Y’all know that moment when you just have a real and wholesome laugh, and then you just lay back and sigh and you still have a smile on your face. It’s always a good moment!
Now I get the Twilight titles
Tell me why I finally understand why they have their names:
Twilight: Start of the night, and the moon rising. Like Bella meeting Edward who is obviously the moon in this context.
New moon: which is when the moon isn't like visible because yk Edward leaves.
Eclipse: Because you know, the moon is blocking the sun, which the sun is Jacob and Edward still the moon
And breaking dawn: Dawn is the rise of the sun, so like, the rise of a new era? I dunno
God was a strict father
Lucifer was his son
Lucifer rebelled
So basically...
Lucifer’s fall is just the longest grounding in the history of everything
Friend: So, how many of your ocs are named Keith?
Me: ... I lost count.
i feel like i don't really know what love is
like all the time i searched for it and craved it in every girl that was nice to me or even wasn't but now after i watched this movie i don't think i know what love means. it seems so unconditional and pure and i always thought that i know what love is and what it feels like and that i've been in love with people even if they didn't share the same. i look at my brother and his girlfriend and i see such purity and unconditional love in their eyes. but when i think back i don't know if i ever really felt that for a person. all the "love" i felt for people always had a mildy fear of pain. the fear that they don't love me back and if i act like that now that they won't like me anymore and i lose them. and in fact it mostly ended like that everytime. people get so sick of me and seem to forgot me quickly that i already had forgotten me. i think love will come but i don't know if i'm capable to really feel it or if i'm really getting irritated then. love is such a complex emotion. i always thought i had it but now i don't know if my feelings will ever got over the "you're my crush please notice me" phase. or is this already the love everyone is talking about because it sure doesn't feel like it.
actually i should go to sleep i'm really tired and i propably just think to much into it right now and tomorrow i will wake up and think what have i written yesterday? and the thought will fade away like real love does
or does it?
3:41 AM
I guess I think about a lot of things but that really don't make me special. I like to think that I have no illusions about what I am.
I'm nobody.
I'm a scared boy.
I'm faking it just like you. No, I'm not a serial killer, you sick fuck. Fuck out of here with that.
I guess I'm glad to be alive. Thing is, nobody taught me to live. Not really. Does anybody get taught?
Sometimes I'm filled with dread. I think about all the things I'm not gonna be able to deal with that day. That tends to suck. That's a fucked up thing to do but I do it sometimes.