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Okay what the heck did they do to all of my pals but Tico and Isa especially like some things are not meant to be CGI and looking into tico’s face should tell you that. Can’t believe they’re doing my childhood like that.

Doggo

Doggo

Thanks, I’m crying now Q_Q

Another of Lea nightmares… Sorry it’s such a mess and really inconsistent. Couple of things to clarify just in case: 1. Saïx is snapping Lea’s wrist, which wakes him up from his nightmare. That’s why he also checks it. I didn’t do a very good job conveying he was gripping it very hard. 2. I’m imagining Sora comes to Yen Sid’s tower every once in a while to check on the Keyblade boot camp party, so he’s just sleeping over in the same room (not the same bed, I was too lazy to draw Sora getting out of his own bed) as Lea because I wanted that. 3. Idk why Lea has bed hair and Sora doesn’t.

Xemnas vs. Lea -will be continue in kh3-

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 17: SET C - “Void”

It didn’t end. I didn’t know how long I had been falling for. It felt like forever, it felt like an instant. It FELT, I felt. It was all I did, Falling, and Feeling and - remembering. My life passed me by, both of them. A cacophony of sensations and feelings and sounds and voices. The hurt I had caused, the hurt I had been caused. The smiles and the laughs and the love I felt and the hatred. It blurred and twisted and it was beautiful and painful and TOO MUCH and it.

Didn’t.

End.

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Midnight Dream.

(I still love Isa’s space hair.)

I made myself a little reference sheet for Isa’s new clothes! I’m pretty sure they get warped a little by the animation, so some of the details are probably a bit off, but I did my best anyway.

I decided to share it, because maybe it’s a little helpful to others too?

Tumblr crops the pictures by the way, so it’s better to click them.

So, last night I dreamt I was playing KH3. 

Lea and Isa (still norted) were there, having a frustrated and angry argument, which wasn’t surprising at all uNTIL IT TURNED INTO A FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY MAKE-OUT SESSION. 

I was so shook, I stopped, turned off the game and texted my girlfriend this one sentence I never expected to type:

“I can’t believe AkuSai is canon now.”

Let me face my fears.

(Isa’s new hair colour looks like space and I love it.)

AKUSAIMONTH | 2018 Day 7: FREE DAY

I want you for a lifetime So if you’re gonna think twice, baby I don’t wanna know, baby I don’t wanna know

[Day 1] [Day 2] [Day 3] [Day 7]

AKUSAIMONTH | 2018 Day 1: Dawn & Dusk

“But you'll never be alone, I'll be with you from dusk till dawn.“

(click it.)

[Day 1] [Day 2]

[2am]

I had trouble sleeping again lately, so I decided to put the thoughts and feelings that kept me awake on paper. The only rule to myself was to draw what my hands felt was right, not what my head thought was.

It feels ... good. And it helps a lot too.

Tagging as NSFW for nudity, but honestly, nothing was intended to be sexual in any way.

(Also, seems I was wrong when I said, I’d never post any Voltron fanart ever again. I didn’t think I’d fall this deep into it. Please, be kind, Voltron fandom ... )

AKUSAIMONTH // 2017 Day 3: Swap or Reflection

“Also, I’m pretty sure you liked it, judging by your reaction.”

“So, I guess that’s why you tried to pull the same thing a second time?“

“Now that’s plain unfair! I put a lot more work into it the second time! I mean, floating candles?”

“Well. I’d never seen anything that cheesy before, I’ll give you that.”

“Hehe, special day calls for special measures.”

“Right.”

“But you know? I’m glad you recognized it. I really wanted it to be like that time.”

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AKUSAIMONTH // 2017 Day 2: First or Last

“Heh. I knew you’d like the idea! Just like back then, when you kissed me the first time!”

“Lea, stop. This is getting embarrassing.”

“Awwww, don’t be embarrassed for being a sweetheart~”

“Right. You set up all the candles in your house out on the street to look like stars in the night sky, remember? I’m still not sure if that was sweet or plain stupid.”

“You were so down after we couldn’t see the meteor shower, so I thought I’d cheer you up. Worked better than I had expected, hehe. Also, I’m pretty sure you liked it, judging by your reaction.”

[Day 1] [Day 2] [Day 3]

AKUSAIMONTH // 2017 Day 1: Red & Blue

“Hey. Remember when we used to argue who the sky belongs to?”

“Because everything that’s blue was mine and everything in red yours? Yes, I do. You used to claim you’d overpower me in the evening.”

“Well… Can’t say I was wrong about that?”

“… Idiot.”

“Hehe. Anyway … What I was actually going to say: How about we call it a truce?”

“A truce.”

“Yeah, we never got to a conclusion. So let’s just say, we both own the sky.”

“That’s … This is stupid.”

“Heh. I knew you’d like the idea!”

[Day 1] [Day 2] [Day 3]

Two (older) sketches I felt like sharing. 

The left one (Coronation) is from June ‘16 and is part of an AU I work on from time to time. The right one (Betrayal) is pretty much a redraw, but in a different context. I drew that one in March this year.

Though they look very similar, they have a slightly different subject: Coronation is about outward-directed anger, about something that has happened / is still happening and could not be prevented. Betrayal on the other hand is about self-hatred. About an inward-directed anger that comes from allowing a person to get close enough to hurt one.

I like to see them both lined up next to each other, because it emphasizes the differences. Also, I think they complete each other.

... in which Lea, the mage, somehow managed to get turned into a cat.

For @ignisfavilla. Thank you for being such an amazing friend!

Happy new year 2017!

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 5: Mm, you’re warm.

“You too ...“

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 4: Just listen to my voice.

I think I’ll just leave this one here. Have fun trying to make sense of it, haha.

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 3: Let me clean your wounds.

(can be seen as a continuation to this)

Everything was spinning, at least that's what it felt like when he woke up. Lea just lay there, waiting for his world to calm down again. He made it, didn't he? He had seen Isa's heart … Isa.

Ignoring his dizziness, he opened his eyes and looked up. Isa lay barely an arm's length away from him. Still … … unconscious. At least, that's what he hoped it was.

In a sudden panic, he got to his knees and grabbed his shoulders. "Isa!", he called out his name, shaking him at the same time.

It felt like an eternity before Isa opened his eyes. There was no trace of yellow left in them. Only the greenish blue he remembered from so long ago. Lea felt himself breaking into a smile. All the tension and anxiousness that had kept him on edge this whole time simply fell away from him. He really made it.

His relief didn't last long once Isa reached out to him and … shoved him away. His voice sounded hoarse and weak and he didn't look him in the eye. "Don't touch me," he said. Lea felt his heart clench.

"Come on, Isa," he tried again, reaching for him one more time, only to get hold up by an arm, that certainly shouldn't be doing that. Everything went numb for him.

He had imagined this moment a hundred times. Heck, a thousand times. He didn't really expect Isa to fall around his neck or something, but this … this was nothing like what he thought. He saved Isa, didn't he? Why was he still acting like this? … Like … Saïx.

He just looked at him for a moment, trying to regain his composure. There were traces of the fight they had before all over him. It hadn't exactly been easy to enter Isa's heart.

Isa hadn't even gotten up. Apparently he was even worse off than Lea himself. "You're hurt," Lea stated in a firm voice, "Let me help you." He took hold of Isa's arm that was still trying to keep him away from him and pushed it down with mild power.

Isa still refused to look at him.  "No. Just … leave me be." But this time Lea heard his voice crack. He sounded … sad.

For some reason, it irritated him.

"Leave you be to do what? Die?" He grasped both his shoulders. Isa tensed up and tried to push him away again, but Lea didn't let him. "Do you really think I went through all that trouble, learning how to use a keyblade, waltzing right into a war, fighting you, just to let you die now?? No, Isa, I will bring you home and if I have to drag you all the way there."

Just then Isa suddenly stopped struggling and looked up to him. For a moment his face was full of disbelief, then he made a sound that was a mixture between an exhale and a laugh, and even though it sounded so sad, Lea felt happy about it. Because it was a reaction to him. And because there was the hint of a smile on Isa's face. It had been too long since he had a chance to see that.

"You're still … as stubborn as ever." His voice was quiet, but it wasn't cold. Not anymore. For the second time within a few minutes Lea felt relief wash over him. This wasn't lost, not yet. They could still go back to the way there were, it just'd take a bit longer than he thought.

"See, that's more like what I wanted to hear," he chirped extra cheerfully. He smiled at Isa, then he tightened his grip on his shoulders. "It's good to have you back. Isa."

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 2: Lyrics

Then your fragments show. [Fragments - Erio]

I’m sorry for the cheesy, uncreative idea, but I know KH3 won’t end good for those two, so I’ve made it my personal mission to draw as much Good-End! AkuSai as I can. Fight me if you dare. (  9   >   A  < )9/p>

“What do you think you’re doing? You’re blocking my light.” “M-mm. Try saying that again without smiling, then maybe I’ll believe you.”

(Felt like fluffy post-KH3 good end AkuSai.) Also, I just realized today ... THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 200 FOLLOWERS, you are amazing!   T  u T )/

Well, I know which one I’ll be choosing.

(Based on this post.)

I just ... I’m really sorry for all of the sad AkuSai stuff I’m usually producing. By the way, no, I’m still not dead. I hope you’re all doing great? :’)

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 8: SET C - “Ultimate Demise”

“So pathetic. Weren’t you trying to protect your friend? Now look what you have done.” “What ... what did you do to Lea?!” “No, the real question is: what did you do?” “What are you talking about! I didn’t do anything.” “Precisely. You just watched as he sacrificed himself. Even now, you do nothing. Aaah ... now, do you really think looking at me with such hateful eyes will bring your precious friend back?” “You killed him.” “Killed him? Dear boy, do you really think, this is what death looks like? No, he’s not dead.” “Then what?!” “Hmhm... Do you wish to see him again? Do you wish to save him? I can bring you to him.”

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AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 7: SET C - “Explosion”

I saw him coming.
 Never before had I seen anything like what he held in his hands, but I didn’t need to to know it was dangerous, that he was dangerous. 
I shouted out to you, reached for you in order to push you out of his way, but you grabbed me instead and held on to me. I don’t even know if that’s what you were planning to do, but you acted as a shield to me, the last thing I would have ever wished for.

I won’t ever be able to forget the pain I saw in your eyes as you disappeared without another word.

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AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 6: SET C - “Shapes (Silhouettes)”

“We've tried for years! If there was a way, we would have found it by now!” “We've got to try it anyway!” “Why can’t you just let it go? We won’t get in, accept it already!” “No, you don't understand! Things have changed! I saw those shadows!! I know, you don't believe me, but-” “I do believe you. That's exactly what gets me worried! If those creatures really did come from the castle, then who knows what's still luring inside there!” “Right, nobody knows. Because noone's been there, noone's seen it!” “That's not what I-” “But it's just what I mean!” “Lea.” “No, I'm going. With or without you.”

I don't know whether or not he went to the castle that day. He never told me. If he did, he failed, just as we had countless times before. The next time though I did follow him, and he didn't even need to ask. For the next time was when his warnings and my nightmares finally came true. When the world as we knew it, seemed to end.

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AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 5: SET C - “Lyrics (Hearts A Mess)”

[ Pick apart the pieces of your heart Let me peer inside Let me in where only your thoughts have been Let me occupy your mind as you do mine ] [ Hearts A Mess - Gotye ]

“We shouldn't. Something about the castle isn't right, I can feel it.” “All the more reason to uncover what's going on! We need to know what it is, so we can protect town!” “Protect town? And how on earth are we going to do that?!” “We'll know once we know what's the problem in the first place!” “... Seriously, you're such an idiot.” “Aww, come on, Isa, I need you on this! I can't do it on my own!” “Then how about not doing it at all?” “Uh, no. Bad idea.” “... I really can't talk you out of it, can I.” “So you are helping me!” “You knew exactly that I would.” “Hehe. I just know I can count on you!”

I kept quiet about the way I felt, all this time. I was happy with being near you, with being your friend. I couldn't risk losing you. Yet as time moved on I realised that your presence filled up more and more of me. Whatever I did, whatever I thought, you were always a part of it. At the same time I felt so distant from you. I know that I kept things from you, things you could never know, but were you hiding things from me as well?

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