LGBTI - Blog Posts
Discovering myself
I was three when I fell in love with Leonardo DiCaprio in Titanic but I started to look at Kate Winslet. And keep in mind I was still a child my mom is super religious and never told me about that. Till my mom later told me that liking the same gender is bad. So growing up I liked boys and girls but I never told my mom about the girl part. When I asked my mom if it is possible for someone to like both guys and girls, my mom said that no because it was disgusting. That is the reason I kept it secret, it wasn't until middle school where I learned the term bisexual and since then I have labeling myself bisexual but for me it didn't feel right. I moved on to high school still labeling myself bisexual but still felt wrong. It wasn't until after high school when I played South Park: The fracture but whole when I started creating my character sexuality and it led me my character to be Polysexual. I have heard about it but never knew what it meant so I did research and the more I research the more I started feeling like it was me. So that is the story of how I discover my sexuality thanks to a game.
Kanda and Alma Headcanon
Spoilers for D.Gray-Man Hallow and the manga
(Just a heads up, I will be using gender neutral pronouns and present tense for Alma)
So I was looking at a list of LGBTQ+ characters in media and in the anime and manga section they listed Kanda Yu and Alma Karma from D.Gray-man as both being bisexual.
The more thought about it, the more it felt not quite right.
The big thing that stood out was that Alma is never depicted as having any interest in females at all. Only Kanda who is male both now and in his previous life. That would make Alma straight in their past life and "gay" now. (Now granted they did call For pretty but I don't think that means they think For is attractive.) Another thing is my impression of Alma in their current form is not a cis gendered male. My reasoning is first that Alma uses the Japanese pronoun "Boku" which, in real life is used by young or more soft spoken men, in anime is often used by neutral characters and second is Alma calls their past self me. Quote from D.Gray-man chapter 198: "I'm sure you (Kanda) will search for me as long as you live. You might discover "that person" was me, one day." This shows that Alma sees themselves as both their past self and their present self, as one and the same. Finally a quote from an interview with creator Katsura Hoshino: "I created Alma with the premise “Alma = that person” in my mind. That’s why I wanted to make them look as non-feminine as possible"
As for Kanda he loves both past Alma and present Alma so bisexual could be the right word but I'm not so sure. I think that Kanda loves Alma no matter what and just sees Alma. Pansexual fits better in my opinion.
TLDR: I think Alma is non-binary and Kanda is Pansexual.
If you disagree, I would love to hear your opinion. Feel free to message me if you don't want to post your opinion
What the FUCK did I just draw-
Someone take away my pens... And my phone...
The first thing I've drawn in ages... Help
But midnight is secretly gay. Change my mind.