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Upset. :-(
You know sometimes it’s not fair that an child age 7 and up have to do chores and have responsibly. I’m 16 year old girl living with my mother that I don’t think accepts me for what I am anymore. When im home alone while my mother is out going to work, she always brings her work home with her. And if I can’t do an damn thing right she’s all bitchy about it. I know she has work and does bills and stuff but doesn’t mean you put the blame on others. She hates her job, shes tired all the time, she complains that she has to do everything right. She can’t expect people to do things her way, she can’t always want me do everything for her. Sometimes I wish I wish i was never born… Maybe she would be happy without me in her life… I’m sick and tired of being stressed but shes my mom and i can’t do an damn thing anymore. I don’t care if I’m an slop, careless, lazy girl but do others I know care no. They actually accepted me for who I am. And it’s not fair for an mother to not see that who’s say you an woman and be respectful for that, stop putting your hair up. With her attitudes also sometimes I would just kill myself. No i don’t do self harm. But it’s just the pressure she puts on me hurts and isn’t an patient woman. My sister thought mom should get layed with someone. I just don’t know anymore and she hurts me countless times with her words and doesn’t understand anything. I just feel like tiring my heart out and sqeeze it until it pops.
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I'm so useless I'm sorry I don't get good grades I'm sorry I don't like school I'm sorry I sleep too much I'm sorry I'm not open enough I'm sorry I don't like talking over the phone I'm sorry I stay up all night unable to sleep I'm sorry I'm sad all the time I'm sorry I worry to much I'm sorry I have flashbacks I'm sorry i get scared over nothing I'm sorry I don't eat I'm sorry I have to take pills I'm sorry I cut I'm sorry I want to die I'm so so sorry
when my bsf wont tell me the thing my other bsf told her to tell absolutely nobody but she said it in the gc so now im curious and my bsf wont tell me but i thought we were bffs 😞
Oh, you want me to give you feedback, Uber? What a delight! Because, boy, do I have some things to say...
School. Photos.
School has begun. I don’t remember going to school. I don’t know why. I do know that at some point I was there, though. Why?
Oh, and my dumb phone DELETED EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. OF. MY. PHOTOS. 🙃🙃🙃
Someone send help. At this moment there’s a bday party taking place at my house. And it is not for me nor no one that lives here and I am being forced to interact with “my guest” but they are not my guest. 😭😭😭😭😭 is it still considered rude if I hide in my room??? Please someone take me away
Wow my bpd is acting up fiercely this morning. It’s so...annoying. The paranoia...it’s sickeningly overwhelming Like I see you’re online, you’ve been online for a while, you haven’t even looked at my message. Did I upset you? Did I do something wrong? Do you secretly hate me? Are you... leaving me...?? Who is stealing you away from me? Is it them? God it gives me such anxiety in the deepest pits of my stomach. Its such a feeling that screams “You need to be perfect! You’re not perfect! BE BETTER BE BETTER! HE’S GOING TO LEAVE YOU” I need to be perfect or he’ll leave me for someone better. I’ll be replaced in an instant if I slack. It makes my skin crawl... I just want to cry so fucking bad. I want to break down. I want you to hold me so tight and close, and tell me you’re not going anywhere, ever. Never ever.
Please don’t leave me, I love you. I really do.
I've been having so much trouble with MY OWN OC!!! I love Bird thing but I don't know how to finish my drawings. I just can't seem to draw the cat parts right or the bird parts right, and I hate wings.
Anywho this is what I've been working on all last week.
I still can’t respond to people or message them >:|