Why Brain - Blog Posts
You know the feeling when you become very productive and draw countless doodles and illustrations, write dozens of pages for your fic in one day? When you're so much productive that you become much more efficient and talented all of a sudden? When the parts that always make you stuck (hands, feet..) are suddenly extremely easy to draw? When your plot is exactly like you've imagined?
You're thinking that maybe you can pull out the same thing the next day!
....And then you become as energetic as a slug and can't do anything for at least a week.
My Day
So today I got my nails done with my older sister and halfway through my brain was like "oh you're relaxed fuck that have a Panic attack"
Me: okay, so I have all these expensive prismacolor pencils here, what should I draw with? :)
Brain: Crayons!
Me: new crayons...?
Brain: No! Those old ones from when you were like five!
Me:....
it's like why do i feel ashamed of every action or inaction i ever make. will i ever be ok with myself. will i ever just let it be
Why can’t my subconscious just tell me the cool stuff it created in my characters directly instead of making figure it out months (if not like a year later)?
Like I only just realized that these two different characters who are both deeply tied to another characters life and how they ended up as who they are, are LITERALLY THE TWO SIDES OF THE SAME COIN!
They are both
Arrogant (one is has been humbled by the character tying them together (Character C))
Geniuses
Incredibly powerful
Easily considered ‘reality benders’
Have dedicated the rest of their life towards Character C
Rich
Famous
Clever manipulators
Wanted to use Character C for personal gain, at least in the beginning
Both of the planned gains from using Character C were/are to become the most powerful being there will ever be
Wanting to control Character C (one still for personal gain and the other to prevent Character C from accidentally/purposely destroying humanity and/or reality)
Among some other differences.
I HAVEN’T NOTICED THIS UNTIL TODAY AND THESE CHARACTERS HAVE EXISTED FOR LIKE 2 YEARS AND HAVE CONSTANTLY PLAGUED MY MIND!
yay I guess now's the time all my terrible thoughts combine into one.