

Tomorrow I can't go to my physical therapy appointment cause my car is getting worked on but at least I have the day off. I am hoping that my body pain is not too much that I can't continue my reorganizing of my kitchen and hopefully my rolling kitchen counter gets put together in the next few days cause that will be really helpful! Al least I got the laundry done yesterday which is a bonus!😉

I don't know, maybe I'm worried about nothing and that's what is missing. Maybe I am not used to thing being okay and less worrisome than they usually are. Maybe that's what's missing. That dread that I usually feel that something is going to go wrong and catch me off guard.😵

Eh, I guess I'll eat something and then sleep on it. Night all.😴

Tuesday/Wednesday Anime Line Up

Since I only have a few anime on each day I decided to incorporate them like Fri/Sat. I'll only separate them if I want to talk more detail about one of the anime on that day. Okay onto the first one!😊

Aru Majo ga Shinu made

I was on the fence about this one but the third ep pretty much cemented it and funny enough there were no tears collected at all! it was more about meeting the people that will help Meg on her journey to collect them. I think that is what made it most enjoyable. As she collects more of them I think that will help me settle in even more.😁

Ballpark de Tsukamaete!

Every story just gets better and better I swear! We got to meet the announcer this ep and another one of the players and I hope that is a thing. They hinted but you never know with anime.😉

The other two let Reiko be a detective to try and figure out who the culprit of compliments was and the answer was even better than i had hoped! I was giggling so much at the end of the episode! So fun!🤭

Kanpekisugite Kawaige ga Nai to Konyakuhakisareta Seijo wa Ringoku ni Urareru

This anime is fast becoming one of my Top Five for this season! I am constantly surprised how quickly it ends and how good each episode is! I just want the next one so fast cause I just want to know what is gonna happen! I've never been on the edge of my seat for this kind of anime before that was not full of action and suspense!😆

Uchuujin Muumuu

Did I just learn a basic DIY electronic lesson from an anime? With perfect step by step instructions and a safe environment? Yes. Yes I did and from an anime about idiot cats trying to rebuild the tech part of their society after they got rid of all the smart cats...well they are pretending to be cats at least.🧐

Saikyou no Ousama, Nidome no Jinsei wa Nani wo Suru?

The ending of each episode drives me crazy because we get like 30 seconds of the next ep after the ED and it is so frustrating cause we have to wait for it to be resolved! I wish it was just a flash moment PV instead cause that is less frustrating to wait for...for some reason.🤔

Your Forma

This anime is starting to blow I-Robot out of the water. The Ai and how they think and behave are so mind blowing! Like they are Ai as in having to watch another human attack another human and unable to do anything cause it violates the Three Laws of Robotics or rather Respect as its called here is insane. I can understand why they are not really thought out other than from a selfish perspective.😒

That's it for today! I'm looking forward to the next two days cause I have like three all together which gives me a chance to chill and watch older anime or write...hopefully.😓

underrated trio

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I need to write this.

This will never not be relevant. 

The Happy-Sads

I was having a conversation with someone important to me a few months ago and they said something I had never heard before.

We were talking about depression. More specifically- the flash-flood of bulletproof mania, and it’s inevitable descent into lengthy, paralyzing anguish- our shared condition. 

“The Happy-Sads.” they said. “That’s what my doctor calls them”.

 I rested in the hum-quiet lapse that happens every so often on the phone. 

It seemed such a simple way to put it, but it summed it all up. I hear these little pieces all the time- I think we all do- someone says something, a turn of phrase, or a sentence fragment- and it sticks. It resonates. It becomes a short story or the subject of a comic, a song title- sometimes more.

The Happy-Sads.

It felt like something larger and smaller at the same time- it made sense of everything, boiling it down to a simple phrase- and I laid down under it’s gravity. 

I remember being a boy, and the times where everything was quiet. Those were the briefest moments, and you had to catch them like comets. Then came chaos and noise- reckless, indestructible enthusiasm. That part lasted longer than the quiet, but not nearly as long as the empty.

I think it was easier for those older than me to say I was simply shy, and I wasn’t to hear the word “introverted” until I got to high school, and I didn’t hear anyone seriously talk about “depression” until I was in college- and even then it was just something you could “will away”. No one’s son or daughter was “crazy” or a “manic-depressive”. Labels. From youth to adulthood I would bounce back and forth from “very artistic” to “quiet”.

If my depression was robbing the bank, then my anxiety was waiting in the get-away car outside, masked and armed. There would be stretches that would go on for weeks where I thought I was going to Hell. These would segue into stretches where, knowing that everyone was going to die eventually and I would lose everyone I knew, I couldn’t spend more than 2 minutes in school before going home in hysterics.  I just didn’t want to lose a single moment with people I loved- moments I could never get back.

My anxiety found different ways of manifesting itself- more subdued versions as I got older, but the back and forth, the up and down, stayed the same. You couldn’t wind a watch to it, but you could see it just over the hill, and you’d wait for it to hit.

Years of it.

Then I learned to use it, to tap into it, but I was hiding, not facing.

Being a singer in a band allowed me to tap into 2 very extreme emotions, and ones I knew very well- violent happiness and theatrical despair. This worked for me for years. And the more I could use them every night, the less I had to deal with them during the day, or night afterwards. Zeroes in a bunk, zeroes in the morning, drinking coffee, watching mile-markers. 

Zeroes. Years of them.

I then decided to deal with it.

I had another conversation, again with someone important to me, but this person was life-threateningly ill. They said to me one thing that was the most important.

 “Everything is temporary. When you’re happy- it’s temporary. Sad? Temporary. Job? Temporary. Bought a house? It’s only yours until you no longer need it. “

There were two ways to look at it- happy or sad. But everything was temporary.

In your worst moments, where you are staring into the blackest hole, the razor-lined mouth of a vicious, rabid animal- when you aren’t good enough, pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough- when the worst thing inside you chooses to attack- it is temporary. Likewise, when you are in those moments of pure joy, surrounded by your loved ones, high scoring skee-ball, holding your best friends hand at a concert- it is also temporary.

And that is ok. 

It is life, and living, or the closest thing to it- but more than that there is help.

I go to therapy- my doctor and I don’t use labels, because she believes that every single person is a different case. What one person has more of, another has less of.

And in the differences, we are all the same- imbalanced, and some of us need an assist. I grew up in an era that came off the tail end of damning the notion of mental treatment, so it was a dirty phrase. Unfortunately it still is today. The labels linger, the stigma exists, and all of it keeps help further away.

This is the part where I get serious and say that if you suffer from severe depression, you should seek treatment. If no one takes you seriously- find someone that will. Knowing what I know now, I wouldn’t fear a single repercussion for taking my mental health seriously and in my hands. Nothing would stop me. Not a label, or a joke- nothing.

I hope you find comfort in this. I hope you know that a lot of people, including myself, battle the beast all the time, and we win. I have finally gotten myself to a place where I no longer face the extremes, but it takes work, every week- I get up, and I make sure I am at my session- even the days where I don’t want to be there. I would imagine you’d feel the same way sometimes, and that is ok. Maybe it’s even hard for you to take the first steps- and that’s ok too.

 I know you can.

Monday Anime Line Up

Soooo I just found out that my last three posts did not post...like at all! I don't know if that was about my wifi problems or the site but...ugh, all that work just gone.😩

Its whatever. I'll just start it again today and check to make sure that the posts are there the next day. Honestly I don't check but then again I hadn't seen any activity so I should have known something was wrong.🙄

Zatsu Tabi: That's Journey

Wow! 20,000 ¥ for that bus ride? Also what is with those rooms? I did a bus ride years ago for six plus hours but it didn't look like that or cost that much!😲

My only complaint was that quick flash of food they had for dinner. I wanted to see more!😅

Kijin Gentoushou

It was nice to see the girl from the second ep again. I didn't realize that she and Offu were friends. Jinya has a rival of sorts now. I can't wait to see them clash.😎

Vigilante: Boku no Hero Academia Illegals

This episode was both amusing and informative. Poor Koichi still being called the Cruller, seriously he should have made his name not in English and Fist grandpa. I mean I could not stop laughing! 😆

Then his senpai turns out to be related to the police inspector and she is a damn walking polygraph...but for some reason it didn't work? Interesting.🤔