Miserable - Blog Posts
Why is it snowing
WHY IS IT SNOWING
I always fuck it up.
And I deserve to be miserable
For what I've done.
I wish I would have been
A good partner
But I think I'm not.
Please don't leave me.
I need you.
But if you do
I'd understand
As you deserve better.
Please take care.
I wish you the best.
I'm so sorry.
I love you.
But I hate myself so much.
I hate myself.
But I love you so much.
Lost in time and space
Living moment to moment
In search for a resting place
With no clue of where I'm goin'
If home is where your heart is
It must be a miserable place
A blood painted carnage
As it doesn't stop to ache
And I waited and I ran
Till I was tired and exhausted
Guess fatigue is my best friend
It leaves me numb and thoughtless
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[ID: July 21. Miserable creature that I am. END ID]
"FAMOUS LAST WORDS" It doesn't work. The story is slowly coming to a standstill. And I know why. This is winter in Denmark. February. So daylight has increased a bit: More time for greyness. And even a miserable sun trying its best. Sending out rays of light, only absorbed by souls below zero degrees celsius. My fictive figures falls silent. Even those usually chatterboxes. Like the "Me", "He", "She", all the "I"s, and of course Passo and Laurie. Normally babbling away in their native language, only able to understand each other through my imagination. But they too goes into wordless slow-motion, then turn to something more lifeless than statues of forgotten people. The story doesn't move at all. It's killing me. For real, not just as a saying. Maybe it's all in my head. Or rather, I know it is. That makes absolutely no difference. It's still killing me. Death by forced standstill. Frozen thoughts creaking easily. Killing me. #mantelmomento #danielmantel #laurieandthestoryof #primeiroproximopasso #udenfilter #figures #meandmystory #frozen #standstill #winter #february #statues #belowzero #prose #reality #fiction #frozenbrain #miserable #whenspringcomes #writersblock #andsowtfbecausewhenspringcomesorjusttomorroworinanhouriampastthatlittlestupidblockthatstopsmystoryonlyforashortwhilesoreallywtf... (Usual one-off hashtag...) (her: The Middle of No-where)
