Osdd - Blog Posts
made a silly animation about how memory loss affects my identity
why tf do endos treat being a system like its an identity that you can pick and choose to label? why do they constantly push the transphobic rhetoric of using "traumascum" to refer to traumatized individuals that just dont want people to treat their symptoms like its fun?
being plural/being a system is nothing like being lgbtq+ and i really think we need to stop treating it as such
yes we are a community, but this community is one formed on the basis of being traumatized as kids, its not based on something we choose to refer to ourselves as
we need to be there to support each other but not blindly. we need to help spread information to others with the symptoms so they can receive help.
you wouldnt treat people with personality disorders the way you treat systems so why is it acceptable to treat systems this way?
I'm gonna start calling ourself a system/plural, I don't know the exact origin yet, cause I don't know if I had "enough" trauma at the "right" time for it to be DID or OSDD or any other dissociative disorder. But it feels like we are a system/plural.
We will only really be doing this here, I am unsure if I am gonna tell anyone I know in real life for now. I might wait till I figure out our origin, and even then, it would only be a few people that I would tell.
This feels like the right words and terms for what we feel. I will just be using system and plural for us as terms until I figure out more, of course.
- Shirley (They/them + ix/ix/ixs/ixs/ixself) | feels like the right name rn
[Using both I/me and we/our]
Oh i see you reblogged some tulpa and endo stuff :( are you not actually a system?
This is so incredibly disappointing to read.
I can genuinely only assume you're young and/or don't know any better, but what a person reblogs does not dictate who/what they are. My reasons for reblogging stuff can swing from, "I like it" to "I support it" to "this resonates with me in some way" and that last one has a sliding scale of "haha, funny" to "this is EXACTLY my experience" and you CANNOT KNOW which of these things it is, because you are not me/mine.
(Remember, we're a System, so some of these reblogs might even just be others' opinions/experiences/enjoyments, and not necessarily "mine". 😉👍)
Besides all that, you CANNOT dictate who is a "real" System and who is not. Endo Systems are just as valid as other Systems to me because I'm not going to sit here and pretend I know everything about the human brain, mental disorders, or even OSDD/DID, because I don't. YOU don't. Medical professionals don't. This research is VERY VERY NEW and mostly fueled by the plural community at this point. This science is also incredibly wibbly because it's about feelings and constructs no one can see, feel, taste, hear, etc. It's an entire disorder built on trusting that the host isn't lying, and - for that reason alone - we should stop pointing fingers and trying to tell people, "You're not valid! You reblogged someones tulpa post!"
...so?
Who cares???
I don't even know wtf a "tulpa" is. I don't care. I reblogged something I liked— BIG WHOOP!!
But even then, you - as an individual who I DO NOT KNOW, but (most importantly) DOES NOT KNOW ME - CANNOT judge what is real to me and my life experiences, just like I can't judge yours.
Keep an open mind. Be kind. Do not feed into the social media cesspool mentality of right VS wrong, black VS white.
Life is full of color. Don't dim your world view just because some asshat on Twitter told you to do so.
boy it would be nice to be able to google something related to personality disorders, psychosis, intellectual disabilities, autism, DID/OSDD, etcetera without finding majority articles that are like “how to deal with a person with X” “how to cope with your child with X” “how to spot someone faking X” “can people with X be cured?”
This is going to be a hot take to some, but I think people with CDDs should step back from using online platforms and avoid them if they're too sensitive to getting influenced by them. Especially if they're a newly discovered DID person.
Like genuinely... My experience with DID (symptoms wise) was funnily enough better before I discovered I had it because yeah, I had really bad barriers, but I wasn't constantly encouraged into amplifying them?
With that I mean that I often see public platforms encouraging and promoting splitting alters? Which for me it just resulted in having me and my own alters even more confused about everything?
Genuinely, I still struggle with this shit it's so annoying, because my first instinct is to separate myself more and more instead of at least lowering the dissociative barriers. And seeing public spaces completely encouraging it and in general encouraging stuff like "sourcemates only chat" is just- idk... I don't think that's how you treat dissociative barriers? Feeding into introjects believing they ARE that character/person is the same thing as just believing that character from that universe was taken out of it and put in your head which is completely nonsensical for DID. It can certainly FEEL that way but it is not-
the main reason I don't want kids is because I don't want to become my mother. but here I am, supposed to be reparenting my inner child, instead beating this part of myself up internally because it's so needy. somehow I still became her.
I have a medical issue that's triggering sensory flashbacks multiple times a day for the last couple of weeks and I'm SO TIRED AND OVER IT.
There were people complaining about how I'd ruin my rapists life by reporting him but I'm 32 fucking years old and cant function like a normal human. Someone complain about how they ruined MY life.
Being sex trafficked as a kid in broad fucking daylight in the United States is dystopian af, and gave me a dissociative disorder. I'm on three psych meds. Every time I go to the hospital or a new doctor, they see "PTSD" in my chart and tell me my symptoms are anxiety, and that has almost killed me THREE TIMES.
My trafficker is free. My rapists are all either free or dead. The one I took to trial got everything expunged from the records. Somehow he even got the news articles taken down.
And I'm just... Still here. Still trying to cope. Still living in fear of people who probably don't think of me at all.
So I'm reblogging this from a fandom person I follow but it's on brand for the shit I post so, hello! I have OSDD and CPTSD (both of those disorders have a HUGE amount of symptom overlap and are caused by severe, prolonged trauma). I have different types of flashbacks, triggered by different things, so I'll try to organize my answer below but please be aware that my answers might be triggering especially for anyone who has experienced childhood sexual abuse and/or child trafficking. These terms are just what I use to discuss them with my therapist, so idk if they are official terms or not.
• Tactile flashbacks, also called tactile hallucinations
In these, I am entirely aware of where and when I am, but I feel sensations that were occurring during my trauma. It's usually triggered by experiencing pain from old injuries. For specifically (TW!!!!), I occasionally get nerve pain in my vulva from an injury where I was penetrated with an object and it damaged my cervix severely. Sometimes that nerve pain triggers a tactile flashbacks, where I can feel hands and the object touching me exactly the way it felt when it was really happening. It is so realistic that the first few times it happened, part of me was shocked that I wasn't bleeding or hadn't sat on a knife or some weird shit. It makes it feel like I don't even have pants on. It's fucking disorienting and PAINFUL and scary.
I've spent years training myself to show it as little as possible if it happens in public, because it's not the kind of thing that's easily explainable. But the added stress of hiding it triggers me even more- because hiding was an important job I did to cover up for my abusers, so hiding pain is both instinctual and triggering now- that it kind of just makes it worse. So if I'm around someone, they might see me grimace or shift on my chair a bit, I've also heard that I get pretty pale, but I almost always lie and make up an excuse like cramps, which people tend to believe.
But in reality it's horrific and once I'm in privacy, I am pretty useless for the rest of the day unless I have a close friend or my husband around to help me stay grounded and get back on track.
•Emotional flashbacks
This happens a lot when I'm triggered by an everyday normal occurrence that in normal life, is totally fine, but in my past was something I used to know whether or not I was in danger. Probably the most annoying one is the sound of dishes clanging as someone puts them away. If that happened in my childhood, it meant I hadn't put away the dishes in time, and would be punished (but not grounded because my parents were fucking monsters- punishment for me was things like being locked in very small spaces, being forced to braid my hair in high pigtails and hairspray it and go to school looking stupid, not getting food for a few days, having things thrown at me, sometimes the dishes themselves being physically broken on me).
So imagine what a child's emotions might be, knowing they're about to undergo a severe punishment- fear, regret, remorse, defence, desperation- and then transplant all of those emotions into my 32 year old body. It makes me have some wacky ass responses to my husband putting away the clean dishes. I've spent YEARS working on it but we've been together since I was 19, and just last year I got to the point where I could let him put dishes away without me actually yelling at him, or apologizing, or crying. Thank god for therapy.
Emotional flashbacks can really have drastic, immediate control over my behavior, which makes them pretty dangerous when it's not a situation as innocuous as putting away dishes. It's very hard for me to control what I say and do during these episodes, and it's one of the reasons I was diagnosed with OSDD, because my therapist thinks that when I have emotional flashbacks, I dissociate and another part of my personality kind of takes over. And it really is a dramatic personality shift. Still a part of me, but a much younger version. I used to have total amnesia of these episodes and only knew they were happening because my husband would explain them to me. Now I manage to stay conscious (sometimes called co-conscious by people in the OSDD/DID communities) but still have partial amnesia. It makes it very difficult for me to understand what someone is saying to me long enough to formulate a response that makes sense. It's horrible and really challenging to hide or control.
•Visual/dissociated flashbacks
These have only ever been triggered by sex, and they're very similar to the way flashbacks are portrayed in the media, like in movies. Either all or most of my visual field changes from the current situation to a traumatic sexual abuse memory. I completely dissociate, have no idea where I am or what's happening, but the difference from this and movies is that even within the memory, I don't understand what's happening. I don't go into it with my knowledge of what's happening and 15 years of therapy, I'm right back in the exact mindset I was when it was happening, just with the added idea that something is very wrong. Sometimes it feels like I'm asleep in a nightmare, sometimes it feels like I'm literally living it. They don't last more than maybe 30 seconds or so, and my husband tells me that he knows it's happening because my eyes get really wide, I go totally limp, and don't respond except in a way that's similar to how people might talk in their sleep. Once I come out of it, it's straight to having a panic attack, which as you can imagine is kind of awkward when you're in the middle of trying to fuck your partner. My husband is amazing about it all, but when we first got together it scared the shit out of both of us.
•Some other notes: I often try to ground myself so that I don't dissociate during or after a flashback, but for years the only way I knew to ground myself involved pain. I eventually tried to switch to methods that would hurt but not injure me (pinching the skin between my fingers, punching my thighs). But now I do grounding in a way that doesn't hurt myself- or at least I try to. I talk to myself, out loud, to remind myself where I am, what year it is, what's happening, etc. I do breathing exercises, sing loudly, try to hold a conversation. All of those things can help me stay in the present moment. Unfortunately they don't always work, but hey ya can't win 'em all.
@z-mizcellaneous-z I know that's a LOT but lemme know if you have questions or want any more details/info! I'm happy to share!
Call for People who Have First Hand Experience with PTSD
(Part of The Research Game, question by @z-mizcellaneous-z)
We are wondering if anyone who has first-hand experience can share with us what PTSD flashbacks look or feel like to you, as well as what it might look like from the outside perspective (such as witnessed by friends/strangers).
(please only share if you're comfortable. You can also send me an anonymous ask instead!)
Everyone else, reblog this around until we can find someone who has the answer!
(Otherwise, there's a Youtube channel I know of that aims to spread awareness of PTSD and may help you here: https://youtu.be/vdLfrJSzMY8, though it's important to note she has Complex PTSD, which is slightly different and is characterized by prolonged trauma rather than a single event)
Here's a thought: if a child begs to be allowed to see a counselor and the parent's response is to prevent them from accessing mental health care because you're afraid CPS will be involved? That's a red fucking flag.
If a kid carries around a window crank and a screwdriver in their bag, tells you it's secret from their parents, "just in case," because their windows have been screwed shut and the cranks removed? That's a red flag!
If a kid tells an adult they trust, "my parent is an asshole and I'm afraid of them," that's a red mother fucking flag.
If a kid wears shorts to school with bruises covering their legs and makes teary eye contact with their teacher through the entire class period? Red. Flag.
If a straight-A student fails an exam, looks like they haven't slept in two days, is holding their arm awkwardly to the side as if it is hurt, and stands in their guidance counselor's office, shaking and crying, convinced that that failed exam is the end of the world? guess what color the flag is. RED.
If a kid passes out after a hot day of outdoor activities and when their parent arrives to take them home they scream at the kid for making them look bad- the flag is red!
All of the fucking flags were red. Fuck.
This was my 4th Christmas without my mother. Every year, I am struck by how much of a fucking relief it is. I was told by so many people that I would regret my decision, that I would miss her, that "she's your mom and you only get one."
I don't miss her. My life has been objectively better without her.
I miss believing I had a mom who loved me, but that started a long time before I cut her out.
I don't miss the panic I felt seeing her name on my caller id. I don't miss her manipulation. I don't miss her parentifying me. I don't miss the burden of caring for her in her old age looming over my head like a fucking guillotine. I don't miss her guilt or her lies or her abuse.
I don't miss her. I don't miss her. I don't miss her. I feel free.
I can't believe I'm 31 and still putting pieces together.
Shortly after reporting my stepfather to the police for rape, his father, the man I had called grandpa for a fucking decade, started coming to the burger joint I worked at. I couldn't get a restraining order because he didn't do anything but order a burger and sit at a table directly across from the register and stare at me. He'd leave when he finished his food.
When I told people, their reaction was always "why would he do that? That's so weird." But knowing what I know now, knowing he'd been paying my mother thousands of dollars over the years to keep both of us quiet, knowing he had effectively been paying my mother to let his son use me-
It was just intimidation. Money wasn't keeping me quiet so he wanted to scare me into silence. Wanted me to know he had more power, more resources, more time.
And they did win the court case. And he did scare the shit out of me. So much so that I nearly quit my job.
I was just faulty merchandise to him. God.
feeling trapped
i think one of the things i'm struggling with the most is the feeling of being trapped. it's what the majority of my nightmares focus on, either with memories of real events or invented trauma-based dream nonsense, but i haven't parsed out exactly why this is such an issue for me still.
for all intents and purposes, i'm not trapped anymore. i've been out of that environment since 2008. i've been no-contact with my abusers since 2018. i'm married, living in a different county, in my own house with my partner and two dogs. i am the least trapped i've ever been.
though i do feel trapped in my body- it's maddening sometimes, having to deal with my chronic illness and disability on top of this mental health baggage. it's frustrating. but i don't really think that's what the issue is, with this trapped feeling.
i know it somehow relates to my trauma, but i can't put my finger on why my brain feels the need to process this now. what even is there to process? i was trapped. often physically, always psychologically, but like why does my brain keep telling me there is something deeper about this that i'm not understanding? it's like having a word or phrase on the tip of my tongue. there is something but i don't know what.
one of the reasons my therapist suggested writing online, anonymously, is because my trapped feelings can be triggered when i want to talk about my trauma but get stuck in the potential consequences of doing so with my identity attached. my abusers have both, separately, threatened me with lawsuits should i ever attempt to report them again or go public with my story. defamation, libel, countersuits if charges are pressed again. as if i would even want to go through the trauma of legal proceedings, all over again, since all it ever did was make my life harder. that court experience was worse than some of the rapes i remember.
so i'm writing, to see if putting this out into the world helps this feeling. or maybe it will help something else inside of me. part of me wonders if i'm just using it as an excuse to lean into the trauma more, since feeling broken down is more comforting than feeling strong, even now. the pain of it feels safe.
The Garden (system term)
The Garden is a Headspace Location term which refers to the area in headspace where headmates initially form . In a system that has a garden, when a special interest(s) // hyperfixation(s) becomes especially prevelant, a seed is planted in the garden . The greater the interest, the more the seed thrives and grows . As time goes on, these seeds will grow into plants . When a split or formation occurs, the plant blooms at that exact point, and the new headmate is brought into full formation . Some plants may never bloom, while others may grow rapidly, being planted one hour and brought into full bloom the next -- it depends upon the system . A system may have a headmate who tends to the garden to keep it in check -- this headmate may be called a gardener or gardenkeeper . The gardener may prevent plants from growing too quickly, thus quelling rapid headmate formation . The gardener will also tend to the already bloomed plants and keep them healthy, as these directly affect the status of each headmate and vice versa . If the system lacks a gardener, it's possible that headmates will form at overwhelming speeds, especially if one is neurodivergent + very attached to their special interests // hyperfixations . Without a gardener, headspace may experience a sort of innerworld earthquake (which may be referred to as a seedquake or gardenquake) as half-formed headmates struggle to make their way up and out of the ground of the garden . When a system is experiencing heightened emotional levels, whether positive or negative, this can potentially act as a a sort of speed-up for sprouts, or even seeds that haven't broken the surface yet . This is referred to as emo-bonemeal, or emotion bonemeal, due to how it causes the plants to thrive . Terms that may be used by Garden Systems: ☆ n. seed -- the first hint of a headmate forming; an interest planted into the garden ☆ n. seedling // sprout -- may be used to describe the growing seed, or as an endearment for newly-formed headmates ☆ n. bloom -- may be used in reference to a fully formed headmate's plant ☆ n. gardener // gardenkeeper (role) -- a headmate or headmates who tend to the garden; such as keeping plants from growing too fast, keeping soil soft and tender so as to prevent seedquakes, maintaining blooms, etc. ☆ n. gardenquake // seedquake -- when a seedling headmate is struggling to grow, or is about to form, thus causing sort of earthquakes within the innerworld ☆ v. bloomed -- an alternative to the term "formed" ☆ n. emo-bonemeal // emotion bonemeal -- heightened emotional levels causing plant growth at potentially alarming rates THIS IS NOT FINISHED i'm just too tired rn xd
REPULSOURCTiVE AND TRAUREPULSOURCTiVE !!
@ ,,, REPULSOURCTiVE !! : a system headmate term used to describe a fictive introject who is repulsed by being associated with their source, while still being very connected to it .
@ ,,, TRAUREPULSOURCTiVE !! : a system headmate term used to describe a fictive introject who is repulsed and possibly triggered by being associated with their source due to in-source trauma, while still being very connected to it .
PSSTTT ,,, COLOR REASONING !!!!!!!!!
red = repulsion
green = disgust
indigo = past
blue = source
black = separation
grey = trauma
The Garden (system term)
The Garden is a Headspace Location term which refers to the area in headspace where headmates initially form . In a system that has a garden, when a special interest(s) // hyperfixation(s) becomes especially prevelant, a seed is planted in the garden . The greater the interest, the more the seed thrives and grows . As time goes on, these seeds will grow into plants . When a split or formation occurs, the plant blooms at that exact point, and the new headmate is brought into full formation . Some plants may never bloom, while others may grow rapidly, being planted one hour and brought into full bloom the next -- it depends upon the system . A system may have a headmate who tends to the garden to keep it in check -- this headmate may be called a gardener or gardenkeeper . The gardener may prevent plants from growing too quickly, thus quelling rapid headmate formation . The gardener will also tend to the already bloomed plants and keep them healthy, as these directly affect the status of each headmate and vice versa . If the system lacks a gardener, it's possible that headmates will form at overwhelming speeds, especially if one is neurodivergent + very attached to their special interests // hyperfixations . Without a gardener, headspace may experience a sort of innerworld earthquake (which may be referred to as a seedquake or gardenquake) as half-formed headmates struggle to make their way up and out of the ground of the garden . When a system is experiencing heightened emotional levels, whether positive or negative, this can potentially act as a a sort of speed-up for sprouts, or even seeds that haven't broken the surface yet . This is referred to as emo-bonemeal, or emotion bonemeal, due to how it causes the plants to thrive . Terms that may be used by Garden Systems: ☆ n. seed -- the first hint of a headmate forming; an interest planted into the garden ☆ n. seedling // sprout -- may be used to describe the growing seed, or as an endearment for newly-formed headmates ☆ n. bloom -- may be used in reference to a fully formed headmate's plant ☆ n. gardener // gardenkeeper (role) -- a headmate or headmates who tend to the garden; such as keeping plants from growing too fast, keeping soil soft and tender so as to prevent seedquakes, maintaining blooms, etc. ☆ n. gardenquake // seedquake -- when a seedling headmate is struggling to grow, or is about to form, thus causing sort of earthquakes within the innerworld ☆ v. bloomed -- an alternative to the term "formed" ☆ n. emo-bonemeal // emotion bonemeal -- heightened emotional levels causing plant growth at potentially alarming rates THIS IS NOT FINISHED i'm just too tired rn xd
PluralKit commands
alright, so i’ve noticed that the pk website can be a little confusing for a lot of people, so i thought i’d make a little commands cheat sheet for systems who have just started out using the bot in discord servers
short cuts and tips - pk;autoproxy [off/latch/front/member] : this command makes it so you don’t have to use the member proxies every time you talk, for example pk;autoproxy front that makes it so that whoever is fronting is automatically proxied in the server. this only works in the server that you use the command it, so you don’t have to worry about hopping into another server and having the proxy on. pk;autoproxy off : this just turns it off, so you have to do it manually again - all of the commands can be shortened to make it easier. i’m just going to list them all here pk;system —> pk;s pk;member —> pk;m pk;group —> pk;g pk;autoproxy —> pk;ap - if you have spaces in your name, you need to put it in quotes to pull it up, so for example if you put your full name it would look like pk;member “John Joe” if you don’t have the quotes around it, it won’t register properly. you could also just put in your specific code and that’ll work fine. - you can always use your specific member code in place of your name for all of these commands
system commands - pk;system new [name] : this is the command to create and name your entire system, so for example pk;system new snail system - pk;system rename [name] : this command lets you rename your entire system if you ever want to do that - pk;system description : here you can write a little description about your system if you want to, so people can have a little info on your system if they were to look it up - pk;system privacy [subject] : this one lets you set specific parts of your systems information to private, so for example if i wanted to set my system description to private, i would use pk;system privacy description private - pk;system tag [tag] : so for this one, most systems have tags that show up at the end of each members name to prevent confusion on who is from which system if there are multiple systems in chat. i’ll use our system as an example again. pk;system tag || 🐌 🌱 we added the double lines to ours because we like to put emojis in our names, so it helps differentiate which emojis are the system tag and which emojis are part of out name - pk;system avatar [url/picture] : this command lets you have a little profile picture for your entire system as a whole - pk:system list : this shows you the complete list of everyone in the system - pk;system front : this command shows you who is fronting at the time - pk;system front history : this shows you the last 10 people who’ve fronted in the system (if they logged it of course) and how long they were fronting. -pk;system front percent : this one is super useful when looking for how much each person fronts compared to the others in the system
member commands - pk;member new [name] : this creates a new member in the system and assigns them a specific code they can use to pull themselves up. i’ll use myself as an example pk;member new John - pk;member [name] : this command just pulls up the person, so for example pk;member John - pk;member [name] rename [new name] : this command lets you rename that member if you ever have to pk;member John rename Joe - pk;member [name] description [description] : this lets you add a little description to each person in the system. we like to answer a few basic questions in ours so it looks like this pk;member John description age member role in system other info the member wants to add you can obviously change it up and add more as you learn more about yourself, but every time you do this command, you’re starting your description from scratch, so you’ll need to rewrite previous information - pk;member [name] avatar [url/picture] : this command lets you put a profile picture for your specific proxy - pk;member [name] [private/public] : this command lets you private specific members descriptions/names/ages/etc for example pk;member John public - pk;member [name] proxy: text : this command lets you proxy members profiles, so they can speak as themselves in the server for example pk;member John proxy j: text now every time i want to type as myself, i have to start with “j: ” like this j: sup and it will change the message so that it’s from me rather than the main discord account - pk;member [name] pronouns [pronouns] : this command lets you add pronouns to the members profiles, so for example pk;member John pronouns he/him - pk;member [name] birthday [date] : this command lets you add a birthday to the members profiles, and it looks something like this pk;member John birthday April 13 - pk;member [name] color [hex code] : this command lets you assign a color to members profile. it only adds it to the profile and not the proxy, but it’s still pretty neat. it looks like this pk;member John color #0715cd - pk;member [name] delete : this command is for if you ever need to delete a member for some reason pk;member John delete
group commands - the group commands can be used for a lot of different things like subsystems or just to help differentiate specific things. we use out groups to separate fictives by their sources - pk;group new [name] : this is the command to create a new group pk;group new Fictives - pk;group [name] : this just pulls up the group profile pk;group Fictives - pk;group [name] list : this lists all the members in the group pk;group Fictives list - pk;group [name] description [description] : this lets you add a description to a group if you want to so for example pk;group Fictives description (insert description here) - pk;group [group name] [add/remove] [member name/names] : this is the command that lets you add to the group and you can either do it one at a time or all at once like this pk;group Fictives add John pk;group Fictives add John Dave again, you can also use the codes assigned to each member, but don’t put commas between them because that will just cause an error - pk;group [name] icon [url/picture] : this command lets you add a profile picture for a specific group - pk;group [name] delete : this lets you delete a group if you have to for some reason, but it doesn’t delete the members in the group, so don’t worry about that. it’d look something like this pk;group Fictives delete
switching commands - pk;switch [name] : this logs the time of your switch and displays the new fronter on the profile. so it’d look like this pk;switch John - pk;switch move [time] : this command lets you move your switches back for example pk;switch move 17:00 this will only be registered if it’s in military time, so keep that in mind when logging pm switches you also can’t have specific switches overlap each other, so when moving a switch back, you can’t go past the time of the switch before it. for example, if i wanted to move my switch to 4 pm but someone else was already logged at 5pm, i can’t overlap their log - pk;switch delete : this command deletes your latest switch that was logged - pk;switch out : this lets you switchout without having anyone logged for switching in. this will show in the front history and front percent as “no fronter”
that’s all i can think of right now for the basics. hopefully it’s at least a little bit helpful, and if any other systems want to add on that’s fine. just remember that pk is a bot to help systems differentiate each alter while sharing one base account, and it makes some systems uncomfortable when singlets use it for roleplaying
uhhmm question.. /nf
what do you think of non-traumagenic and/or non-disordered systems..? /lh
>^>
i know it's a subject of lots of discourse in the community ,,, i don't think it's right to hate on anybody, or to tell anybody that their experience is invalid or false, it's just- different from what we're used to, yk ? something i also see a lot is ppl getting rlly upset bc "endogenic systems don't have trauma" or whatever- but they actually- *can* have trauma, and frequently *do* have trauma !! it's just not directly attached to how their system or headmates formed !! i think everyone has a right to their own experiences, but also that no one has a right to faking these kinds of things, yk ? but also, no one has a right to just claim out of the blue that someone is faking something based on their limited personal perception of what that someone releases onto social media, yeah ? it's hard sometimes to figure out that balance, how to sort the rotten from the ripe, yk ? but i think as long as everyone is loving and caring and listening, then it's going to be okay traumagenic systems have already been through enough, and endogenic systems likely have too—why do we need this added discourse based on how certain systems//headmates formed ?? some endogenic systems form from loneliness, which is sure painful, but it can be hard to tell if it qualifies as trauma, but that doesn't undermine the fact that there's other little guys in ur cranium now bopping around w u !!! i think everyone should just be nice, not fake disorders, and culture love and understanding :3 so ya !!
riding the wave, so here's a bunch of flags for it too
i wanted to coin a headmate origin term bc i have two headmates who formed on the full moon, but there's not a term for that :( so !
Plenalugenic - a term used for systems//headmates whose origin has something to do with the full moon, especially if they were formed under it .
i put it on pluralpedia :3
i wanted to coin a headmate origin term bc i have two headmates who formed on the full moon, but there's not a term for that :( so !
Plenalugenic - a term used for systems//headmates whose origin has something to do with the full moon, especially if they were formed under it .
i wanted to coin a headmate origin term bc i have two headmates who formed on the full moon, but there's not a term for that :( so !
Plenalugenic - a term used for systems//headmates whose origin has something to do with the full moon, especially if they were formed under it .
would anyone be willing to chat to a baby osdd-1b system abt everything ? like- we don't seem to have an innerworld, and i (the ,, host - ? ig-) never ever leave front, but the others can join me in front and leave, but they don't- know where they go- we don't have any amnesia barriers between alters, at least to our knowledge, so we all share everything we're kinda- rlly confused ,,,, i've been actively denying their existence since i was like- 5 ? i'm 18 now ,,,, would anyone be willing to ,,, idk, help ? give advice ?