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Magnus Chase and the Sword of Summer, Rick Riordan

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for @cristaformanimations cuz your art has been on my mind for HOURS

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Even since she was brought back all those years ago, Leafy has just been...tired. She's been tired of living in the shadows, tired of being the villain in everyone's eyes, tired of having to barely get any sleep out of fear that she could get attacked if she let her guard down, tired of HIM.

Her hands hurt from carrying her blades with her; at first they held a form of comfort and safety for her, but now they just remind her of what she lost. Even though it's been years since she escaped yoyleland, her hands still itch for that feeling of handling a knife.

She's envious of course, she's been for a while now. Ever since she joined BFB and even when she got moved over to The Losers, she's been envious of everyone around her. She can't go one day without someone bringing up what she did or someone looking at her like she's the scum of the earth. So often she just wants to leave, just quit the show entirely and not look back. Hell, even TPOT sounded more appealing than having to deal with what's going on now. She's forced to wait until everyone is out of earshot before she's able to break, to let every hurtful word and accusation thrown at her finally sink in.

All she wanted was to be nice to everyone, but every day makes her want to just become the person who they think she is just for the sick gratification of watching them realize how horribly they treated her. Her screams and cries for a better tomorrow are muffled by her pillow and knowledge that it'll never come.

The days where she just wants to give up scare her the most. That one year where she was dead was agonizing and the thought of never coming back at all terrifies her, but it also sounds so alluring to her. The thought of not having to deal with them anymore, not wondering when will be the day she'll snap and do something that she'll terribly regret? The only thing stopping that thought is the knowledge that someone would bring her back. They're still in the competition, so her wanting to be free from them would only be a hindrance in the end.

It's not like she can just go up to 4 and X, going "Hey if I die, can you not revive me? Thanks!". That would be too suspicious; X would undoubtedly be worried for her (bless his heart), while 4 would dismiss it unless she stepped down from competing and after him claiming she was his favorite student, she couldn't stand to upset him. And so, she forces a smile on her face every morning, loudly greets everyone with a chipper attitude that never felt genuine in years and awaits for the next burn that'll keep slowly eating away at her until there's truly nothing left.

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At first, watching her left a grating and uneasy feeling in the pit of Firey's stomach. Watching her smile and chat with everyone as if pretending what happened back then never happened. He'll be honest and admit that watching others being rude to her and snapping at her left a sick sense of enjoyment in him but seeing her stand alone with a distraught and sad expression on her face made something in him twist, but he kept pushing it down because to him and to everyone else around them, he doesn't know her and they aren't friends.

There's been days where Leafy has a blank expression on her face, making him feel uncomfortable. He's always seen a smile on her face and even though he's been pushing her away, seeing her so despondent didn't sit right with him. The night before the split, he remembers overhearing her talking to Coiny and listening to her push down her feelings made him wonder what else she's been pushing down.

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It was a beautiful night for stargazing, which is what Firey decided to go do. He couldn't fall asleep, so he figured he might do something to make him relax. He quietly exited the cabin his team slept in and walked out, looking for the perfect spot over the hills. It wasn't long before he found one, before he looked over and saw...her.

He was about to turn around and leave when she unexpectedly stood up, "Don't worry, I was just leaving". Her voice was just barely above a whisper, but it was enough to make him uneasy. He reached out to stop her but his voice was caught in his throat. He watched her walk away before deciding enough was enough and wanted to genuinely check up on her. "L-Leafy, wait!" He ran after her, hoping to catch her before she went into her cabin. He reached out to grab her shoulder, "Hey, are you ok--", her arm swatted him away like he was nothing but a pesky bug and it struck a cord with him.

She didn't turn to face him, instead wrapping her arms around herself in a weak facsimile of a hug. "...Why do you care?" Her tone sharp with barely laced bitterness. He paused, letting her words process for a moment. "Leafy, what? I-I've always cared--" "Well you sure have a funny way of showing it." He reeled back at her words, having not expected Leafy to get genuinely angry at him.

"Y'know, Firey?" She'd began, the years of hurt finally making her voice break, "I noticed that while I was gone, everything was so much better for you and everyone else." His eyes widened he started to pick up what she was implying. "It made me feel like, maybe....it would've been better..." She turned to face him and seeing her look so utterly broken and defeated torn him up inside. "...if you never recovered me."

"....What?" His voice cracked, tears starting to form. The idea of never recovering her never even crossed his mind, it was something that he would never regret and wasn't going to take that decision back at any point in his life.

He watched as she turned away from him and walked back to her cabin, for once feeling cold in his own skin.

6REEZE Yandere series Part 3

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Content warning(s): Yandere themes (unhealthy obsession)

Let me know if I missed anything.

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Part III: Main Rapper - Xiao

"Good morning. How are you all doing today? I hope you all are well."

Such a simple greeting, uttered so beautifully, so gently, with a voice so sickeningly sweet. Such a simple greeting, yet Xiao's face couldn't help but slowly turn a pink shade upon hearing such an angelic voice from his earphones.

"If you're not doing well, I hope that I can make your day a little bit, if not very much better."

So alluring, so enchanting, that his ears immediately shut out any other sound besides your recorded voice, as well as the thumping of his heart against his chest.

"Come on, let's start the day off energetic."

Every single morning, he turns on his laptop just to listen to the exact same video before he gets ready, it's almost as natural as breathing. It belongs to an ASMR channel, your ASMR channel, the video itself being a sort of "morning routine call".

Being an idol is no easy task. Every single day is practice and practice for the next song, or for the next concert. Sometimes one can get deals to be featured in some reality show or magazine, which requires extra energy and social effort, the latter of which Xiao lacks.

"You can do it, one step at a time." No matter how tired he feels…somehow, just the sound of your breath through his earphones is enough for him to re-energize.

It's because it lets him know you still exist. There's that teeny, tiny chance that you too, are a fan of 6REEZE, right? Though Xiao keeps reminding himself that shouldn't get too ahead of himself.

He is physically unable to get up from bed and do anything productive without hearing this audio recording of your sweet voice assuring him that you will "accompany" him throughout his day. Nothing makes him feel better more than you, asking him how his day has been.

When in reality, those words aren't directed to anyone in particular. But who can blame him? Anyone will be so infatuated with your voice that they'll think you're talking to them only.

…It's a small part of him that makes him wonder whether he is still an idol, or if he has become the creepy fan.

"Hey Xiao, it's practice time," Kazuha told his fellow group mate, who sat quietly in the corner of the canteen.

"Okay," Xiao responded, but his attention was solely focused on his phone screen, "I'll be there in…5 minutes."

"But you and Venti are the main features of this song. We can't practice without you," Kazuha tried to reason with him to be punctual, but was met with silence.

"..." The white-haired idol really wanted to figure out what exactly was on his phone that Xiao was so interested in. Xiao was so focused that he didn't realize Kazuha was taking a small peek at his phone.

"[ Non-ASMR ] Just a chat stream"

That was the title of the livestream Xiao was giving all his attention to.

Kazuha didn't say another word and quietly walked away.

"Hmm…" Xiao watched as you read the live chat with a smile. He didn't dare to touch the chat box, he feels like you're too good to be reading anything he spouts.

Even when it's not an ASMR video, your natural talking voice, too, is too angelic for one to listen to anything else. Your voice is so soft, like a blanket he would cuddle as he falls asleep after another hard day of idol work.

"What do I think of 6 — is it a six?" You stumbled upon a question in the chat, "Oh, it's supposed to be a 'B'...then, '6REEZE'? Aren't they a really popular boy band? I hear my friends talking about them a lot."

Xiao almost had a cardiac arrest when he heard you mention that name.

You won't say anything good about him, will you? No, he's got ahead of himself again. You didn't even know how to pronounce their band name, so you probably won't even know a person named 'Xiao' exists—

"I remember one person in particular that my friend keeps fawning over is the one who always wears that cool looking mask. Can anyone tell me his name?" You asked, recalling the music videos your friend shows you nonstop. Looking through the chat, you hoped to find someone who knows.

As expected, a lot of your subscribers also happened to be 6REEZE fans too. Over and over again, chat messages saying the name 'Xiao' (some are completely capitalized for extra dramatic flair).

"Xiao?" If cardiac arrest wasn't enough, Xiao was ready to drop dead on the spot. There's no way you just said his name. If it was a regular person, something like this would've been completely normal. But this is you we're talking about! The you, who is Xiao's angel sitting on his right shoulder.

"It sounds like a name from Liyue. That's interesting! So the members of 6REEZE seem to be multicultural. Because I also remember there was a guy from Inazuma as well, right?" The words from your mouth keep flowing, but Xiao's mind still lingers on the moment you said his name.

He must be crazy, reminding himself over and over about something so insignificant.

"But yeah, it might be because my friend showed him to me the most, but Xiao looks the coolest to me. His rapping is really clear too, in my opinion," you said, so genuinely and from the bottom of your heart, "Then again, I'm not a boy band connoisseur. Maybe I'll give 6REEZE a try, now that you mention it."

Stop it. Stop it right now. Xiao might actually die. And he still needs to practice soon. You're gonna try listening to 6REEZE music now, and you think his rapping is really neat…?!

Xiao has this sudden urge to get up and practice his ass off. He's counting on that one chance that you watch the upcoming music video he is supposed to practice on, so he can show off to you. He couldn't bear to turn your stream off just yet, but knowing that he now has a reason to put his all into being an idol—

"Xiao? Why do you look so…" Aether saw the look on his friend's face as he finally walked through the doors to the huge practice hall. "Fiery? Up for practice?" Heizou finished the sentence.

"Also, why are you late?" Jean, the manager, glared at Xiao, "It's been 9 minutes past the scheduled practice time." Kazuha whispered to her, "I tried to call him, but…"

Xiao wore his signature cold, nonchalant look on his face,

"That doesn't matter. Come on, let's get this over with."