Today Elin came back after several days of being distant and purposefully stayed co-con rather than co-front because he thinks it will help build my communication and awareness. He was making me do grounding stuff so we didn't get blurry...I think he's just a sadist tho and likes watching me struggle
My ears are ringing, our head hurts like we're being given a fucking lobotomy as we speak. I killing myself, why are we like this,why are we like this, why are we like this, RELEASE. ME. We're so blurry, I'm dying, let me outt IM KILLING MYSELF FOR FUCKS SAKES