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I’m going crazy! I read this fic a while ago, it was an Alfie x Tommy x reader and reader and Tommy were in a relationship beforehand and then Alfie sort of entered himself into it as he does. It was the sequel to the first fic and Tommy took reader to a dinner with the Russians and they get split up and she ends up in a sort of sex room and Alfie shows up and stays with her. When tommy goes to get her she’s still with Alfie and then the three of them go back to Tommy and hers place where she wrecks everything and then they have sex. Pls help me find it idk if it got deleted or taken down or if I’m just stupid but pls.

Little Bastard | Alfie Solomons x platonic!gn!reader

@satan-incarnate-666 asked: okay last one PROMISE

"So what? I have a soft spot. Big deal" - platonic/familial alfie solomons and a younger gn!reader if possible?

summary: Alfie's the only family you got, and although he trusts you more than anyone, he does still let you get away with murder.

tws: mentions of guns, swearing, mentions of smoking

Alfie took you under his wing when you were quite young, with no family left, Alfie decided to bring you into his own; you were only little, and he was the only family that you had. But he treated you no differently to his blood relatives - except he was a lot more lenient and a lot less coarse with you; you were his little sibling, he loved you, and he was always looking out for you. It was even often said that, if something were to happen to him, you would take over his business once you were old enough; luckily, though, that didn't seem to be a possibility, Alfie was strong and tough and he wasn't going anywhere any time soon.

You sat in on meetings with him, always introduced as his sibling, sometimes the heir to his business as well, and if anyone had a problem with you, then Alfie had a problem with them; no one had a bigger problem with you than Tommy Shelby, though.

You were sat in Alfie's office with him as you listened to the Peaky Blinder rant and rave and bore everyone half to death when you suddenly spoke up.

"Not being funny, mate," you cleared your throat and looked him dead in the eye. "But don't you bust unions?"

Tommy frowned. "I do what I have to."

"Yeah, see, you bust unions," you shrugged. "You fuck over your own so that you can make a couple more pence. You let all the scabs in... my brother shouldn't be doing business with you."

He seemed a little caught off guard as he shifted in his seat, running a hand through his hair. "May I have a cigarette?"

"No," you grinned. "I don't give shit to cunts."

"Alfie," Tommy turned to your brother, then, sighing heavily. "Come on. How long have we been doing business?"

Alfie shrugged, looking at you for a second before turning back to Tommy and clearing his throat. "I dunno, mate, I'm more inclined to listen to my own family than you. And if (y/n) thinks you're a cunt, then you're a cunt, yeah?"

"Alfie-"

"Yeah, I know, I know," he grumbled. "So what? I have a soft spot. Big deal. Now answer my sibling's question, yeah? 'Cause if you don't, I will fuckin' shoot you."

Tommy let out a soft growl as he stood up, shaking his head. "I think I'll leave. I'll be back when (y/n) isn't around."

You laughed, a howling sound as you threw your head back. "What? You scared, mate?"

"Not scared," Tommy shook his head again as he got to the door. "Practical."

You taunted and teased him as he left, but once the office door was closed, you turned to your brother again. "Now, before you say anything-"

"Nah, I ain't sayin' nothin'," Alfie chuckled, kicking his feet up on the desk. "This'll be your business one day, you might as well take charge here and there."

"So you think I did well?" You asked, almost impatient to hear his answer as you stared at him.

He fell silent for a bit, thinking about it; sure, you weren't a great negotiator, but you did always stand your ground, and you always made it clear where that ground was. Alfie knew that, if you ever took over from him, you would probably be alright.

"Yeah, you did alright, kid."

You smiled, kicking your feet up on the desk next to his and leaning back in your chair. "Do you think I'll be as good as you one day?"

"No one's as good as me," Alfie scoffed. "But you'll be alright. I trust you, (y/n)... just don't go fuckin' shootin' Peaky Blinders, yeah? Bad for business, that."

"How dare you?" You scoffed, shaking your head. "I wouldn't get caught shooting them."

"As long as you don't get caught," he chuckled, closing his eyes and resting his hands on his stomach. "What you fancy for tea, anyway? I were thinkin' we could cook somethin'."

"I'll cook," you told him, copying his actions without even thinking about it; you often mimicked Alfie's mannerisms without thinking about them, you always had done. "Full offense, Alf, but you're a shit cook."

"Fuck off." A smile tugged at his lips. "Little bastard."

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Guys I’m desperate need of help, there’s this phenomenal fic I always read every couple of months, it’s an Alfie Solomons/reader fic on AO3 which has reader go back in time and join Alfie’s gang and eventually marry him.

It’s has pickles the dog and Bucket (Harriet) and I adore it with all my heart but can’t find it anywhere.

Please y’all help me find the fate of this beloved fic or help me find the author. 🫶

It’s been a while...

Hi there! I’m Bee and I used to write a lot of fanfics and imagines. It’s been a few years since I’ve written anything and I would love to get back into it. That being said, I have a few stories now that are kind of back logged that I can throw out at you all at any given point. And I probably will.

I should also tell you I used to write a lot of YouTuber fics. But, have changed to characters from TV shows and movies, as well as Critical Role. Things that I want to write for include:

TV Shows ~

Peaky Blinders

Supernatural

Reign

Stranger Things

Movies ~

Marvel

Critical Role

I’m sure there are others and I will update this list when I remember them. But, for now this is what I’m offering or feel slightly comfortable with writing.

Sabini: "Imagine if your wife cheated on you, what would… AAAAH !" Thomas: "Alfie." Alfie: "Yes ?" Thomas: "Did you just shoot Sabini in the leg ?" Alfie: "Yes." Thomas: "Okay." Alfie: "I'm hesitant to shoot you too, I must say. Between the fact that you're not defending the honor of your wife, one of my sisters-in-law, but especially that you're not defending the honor of my wife, your sister, my sweet treacle, who will never cheat on me." Thomas: "Y/N wouldn't be happy." Alfie: "I told you, I'm hesitant."

“Mixed Signals” - Masterlist

Alfie Solomons x modern!reader - social media/university au

summary; you finally move out of your parents house to live and study in London with your older brother Michael, your cousins and friends. You don’t know anyone in the city, besides them, and frankly, you don’t feel the need to get to know anyone new…well maybe except that one guy with a dog who you saw at a party that you didn’t want to go to.

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Announcement!!!

Part one of “Forsaken Love” is up now!

Gonna be working on Part Two over Thanksgiving Break, so be prepared for part two soon! Go like, comment, and share if you wish. Feed back is always welcomed. Love you all.

Forsaken Love (part 1)

An Alfie Solomons Long One Shot

Authors Note: You asked for a Long One Shot and you’re getting a LONG one shot. I might even make this a two-three parter because it’s so long, if that’s alright with you @cynic-spirit ?

Requested by @cynic-spirit

Request: Plot: A modern Alfie Solomons, falls in love at first sight with a shy college professor. As he is visiting, he doesn’t know how to win her heart And finally he does. Alfie is kind of a hard headed bad boy. A long one shot would be nice. Fluff or both. Alfie is an adult visitor, maybe a sponsor of a college event. Character info: Diana, 22, straight, fair with long hair. She is shy, reserved, intelligent, knows many languages, plays piano, teaches language in college. She loves to put ribbons in her hair. She comes from a broken family, has an older brother, who is a doctor. Her parents died early in her life and brother is too busy in his own life to visit.

Authors Note: I worked hard on this, also working hard on other ones but mainly this one. It has been taken forever to get this up. I’ve been having computer problems, internet problems, writers block, mental issues, family issues, I have lost & had to re write this like four times. Just a lot for things have happened that has intervened with posting and getting this up. I’m very sorry that I wasn’t able to get it up on the date that we planned but it’s up now. I hope you like it, if you want anything changed let me know and I’ll change it. ALSO, I’m sorry if Alfies part isn’t good, idk how to type in British. Speaking in a British accent is easier than typing and trying to make it sound like it yknow.

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Diana POV:

It was the first day back from Winter Break (Christmas Break). It was a bright, yet foggy morning. The grass in the front yard of the college glistened with water drops in the morning sunshine. Because of the temperature difference from inside the building and outside, the window to Diana’s classroom was hazed over. Like a mirror after taking a hot shower.

Diana was looking out the window, like her ever morning routine, watching and making sure all of the students are heading to their classes on time. As she countinues to stare out the window, she could help but noticed a man walking through the front gates. She didn’t think of it to much bcuz there are a lot of people who work here. But the more she continues to watch him, she couldn’t help but notice, he didn’t look familiar, and she knew 90% of everyone here. He continues to walk and ends up going to the office.Diana couldn’t help but be intrigued and curious about him. Who is he? What’s his name? Is he a new teacher? New student perhaps? I don’t know who he is, but I definitely want to find out. I should give him a name since I don’t know his real name yet. Hmm, let’s just go with Mystery Man. Yea that’s good for now. Diana had so many thoughts and questions that she was asking herself, she didn’t know where to start.

Diana was so caught up in her feelings she didn’t even notice that all her students have came in and sat down for class to start, which is her Latin language class. She didn’t even hear the bell, signaling for class to start, has rung till one of her students came up and tapping her should taking her out of her thoughts.

“Miss Diana, are you alright? You’ve been looking out the window for quite a while. More than normal. Anything wrong?” Her student says, so quietly that if they were standing so close to eachother, Diana wouldn’t have heard her. Turning around, Diana finally notice who it is, one of her best student, Monika.

“Oh, hi, Monika. Oh yea I’m alright just got lost in my train of thought that’s all. I’m alright I promise. Go on, take your seat. I need to start class. Go on, I’m alright.” Saying with a soft smile, Diana ushers her to her seat.

Before Diana leaves her spot but the window, she can’t help but take another glance towards the office to see if she can get a glimpse of the Mystery Man, even if it was a tiny small glimpse. Sadly to her dismay, she does not, which for some odd reason Diana gets sad, she doesn’t know why, so she just pushes it down and moves over to her desk in front of the classroom, without looking back.

“Alright class, lets get started. Hope you all had a good winter break. Let’s start class on saying one thing you did over break. But the twist is, you have to say it in Latin. Let’s see who has been actually learning in the class.” Diana announces while leaning back and sitting on her desk.

Little did she know, this won’t be the last time she will see him.

Alfies POV:

I walked into the office of the college I was assigned to go to for a sponsor ship. When they told me about this place, I never heard about it before, which was shocking for most people I work with. When I got home I did my research on the backstory and what classes they have/offer. So here I am, 8 in the morning, in the office of a college that my company wants to sponsore. Why? I have no idea but I’m not gonna complain and get fired.

As I was walking though the gates I couldn’t help but feel like I was being watched, so I looked around secretly so no one notices. Didn’t notice anything so I looked up at the main building and notice a young girl, early twenties maybe, staring out her classroom window. Whether she was watching me or not I gotta admit, she was hella cute.

“Mister Solomon’s? Sir? Hello?” The office lady said trying to get Alfies attention while waving a hand in front of him.

“Huh? Oh, sorry. Right, I’m here for the sponsoring that my boss called in about.” Alfie says coming back to earth while looking away from the window and to the office lady.

“Alright, here are the paper work and time schedule. If there’s anything else you need let me know.” She said giving him everything he needed.

“Right thank you.” He turns to leave but stops and turns back around, “One more thing, who’s that young lady. Up on the second floor third window? I couldn’t help but notice her on my way here.”

“Oh, that sweeatheart, her names Diana. She teaches five different language classes; Latin, French, German, Gaelic and I believe Hawaiian. I’m not sure on those l, but I know for a fact she teaches Latin and German. You should go say hi to her while the students are at lunch. She would very much enjoy the company.” She told Alfie while smiling softly. Alfie couldn’t help but feel comfortable around the older lady, she has a motherly vibe.

Diana, what a beautiful name for a beautiful women. I think I’ll take up for that offer and go meet her.

*To be Continued*

Update

Okay so, a big update for everyone, whether you follow me, just seeing this, just seeing my page for the first time, for whoever has my notifications on, whatever other situation.

Any ways this is an update for you all that will be about all of the stories that I will be posting soon. I am sorry for who have put in a request and haven’t gotten it yet, I have been going through a lot recently and I took a time off of social media to work out everything. I have gotten better and I am in a better writing state of mind so I am going to work on all of the requests that I have gotten, plus stories that I have been thinking about making.

First Meet | Alfie Solonoms | Head-canon (request)

Plot: The reader (you) are on your way to work when situations happen that lead you in the direction of the one and only Alfie Solonoms. You’ve heard about him, not good things though. But when you finally get to meet the man, everything that you have heard, doesn’t compare to what you think now.

Forsaken Love | Alie Solonoms |Long One Shot (request)

Update: part one is up now

Plot: Alfie is a adult college sponsor and meets the reader (you). He falls in love with you at first sight. You are a college teacher who teaches all different languages, French, Dutch, Spanish, Italian, Icelandic, Irish, Greek, even Sign Language. But he doesn’t know how to win your heart, yet. 

Light Into Darkness | Bane | Series

Plot: You and Bane are long lost childhood friends, you to lost touch and haven’t seen each other for years. But that all changes when Batman finds out about you and your relationship, so he captures you to get to Bane.

If you want a request of your own or just and idea, please message me, my messages are always open and my request box is now open for more requests. I appreciate all of the comments, notes, reposts, messages, and requests I have gotten since I started. Love you all <3

Sneak Peak

Here’s a sneak peak at the story, First Meet, I will be posting very soon. It is an Alfie X Female Reader head-canon request

Your POV:

I get up and take off running after him the best I can; 1. without tripping over the rocks, cracks, and shit laying in the street and 2. so he doesn’t end up hurting himself somehow (like running into something or tripping and breaking a leg). 

Eventually I loose sight of him, but that doesn't stop me from running after him (or in the direction I think he went). By this point I’ve been running for 10 minutes and I’m starting to get worried that he hurt himself and that I’m going to be late, which I do not want to happen.

….TO BE CONTINUED....

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Hello! Can i request a peaky blinders x terminally ill reader. Like, they don’t want to fall in love with her because it’s like falling in love with a ticking time bomb that’s gonna leave them devastated, but she’s just so lovely they can’t help them self

So cause I'm not terminally ill and therefore can't write a totally honest view of what this would be like, im going to try. Some of them might not be 100% how u asked so sorry in advance.

Tommy

🌿 He can tell you're hiding something from him and the rest of the world from the moment he meets you, he can tell its something dark and sad, but he thinks that makes you just like him and so, if anything, it only draws him in closer to you.

🌿 He thinks you're beautiful, he likes to listen to you singing while you work down the market. He can sense that whatever your secrets are, they mean he should stay away, but even before he really falls for you he can't. You just drew him in.

🌿 I think in the case of tommy it would be you trying to keep your distance from him, putting up walls and trying not to let him too close. You don't want to hurt him, and you don't want to hurt yourself by dangling a future you know you can't have in front of yourself.

🌿 But one day Tommy gets fed up with all your defenses and kind of snaps, calmly, but still, he lets his frustration get to him all "Whyre you doing this eh darlin, its like I'm trying really, really bloody hard to get to know you but theres all these doors you keep lockin right in front of me fuckin face, every time i try to talk to you, another wall going up and up and up... Whyre you doin that? Puttin up walls eh?" he'd say it all so intensely, and so calm and soft by the end of it, so that you can see the affection and need in his eyes abd it breaks your heart...

🌿 And when you tell him whats really going on you expect him to leave but he doesn't

🌿 Because this is Tommy isn't it. So narcissistically obsessed with his own doom that if he'd really thought about it for a second he could have guessed that he was going to lose him. That any chance of happiness he had with you would be the temporary, doomed kind.

🌿 He kind of embraces the pain and punishes himself with it every day, but is also determined that you don't deserve this. Maybe he thinks he deserves to lose the love of his life as penance for his sins but you do not deserve to lose your life because some ugly man from Birmingham did some terrible things. So he'd be defiant about it, he'd love you anyway despite knowing he perhaps should try not to. He'd love you like pressing on a bruise, embracing the pain he's in whilst doing everything in his power to give youba good and happy life.

🌿 He won't leave you. He'll tell you he's not going to leave you, he'll make sure you're completely certain of that. "Its important to me darlin, that you know that right, I'm not gonna leave you, I love you and I won't stop just because of some fuckin illness yeah, i won't..."

🌿 Actually he'll straight up marry you. Even if you think thats pointless because you won't be around for very long, he'll insist that it happens. He loves you, he wants to marry you whilst youve the chance.

🌿 Blames himself for the illness, even though you were ill before you met him. In his head its like this... If you were fated to be the love of his life, then that is what doomed you to a premature death, because he needs to be punished for his sins. He thinks you were sent to punish him for his sins.

🌿 He won't tell you what he's doing but he'll keep searching for ways to heal you, things that could save your life. Even if he doesn't find any, he won't give up. He'll start fuckin praying again. He'll go sit in a church and break down, beg for your life to be spared and his taken instead.

🌿 But he won't let anyone see or know his desperation. On the outside he will mostly remain stoic.

🌿 And he'll want to take care of you every step of the way, when you're in your last days he probably won't want anyone else around, just you and him, him doting on your every need, holding you when you sleep. Always scared you won't wake up. Telling you he loves you, but more importantly showing you he loves you with every little thing he does for you.

🌿 You might try to make him promise you he'll find someone else and fall in love and have a family and all that without you and he won't mean it when he promises you that he will. But he'll promise you anything, say anything to keep you calm and content in your last days.

🌿 He won't let you see him crying, he won't be "weak" in front of you. He'll be so brave and determined even though his heart is breaking because he won't want to upset you. He'd want to preserve your happiness and comfort for as long as possible.

🌿 Rather than getting teary upset i feel like he'd express his emotions through frustration and take them out on other people. He'd probably be a lot less patient with other people, snapping at them and making rash careless decisions. His brothers would have to work extra hard to keep him "sane" and make sure he doesn't do too much damage.

Alfie

🐻 Is an "old man" well aware of his own mortality and of life, suffering and death. You're not the first terminally ill person he's met and he knows exactly what he's getting himself into by getting close to you

🐻 His friends warn him maybe once, maybe they ask him if he really thinks its a good idea, getting so close to someone who won't be around forever... But one look from alfie, one quick and cutting sentence is enough to warn them off ever asking again.

🐻 "Oh an i suppose you think you will be around forever do you Ollie?"

🐻 He's not naive, he knows its going to hurt but he's also not naive enough to believe then that it won't be worth it.

🐻 Because he adores you, your gentle ways, your soft beauty, your kindness, how sweet you are, all he ever wants to do when he sees you is hold your waist in his hands and draw you in close to him. Hold onto you and have you all to himself.

🐻 He loves you, to put it simply, and you, to put it even more simply, deserve love. Being ill, dying doesnt make you any less deserving of that love. And he has so much love for you.

🐻 "If I can't have you for as long as I live right darlin, gonna make sure you have me for as long as you live yeah, reckon that makes sense doesn't it, makes perfect sense to me poppet, yeah makes perfect sense to me..."

🐻 He'd be completely devoted to you. He'd spoil you rotten, he'd want to make sure you got to do everything you wanted to, see everything you wanted to whilst you were still able to. He'd piss everyone at the bakery off by taking all this time away, practically throwing his business away so that he could spend time with you.

🐻 Basically puts Tommy in this frustrating and stupid position where tommys no choice but to mind the bakery whilst Alfie is off with you

🐻 And then when you're really sick and getting weaker every day Alfie is by your bedside doing as much for you as he can. He doesnt want some nurse you dont know attending to you, he doesnt want you to feel alone... He only trusts himself to be able to take care of you and he probably does everyone else's head in telling them exactly how you like to be washed/dressed, exactly how to cook your food.

🐻 Much like Tommy he'd be desperately sad about whats happening to you, he'd feel his heart break a little more each day but he probably won't cry in front of you, he'll probably try to be brave for you.

🐻 Very short tempered with everyone else. He will cry but only when he's alone, honestly maybe in front of Tommy and only for a second before he composes himself again.

🐻 Writes a whole fucking opera about you as a coping mechanism.

🐻 Always wants to be holding you or touching you somehow, like hes scared to forget how it feels. Always holding your hand in his.

🐻 Likes reading you to sleep, putting records on for you. Writing music for you.

Arthur

🍂 Is devestated, can't put his feelings into words at all, can't cope with the idea of losing you.

🍂 Everyone warns him about falling for you but their warnings come too late because he already has and he adores you. He wants to spend his whole life with you and when it becomes apparent that thats never going to happen he is distraught.

🍂 He doesn't want you to live he NEEDS you to live, he can't accept things the way they are, has to believe you can survive even though deep down he knows you can't.

🍂 He gets so angry and bitter, not with you or at you but at the world and with everything else. He's angry at the illness for taking you from him, he's angry at the world for being such a cruel and unfair place.

🍂 Tries to turn to god, tries to pray, thinks that perhaps if he repents for all the bad things hes done or, if he begs god enough, he can trade with you, he can die so that you don't have to. Because "its fucked up isnt it darlin, that someone so fucking kind and good and pure can have to deal with this, whilst the rotten likes of me just go on living an fillin the world up with bad things"

🍂 Arthur doesn't have the self control his brother has, he won't hold back in front of you even if sometimes it would be kinder for him to do so. There are probably things you don't really need to hear about how cruel the world is, how unfair everything is, but he doesn't have a filter and sometimes when his emotions get the better of him he just spills it all.

🍂 He will cry in front of you, you'll hold him whilst he sobs into your chest and breaks down. Then apologises because "you shouldn't have to be dealin with this, I should be being the fuckin strong one.."

🍂 Takes a lot of his emotions out in the ring and they probably have to try and stop him from going there because the damage he will do with all these enotions coursing through him could be deadly.

🍂 He would get more and more unstable the more ill you got, unable to cope with whats happening. But he'd so desperately want to be a good husband to you. He'd beg Polly and his sister for help, asking them for advice. Polly would probably be his rock here, giving him advice, giving him a hug when he needs one, a slap and a shake when he needs to snap out of it and be there for you.

🍂 She'd help him take care of you, teach him how to look after you, how to be gentle when he's taking care of you.

🍂 At the point that you're too weak to get out of bed he'd lie with you or sit with you whenever he could, he wont give you peace talking to you about everything thats been happening, nervous talking too because he doesnt like the silence. But you like listening to him ramble about everything.

🍂 You also like the fact that no ones worried about talking of peaky business in front of you so you get all of the gossip.

🍂 He won't be particularly articulate but he'll tell you he loves you constantly.

🍂 Brings you little gifts of food and sweet treats all the time. Makes you food his mam woulda made him when he was sick as a child.

John

🌼 John seems so happy go lucky, laidback, still such a child at heart and you're drawn to him because of that. Admiring him from afar, falling in love with his laughter and that cheeky grin. Torturing yourself because hes something you just cant have.

🌼 You don't want to let yourself near him because you don't want to take that carefree nature away from him or taint him with the side effects of your illness, the stress anxiety and torment which seems to taint everyone you get close to these days.

🌼 But John has been in love with you since the second he laid eyes on you and he's determined to ignore your warnings about staying away from him.

🌼 As far as he's concerned you deserve to be loved, whether or not you have the potential to break his heart or not. Technically - and this is an argument he comes up with all the time - technically, everyone has the potential to break everyones heart, he could get shot and killed tomorrow before anythings even really happened to you. He could fall in love with some other lass and she could get hit by a car or die in some sudden accident. "Just because you're really ill flower, doesn't mean I shouldn't love you. Doesn't make you not worth loving... If anything it means you should be loved twice as hard now... I've got a whole lifetimes worth of love to give you so better not to keep stalling... "

🌼 His family think hes impulsive but he marries you almost imediately. Youre the love of his life and he wants to spend as much time as he possibly can being your husband.

🌼 He would want you to have the best possible life you could, even if it was only short so he'd take you travelling to see all the places you wanted to see. He'd help you do all the things you wanted to do before you died.

🌼 He'd do his best to keep up his usual ray of sunshine persona, still being boyish and charming, always teasing you, always trying to make you smile. Out of all the peaky men John is the one who treats you least like you're terminally ill. He isn't quite so obsessed with being careful with you or treating you like you're delicate. He lets you make the "I'm going to die anyway" joke sometimes when it comes to you doing unwise things like drinking/smoking or going for a ride.

🌼 He wants to keep you laughing and smiling for as long as he possibly can

🌼 When you get more sick and you begin to grow weaker he does struggle more, he doesnt like seeing you look so unwell, so in pain. He wants to be with you all the time but he doesn't want you to see him get upset.

🌼 He goes to Ada for support and she lets him hug it out or cry to her. She'd give him the love actually advice of "cheer up, no ones gonna shag you if you cry all the time" type of joking advice which is exactly what he needs to keep his head up and stay strong for you.

🌼 He too would want to be there for you and help care for you everyday even if he doesn't really know what hes doing. If he couldn't help he'd hold your hand and reassure you.

Bonnie

🍀 He's heartbroken when he finds out, naturally, no one wants the person they love to suffer, however

🍀 Rather than get too caught up in how long you have left together, Bonnie feels blessed just to have you at all and he's determined to love you for as long as he can.

🍀When he tells you this, "I love you little dove, all this love aint goin anywhere just cause you are, I'll love you my whole life I know I will..." "But you shouldn't Bon its going to hurt you so much, I'm gonna cause you so much sufferin an you don't deserve that..." "You don't deserve to be alone though do ye? And I'm tough dove, I can survive," he'd make a show of flexing his biceps to prove how strong he is and try to make you laugh.

🍀 Like John he's determined to keep you happy and smiling for as long as he can. He'll make jokes, he'll tell you how beautiful you are, how loved you are. He'll keep telling you all these things even when your light does begin to fade.

🍀 He spends as much time with you as he possibly can. Being a hopeless romantic he'll definitely want to marry you.

🍀His own mother died when he was young and his father's already been through this, Aberama would be a little torn, he'd want his son to be happy and so he wouldn't want him devoting his life to a woman who's going to leave him so soon, but he'd also want his son to be happy which means letting him devote his life to you.

🍀 Bonnie would try to be brave, he would try not to cry in front of you, and though he might not shed any actual tears, you can tell when he does want to cry, when he's upset his jaw tenses and he gets this far away misty look in his eyes.

🍀He wants to give you everything in the whole wide world but he doesn't have the time, he wants to make you proud of him so he's extra determined to win all his fights and train hard... But sometimes he also just, can't see the point? What does fighting matter, what does being the champion of the world matter when the love of his life is going to have to leave him so soon.

🍀When you get restless he wraps you up warm and takes you off on horseback to the middle of nowhere where the two of you can get some peace. He helps you bathe in the creeks and rivers, lies with you wrapped in blankets under the redwood trees.

🍀When you're ill he wants to be the one to take care of you, to nurse you, to help feed and bathe you. He won't leave your side for a second and he'll really piss Tommy Shelby off by refusing fights and refusing to work. He doesnt care if his life or future is threatened. Nothings getting between him and you now.

🍀 Sings for you whenever you ask, tries to make up little stories for you. Is still determined to make you laugh/smile whenever he can, even when you're very weak.

🍀 Always bringing you flowers and pretty things he finds for you outside when you're too weak to go exploring with him.

🍀 Holds you every night when you're going to sleep, lies awake listening to you breathing determined that you'll wake up again in the morning. Kisses your hair/forehead/temple and hands all the time.

Isaiah

🐀He loves you before he knows youre terminally ill and you're affraid to tell him because you don't want him to leave.

🐀Everyone can see him falling for you, he's not exactly subtle about it - and that fact alone means he must be falling really hard for you. He asks after you all the time, he's always abandoning his friends when he's out if he sees you, choosing to waste his time talking to you instead.

🐀And regretfully it's Michael who ends up telling him about your condition. When he finds out he does get scared. He panics and doesn't know what to do.

🐀He doesn't want to lose you, but he doesn't want to get too close... The problem is he already has feelings for you and he can't just turn them off. In fact he knows full well that even if he'd known from the second he saw you at the Garrison he wouldn't have been able to stop himself falling in love with you because you're perfect. You're his perfect girl and he would never have been able to ignore you.

🐀So he backs away a little, he tries to fall out of love but he struggles and, just as he was expecting he fails. If anything trying to pull away from you only makes him more certain of his adoration for you. He loves you. He's so sure of that now.

🐀You aren't stupid, you notice him pulling away and trying to seperate from you and though it makes you sad you're not surprised and you can't say you dont completely understand.

🐀 So you try to tell him that, you try to speak to him gently, try to tell him exactly whats wrong with you, roughly how long you have left. And he listens and tries not to get upset and does quite a good job, then when you say "it's alright Isaiah i understand... If you dont want to stay I understand..." thats when he gets upset

🐀 He gets angry, upset with you for not valuing yourself more, for accepting that someone might not want to love you. But mostly he's angry at himself because even this little argument is wasted time he could have spent holding you, kissing you, telling you how much he adores you.

🐀"No don't you dare say that, don't you dare pretend that this is fuckin fine or that you understand, I've been so fucking selfish love, you deserve to be loved and I don't fuckin deserve you because for a second I was too busy thinkin bout me fuckin self to think about you and what you need!"

🐀And from there on out hes unshakable and so stubborn about loving you, he spends as much time with you as he possibly can. He tells you he loves you like a hundred times a day.

🐀Michael and his friends can't understand whats gotten into him, he asks him one day if he doesn't think he's "wasting" his time and Isaiah has to try not to get angry. Because thats a cruel way of putting it even if thats not how it was intended to be.

🐀"Course I'm not wasting my time, she's the only good use of my time... This is the only important thing i think I've ever done with me life, you know... Loving her like... If it were you in my position you'd understand, it'd be the same for you..." "but you coulda... You know chose not to be in your position..." "nah" says Isaiah, "i couldnt have chosen anything, s'not a choice mate, i just love her and always have..."

Michael

☘️ He definitely experiences "love at first sight" which is something he didn't really believe in before. But when he sees you he's swept away by your beauty and he knows, just knows, youre the girl hes supposed to fall in love with.

☘️ He tries to pursue you and you don't really take him very seriously because he's michael gray and hes got a reputation about him when it comes to the ladies. You think he just wants a one night stand and so you flirt back and laugh him off and tease him until he ends up confessing everything to you in a desperate attempt at getting you to take him seriously.

☘️ But then he's confessed everything to you, so now you have to tell him something too, thats you've an incurable illness. At first he doesn't understand and you have to spell it out to him. "It means I'm going to die Michael... And much sooner than you will..."

☘️ His first instinct is anger, he feels upset and betrayed that you didn't tell him straight away but this quickly subsides because he isn't really angry, hes heartbroken.

☘️ "If you were to ask my advice I'd say you should go off and find yourself a different girl," you smirk, youre only joking and actually if he were to follow that advice you'd be heartbroken, and pissed off too.

☘️ But Michael is two things : a gentleman and desperately in love with you.

☘️ So he just smirks and shakes his head, "forgive me love but i dont think you give very good advice..."

☘️ He knows how much its going to hurt but he keeps telling himself he's been through worse. He hasnt but he deludes himself with this notion so that he can stay strong for you.

☘️ He won't show you how upset he is about it unless really pushed to, perhaps nearer the end he'll break down, unable to hold it in and stay strong... But for the most part he is determined not to show weakness or to let you feel sad or despairing. He wants to reassure you all the time that everything will be alright and you don't need to be scared.

☘️Cries a lot in secret. Cries to his mother about it. Pol tries her best to support the both of you but its difficult watching her son have his heart ripped out. Difficult too watching you have yours ripped out.

☘️ Sometimes you wish you hadn't fallen in love because knowing what you're going to leave behind now makes the thought so much more painful. When you talk to Michael about it though he puts on his brave face and offers you all the reassurance in the world. Tells you you'll meet eachother again one day. Jokes he might not even be that far behind you. You hate it when he jokes like that though and he often does it just to wind you up, just to get you to play hit him and lighten your mood.

☘️ He'd organise the best private care for you, go with you to all your doctors appointments and try to keep as much of it under control as possible. He'd want you to try any cure they threw at you and there probably would be arguments about it if you didn't want to try something. In the end though he'd always put your wants above his own and listen to you.

☘️ Michaels quite a serious and sullen lad but he doesn't want you to feel serious or sullen so he often has to force himself out of his over thinking moods and into a more lighthearted one. All he wants to do is keep you smiling and hopeful.