Panic - Blog Posts

https://mantelsroman.wordpress.com/2017/05/20/solhul/ You never know! What might be happening in the dark corners of a strange café in a strange town in a strange country among strangers... You can only imagine the worst. And you can all too well see it happening to you. Too. Robbery. Murder. Rape. All kinds of things you almost can NOT imagine, but only sense as a tight knot of fear in your stomach. Rising up as panic, making you unable to move. Out of harms way. And harm is surely coming... To you. All kinds of mayhem and hell on earth, so close to you, in the dark corners of the café, and coming closer... It's a question of time. And you dare not move. Even if you could, but you're paralysed by the things you know will happen to you. Right... Now! Oh no... They're purposely dragging the pain, stretching your fear. Those devils are making you go insane; you don't know when they'll hit and hurt you. Only that they will. With all the evil force they have. And they are more evil than your imagination can take. You beg; please get it done, I cannot take the waiting... #https://mantelsroman.wordpress.com/2017/05/20/solhul/ #café #imagination #darkcorners #panic #fear #theworst #intheshadows #lurking #strangers #waiting #fiction #novel #meandmystory #outofyourmind #laurieandthestoryof #andwhatreallyareinthosedarkcornersyoullneverknowuntillyoureadthatstorythatihaventevenwrittentotheendyetbutonlypartofitandindanishsosorry (Usual one-off hashtag...) #udenfilter #mantelmomento #danielmantel #primeiroproximopasso

I am having a massive panic att ack and crying and im so upset and i jsut want him but i dont wanan bother him hes busy but fuck i i need him mroe than anything 

Wow my bpd is acting up fiercely this morning. It’s so...annoying.  The paranoia...it’s sickeningly overwhelming Like I see you’re online, you’ve been online for a while, you haven’t even looked at my message.  Did I upset you? Did I do something wrong? Do you secretly hate me? Are you... leaving me...?? Who is stealing you away from me? Is it them? God it gives me such anxiety in the deepest pits of my stomach. Its such a feeling that screams “You need to be perfect! You’re not perfect! BE BETTER BE BETTER! HE’S GOING TO LEAVE YOU”  I need to be perfect or he’ll leave me for someone better. I’ll be replaced in an instant if I slack.  It makes my skin crawl... I just want to cry so fucking bad. I want to break down. I want you to hold me so tight and close, and tell me you’re not going anywhere, ever. Never ever.

Please don’t leave me, I love you. I really do.

Told all my friends I was going to bed and ended up having anpanic attack an hour lster with no guts to reach out to anyone :”) I feel like im dying ans my brain is convinced Im dying and I feel two seconds from bursting into tears and calling my FP to have him calm me down..But I wont. Ill just lay here suffering in fear because I just cant bring myself to do things..

and an ice cube to bring you out of fight-or-flight mode by making you salivate with cold feeling to distract you from yourself. (at least i think i saw a post somewhere for this i can’t be 100% certain) (i’m like 87% certain)

Ah, don’t you just love anxiety attacks that happen for no reason?

I know it’s late and I have never really posted any of my art here, but I made a drawing of my dnd characters for pride month and decided to post em here. Enjoy!

(Warning: some of them might be homebrewed and one was technically just an NPC that I adopted)

Me: All right! Let's see what's going on in fandom land today!

Splatoon: Final splatfest! Calie vs Marie!

Steven Universe: New episodes coming soon!

Pokemon: New Pokemon revealed!

Wreck it Ralph: Sequel is coming in 2018!

Me: ...

Me: *deep breath*

Me: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHH

WALKING DEAD STARTS IN 5 MINUTES. I CAN'T FEEL MY FACE.

and this stripper that lived next door to us she had like a german shepard and she came out and was like what the fuck

uploading again cause it wasn’t working!!

this is the only live version I’ve heard

Brendon seems to use MALE pronouns in the second verse?

you can clearly hear Ryan’s vocals

the way he ends it is beautiful :’)

Ok, so this is the second part of my fluid acrylic music painting series!

Each painting in this series is based on a song I listened to over and over again throughout the course of the process. I wanted to take the song and really think about how I felt listening to it, and try to capture it using fluid acrylic paint in an abstract painting. These are some of the paintings that came of this whole process.

This particular set are all based on songs from Panic! At The Disco. In order, they are:

1. Say Amen (Saturday Night) (Pray for the Wicked)

2. Emperor’s New Clothes (Death of a Bachelor)

3. Miss Jackson (Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die)

If you’re interested in checking them out for yourself, you can find them on my Etsy page here: https://www.etsy.com/shop/PaintingFire448

I’ll be posting the other paintings I worked on so far in just a bit, so keep a look out for those too (Check out my page for the ones I just posted of songs from NateWantsToBatle)! If you have a particular song you like that you don’t see in what I’ve got up so far, you can message me through here or Etsy, or you can email me at paintingfire448@gmail.com with special requests.