Accountability - Blog Posts

autonomy and accountability go hand in hand

Autonomy without accountability is useless. You're free. Free for what? Free to do what? We need to specify. You're not free to fly like a bird and fall like a stone. You're not (always) free to travel without a visa.

Direction is important with freedom.

If you want autonomy you have to be accountable for something. The reverse is also true: If someone holds you accountable for something, they should give you autonomy.

Of the 100 largest economies in the world, 51 are corporations. - Amnesty International  https://www.amnesty.org/en/what-we-do/corporate-accountability/

Illustration by John Holcraft

Your blame blinds you from taking personal responsibility.

Via Brendan Durrell ☯️

True connection appears where the mask ends.

Being in a constant state of rebranding is exhausting.

Life just isn’t that serious

It takes two people to fail in love.

There is no real blame in this game of emotional terrain.

Leftist infighting almost killed me (Broke Bread)

Leftist who Socially policing flawed (marginalized) people / content creators online up to the point of practically trying to ruin their livelihoods, isn’t Liberation, it’s harassment and just makes you not only expose your internalized classism but a bully who loves to create drama for personal gain.

Controlled Opposition: A Theory

What caused the Rwandan Genocide? - Susanne Buckley-Zistel

I want an accountability partner or someone that would do a competition with me to see who can lose the most weight by the end of the year. Is anyone interested???

**Headline: Saline County Sheriff's Office Fails to Protect Child, Officer Neglects to Verify Critical Information**

Back in July of this year, A tragic failure of responsibility occurred in Saline County. It was on the afternoon of July 30th when Officer Jordan of the Saline County Sheriff's Office in Shannon Hills, Arkansas, neglected to properly intervene in a dangerous custody dispute. The mother of a child, whom had been advised by the Pulaski County Sheriff's office in Little Rock, had requested assistance in retrieving her child and a vehicle from the father, who was driving a car with no functioning brakes.

Wait, what?

The car belonged to the mother, she had let him borrow it 2 months prior. The father had been refusing to return the vehicle the entire time, even after multiple calls to the Pulaski County Sheriff's Office in Little Rock, AR for assistance. They said nothing could be done. This being because she had let him borrow it to begin with.

In fact, They refused to even look at the paperwork for the vehicle that the mother had in her possession, proving ownership.

Sometime later, the brakes had gone out. Still, the father refused to return the vehicle. Still he continued to refuse to return the children and had been spotted by several witnesses driving children in this unsafe vehicle.

Then, again on the afternoon of July 30th, 2024, after the mother again contacted Pulaski County for help, they finally advised the mother to call Saline County and Meet with one of their officers at the father's residence.

Officer Jordan was then was supposed to meet both parents at the father’s residence to resolve the situation. After speaking to the mother on the phone and agreeing to meet her in the grocery store parking lot, However, he instead met solely with the father, who allegedly had presented paperwork for not only the wrong child, but for custody of the ESTATE of another child entirely. (This means the paperwork was for guardianship of the other child's lawsuit money after being ran over by a school bus, and not the other child himself, nor the child in question at the time. IN FACT, the child whom the papers pertained to, WAS WITH THE MOTHER WHILE SPEAKING TO OFFICER JORDAN! Rather than verifying the documents or investigating further, Officer Jordan accepted the father’s claims at face value. The mother was then denied access to both her child and the vehicle.

The very next day, the car was totaled in an accident due to the brake failure, narrowly avoiding a deadly tragedy involving the child. The community is demanding accountability for this grave negligence, which could have resulted in a fatal outcome. In the subsequent car wreck, the father was unable to stop the vehicle while coming off of an exit in Little Rock. He pulled the emergency brake, to no avail. He then turned the wheel to avoid the other cars, and multiple vehicles then struck the rear end of the vehicle and pushed him up and over the guard rail. Thankfully, no one was injured in any of the involved vehicles. Had officer Jordan done his job the way he should have, this car would not have been on the road and this wreck would not have happened. #SalineCountyNeglect #DemandJustice #OfficerAccountability #lawenforcementfails #miscarriageofjustice #outrage #justiceforhannahandkids #justiceforhannah #accountabilitynow #salinecountysherrifsoffice #shannonhillsarkansas

Below,

It has been attached, the photos of the damaged vehicle, and the photo of a copy of the "paperwork" that Officer Jordan read. Clearly, the paperwork is for a child named "D" birthdate: July 21st, when the incident was involving a child with the Initial "C" whose birthdate is March 28th. In fact, Child "D" was with the mother at the time of speaking with this particular officer on this particular day.

This... is part of why I get so uncomfortable sometimes. I have always tried, painfully so, to be a positive person. But, I am finding it harder and harder with time to be... positive. Why? The poor behavior that can be found close, out and about, and pretty much EVERYWHERE online, that's why. I mean seriously, the fact that signs like this are even needed is a display of the kind of behavior that makes it hard some days to brush it off and smile. I know it has become the norm to allow your electronics to think for you but dang folks... seriously? From where I'm sitting, we're all doomed but, I still do try... to be a positive person and at least not abundantly feed the ugly, nasty, YUCK that seems to be EVERYWHERE at this point. -sigh-- Okay, I'm done now.

Written: 1•30•19

Soul Connected

I was looking for me But I found you While soul searching I found truth That everything was in my head I was so used to past abuse Little did I know How my soul searching Would bring me to you I searched for my soul But my soul searched for yours Soul searching opened so many doors It’s like we vibe better We know we can weather any storm Sex was always amazing But now it’s more than our flesh Our souls make love Why should they get second best So many walls broken through I’m so glad my soul found you In the process of it all We learned the true meaning of This union Has nothing to do with rings, Vows, papers, or the fate of Divorce loomin’

-Illustratum Paradoxon

The shittiest person you have ever met: I don't need a God to tell me what's right or wrong

"That was a very ugly thing you just said" Keiko I would like to marry you

Star Trek DS9 (1993-1999)

Daily Check-In: May 26, 2025 🎀

Hello lovelies <3

Today is going to be a very relaxing, restorative day, as I have work tomorrow and had a really rough night last night. Nothing too difficult or too set in stone for me. Just a todo list of things I WANT to do today that'll benefit me the best.

This summer so far, I've been indulging in hobbies, which is what I plan on spending all day today doing!

ToDo Today (May 26) 🌻

watercolor painting practice

color a full page in one of my coloring books

begin reading a new book (I just finished The Seven Husband's of Evelyn Hugo and omg it was so so good)

list a few more clothing items on depop

wash dishes

job search, just a little bit

budget the money I'm getting later this week

journal about life a little bit

take a nap

Those are the only things I want to make sure I get done today, I don't care what order or how long they take. Today is all about relaxing and having a good, easy, restful day.

I hope all of you have a wonderful day as well <3

🎵 Song of The Day: Casual - Doja Cat

omg this song is so good, it's been on repeat

Help me choose which book I should read please!

til next time lovelies 🩷

Life Update: 5/26/25

Hello lovelies, long time no see, at least it feels like it's been a long time. I finished off my spring semester, not as strong as I had hoped honestly. I barely managed to pass the classes I was worried about, and I was honestly so so burnt out by the end of the semester. Like, I think I slept the most I ever have in the week following my last day of the semester.

So far this summer, I've only worked 2 days (as of tomorrow it'll be 2 days of work this summer) because I decided I wanted a break from school AND work which I am thankfully able to afford at the moment. It has been wonderful. I've spent my days reading, taking walks outside, working out, napping, and indulging in hobbies like painting, coloring, and I plan on picking up sewing, crochet, and drawing soon. It has been so restorative for me so far and I am so beyond grateful for this time I've had for myself.

Work has become a super toxic place for me, as I have some co workers that have made it their mission to talk trash about me and my life and the decisions I make. One of them is actually a former friend who can't seem to not talk about me. I've had at least 4 people confirm that she talks about me constantly and it's honestly draining to hear all the garbage and nonsense she talks. I just wish everyone would remember we are adults and we certainly have much more important things to do then just talk about other people. It also hurts, because we used to be such good friends, and I haven't spoken one word bad on her since the friendship ended, because I don't see it as productive or necessary. I just wish other people thought the same, that there's no need to speak ill on others.

I would find a new job if I could, but because I don't drive AND my current job pays well, I feel as though I am a bit stuck. But we will see what happens when the semester gets closer. Maybe I can take a pay cut and get a new job. Who knows?

I will post my todo list for today soon, as today is a full relaxation/restoration day for me. I started my period and had a really rough night last night, plus I work tomorrow (deep cleaning the restaurant I work at, so nothing too bad), so I figured having a full day of ease would be most beneficial.

I'm going to try to update as regularly as I can, as I do have some stuff that I need to accomplish this summer before the semester starts. It feels good to be back.

til next time lovelies 🩷

April 2nd, 2025 🎀

Yesterday was not a good day. I was able to get a decent amount of chores done but I ended up having a sort of breakdown about some stuff going on in my life, I cried several times and ended up not being able to really focus on anything. I stayed up way later than I needed to and honestly just tried to be kind to myself because stuff feels heavy sometimes.

What I Accomplished (April 1st) 👑

washed dishes

put away clean laundry

ran another load of laundry

washed my towels, blanket, and pillow cases

tidied up around my room

took out three bags of trash

ordered groceries

watched a little bit of Attack on Titan

listed more items for sale on my depop

Yeah, not my most productive day, but I don't want to beat myself up about it. Stuff happens, and I just gotta keep my head above water and call that a win sometimes.

ToDo Today (April 2nd) ✨️

complete assignment 6 for one of my online classes (it's due tomorrow) 💻

work on chapter 10 notes for exercise physiology (at least a little bit) ✏️

make a study quizlet for exercise physiology

make a study quizlet for health psychology

gratitude journal 📖

morning + night skincare 🚿

work a night shift, 230pm to ~930pm ☕️

I need to start drastically limiting my caffeine intake. I definitely think the amount of caffeine I consume is unhealthy and is contributing to my heightened levels of anxiety and uneasiness. It will definitely do me some good to make some changes with that for sure.

I still haven't decided what language to pick back up yet, but I'm not in any rush to make a decision just yet either. I need to look at what classes to take next semester, if I'm switching colleges or not. And I need to fill out my FAFSA. But those will be tasks for another day right now.

🎶 Song of The Day: Bulls in The Bronx - PTV

til next time lovelies 🩷

I'm back? - An Update

Hey lovelies. It's been a while. Lots has happened in my life, and I don't know how consistent I'll be with posting but I figured it would be a good way to kind of motivate myself to get back to some of my habits and working towards some of my goals. I've been slowly trying to better myself, my life, my academics, all that good stuff, and maybe coming back here and posting will help me stay accountable? Who knows, but it's worth a shot.

💌 Todo List for Today (March 26, 2025)

take chapter 8 notes for health psychology

take chapter 9 notes for exercise physiology

read 1 chapter of Attached ✅️ (I read 3)

survive my night shift at work (2pm to 9pm)

night time skincare

Not an extensive list, as I've already crossed off some other items on my to-do list that I don't think need to be added because they're already done for the day. I'm feeling incredibly anxious right now, and I have no clue why, but hopefully taking my medication and maybe some meditation will help my anxiety lessen a little bit.

My todo list for tomorrow is TBD.

Til next time, lovelies 🩷

Accountability Buddy Search!

I am currently on the search for an accountability buddy! Someone I can use to keep me on track with my academic goals, life admin goals, language study goals, and whatever specific things I'd want to accomplish! I also would love to help someone else stay accountable with their academic/language/life admin goals!

editing to add: I AM LOOKING FOR AN ACCOUNTAVILITY BUDDY AGAIN! Communication via discord and I will be updating my goals!

Here are some of my goals:

regularly studying spanish/Japanese

sticking to my routines consistently

maintaining a healthy, productive balance in life

regularly meeting my personal goals (reading, joirnaling, working out, etc)

Here are some things about me:

I am a 22 year old female

I am a senior n university, but 3rd year of studying my major

My major is Human Nutrition/Dietetics, and I am also minoring in Psychology and Exercise Science

I want to begin regularly studying Japanese and Spanish, and maybe Korean too

I want to begin reading, journaling, and sticking to consistent skincare and workour routines as well as keep academically inclined.

My Preferences in Accountability Buddy:

Female, 19-24 years of age (no minors or males, please.)

preferably in college/university, but it also doesn't matter if you independently study languages

also has some academic/productive oriented goals, or just goals that you'd like to be kept accountable on

has a not super personal way of contact for the accountability check ins (GroupMe, Discord, and eventually maybe a way to video call once we get more comfortable with each other, but of course, safety first! and tumblr inbox works too, but I feel discord or groupme might be a little easier long term)

hopefully willing to stay accountability buddies for a decent amount of time (for the next 4 weeks at minimum)

willing to lay out or goals, accountability check in schedule, and open to communication with respect to each of our time zones/schedules/commitments, etc

conversationaly fluent/fluent in English or English first language at the least. It's the only language I currently speak so it would be easier to work with someone that speaks the same language

If anyone is interested in having/being an accountability buddy, please send me an ask or message me! Please be respectful of my preferences tho, I really do want to be safe with something like this because with the internet, you never know. I look forward to possibly meeting/working with/becoming acquaintances with you guys!!

ps. please don't be put off by the aesthetics of my blog, I can assure you all, I am a typical, 21 year old college student who works an on campus job, struggles with sleep and caffiene, and is constantly staying on top of my grades and classes while also worrying if I'm doing enough to keep my GPA at a good spot. this blogs aesthetics are purely for fun and artistic expression. If I wasn't such an aesthetic-loving person, I'd post my own study type photos but I'd feel so less-than if I posted like, a non cohesive plethora of photos I take. I'm not good at taking photos

Hi everyone!

I've decided to start this blog to keep myself accountable as I continue along on my health journey. This will include working on my mental, physical, and emotional health!

Here are some things about me!

I go by Rose, and I use she/her pronouns

I'm in my very early 20s and a juinor at my university

I am studying Human Nutrition and Dietetics, with a minor in Exercise Science and another minor in Psychology

I am an avid Kpop stan, especially for gg's like Ive, Twice, Blackpink, New Jeans, (G)-Idle, Itzy, NMIXX, etc

Some of my biases include Lisa, Soyeon, Wonyoung, Yuna, Jennie Kim, Sullyoon, Yunjin, etc

I love the pink pilates princess, wonyoungism, it girl energy, and hope to better myself through embracing those values and lifestyles.

I am really hoping that this blog will keep me both accountable and successful in my health efforts

I will be posting daily updates including what I eat/consume daily (without calories or macros mentioned), my daily YouTube workouts that I've completed, weekly or monthly weigh ins, and my daily routines, habits, motivations, and so on.

This is not solely about weight loss but an overall improvement in my health and lifestyle. I will include posts about my goals and habits, current skincare routine, morning routines, night routines, favorite self-help books and tips, my current workout routines and tips, favorite meals, my self care weekend routine, favorite self care/fitness/lifestyle products, and things similar to all of those.

My Current Stats:

Current Weight: 237 lbs

Goal Weight: 140 - 160 lbs

Height: 5'3

Exercise level: Intermediate (I've been a runner, a weight lifter, and I've done many YouTube workouts including yoga, pilates, chloe ting, and so on. )

Current Workout Plan: 30+ min of YouTube workouts a day, including yoga, pilates, dance, hiit, and body weight workouts.

Reasons for this journey: I want to deepen my self-love, strengthen my confidence, lose some weight, and develop habits that will help me to become the best version of myself on a daily basis.

Thank you for joining me on this journey, and I'll start my daily update later today!

The picture collage included was retrieved from Pinterest!! It is not my own creation or work, but I will be producing my own images as of soon!!

Lack of Trust and it is the Police who are to blame

Growing up, I would come home from school and watch ALL the Law and Orders. Still do today. I didn’t hear much about how cops were pigs and corrupt—I heard a few stories but mostly kids and teenagers hating the police because they wanted to be against the government more than anything actually have happened to them

With the murder of Trayvon Martin I was very confused. It’s a kid, in a hoodie. 95% of my life I a kid in a hoodie, so…what’s going on here. Then I moved, spent less time with my parents and under strict supervision and would see and have interactions with police.

I’d see them texting while driving, the wrong way down a road.

I’d see them run through the red light without or without the siren on, or just turn it on so others would get out of the way. Both panic-inducing, confusing, disrupting and disturbing as that is a really, loud noise.

I’ve seen them brush off issues that they felt were beneath them to deal with and experienced them lying to me and my lack of understanding and believing and trusting them being held against me. Obviously I was the one who was lying, because at the time I didn’t know my rights. 

(ACLU, thank you for your efforts to make this and other protections in this and other interactions known: https://www.aclu.org/know-your-rights/stopped-by-police#ive-been-pulled-over-by-the-police) 

The distrust of the police is not media brainwashing; it is the complete trust and authority given to police that comes from the all the television shows that at this point are pure propaganda. The police’s values are supposed to be about compassion, respect and professionalism but in my experience their main priority is not their life or even their paycheck but whatever they want when they want it. My experiences are small, but it is the lack of accountability with the most minor of offences that allow larger acts to go unreported—becoming part of the norm.

Police officers choose to serve their communities and they need to prove they are serving all of their community with police officers only being approved if they pass racial bias exams, and police communities are focused on reform with the guidelines set by Campaign Zero and other organizations and reporting systems based on integrity. (https://www.joincampaignzero.org/reports)

23 April 2023- Reset

So, I know it’s been a while...

I’m sorry for not being consistent with posting on here. It’s been a really rough few months. 

There are multiple sources of the stress I’ve been experiencing, both in my personal life and at work. 

I’ve been really depressed and lonely and have been dealing with a lot of anxiety.

I haven’t been to the gym in several months, so I haven’t even had much to report here anyway...

I’ve been feeling horrible about myself and I feel like my life has been very stagnant. It also doesn’t help that my birthday was just a few days ago. I feel like this has added to the existential dread I’ve been experiencing this weekend...

I know I need to start taking care of myself again. It’s just really hard sometimes.

But, I intend to start doing that. I’m going to treat this coming week as a reset. 

Starting tomorrow, I’m going to restart my health and fitness goals. I’m going to start going to the gym again and incorporate more nutrient-dense foods into my diet. I’m going to start focusing on myself and my needs more. I’m going to revisit the vision board I made for this year and remind myself about the intentions I, originally, had for 2023 (before stuff started going to shit). I’m going to start journaling again. I’m going to become re-attuned to my spirituality and more proactive with my spiritual practices (e.g., manifesting, cleansing, meditating, etc.). I’m going to start trusting myself again and working on improving my intuition. I’m going to be more consistent with self-care. I’m going to continue to go to therapy and heal. 

I’ll do whatever it takes to start feeling better again.

Getting Back on Track

The past few weeks have been kind of difficult. I ended up getting off track with my fitness goals. Surprisingly, though, I have been able to stay on track with my eating. I’m not calorie restricting or anything (honestly, I stopped actively counting my calories a long time ago). I have just been making sure I focus on eating actual food and incorporating, at least, some servings of fruit and/or vegetables throughout each week. I also focus on how I feel after eating certain foods. If there is something specific I want or am craving, I just eat it. No big deal. Having a cookie (or 2) at lunch is not going to, suddenly, reverse everything I have done prior to this month. I think the fact that I pack my lunch almost everyday for work has also been helping me.   

Anyway, I really want to get back on track with the fitness component. I’ve stopped caring so much about weightloss. I just want to be strong (and to be able to do a pull up without any assistance lol). I also miss the gym in general. I actually got to the point where the gym was becoming a source of stress relief for me. With how life has been (e.g., personal stuff, the overall, disappointing state of the world, etc.) I think we all could benefit from finding those things that help us make it through each day.

I’m going to try to go to the gym tomorrow after work. It might be difficult to get back into my previous routine, but I’m ready. 

Accountability Post #5 (23 June 2022)

Arm day!

My workout consisted of:

1. 5-minute warm up on the elliptical

2. 23 minutes of weight lifting

3. 20-minute hill workout on the treadmill + 5-minute cool down after

Honestly, I almost didn’t go to the gym today. I had to remind myself of my fitness goals (and the fact that I pay for a monthly membership lol...). I ended up going later than I would have liked to, though. So, there were more people in comparison to these past few days. Thankfully, I was able to use all of the machines in today’s routine. 

I, most likely, won’t be able to go to the gym tomorrow. So, I’m going to go on Saturday instead. Tomorrow, I think I’ll try to go on a walk around the neighborhood or I might even see if my family’s old Wii still works and play Wii Fit (lol). Anything to get some movement.

Accountability Post #4 (22 June 2022)

Leg day!

Today’s workout:

1. 3-minute warm up on the stairmaster

2. 19 minutes of weights

3. 20-minute hill workout on the treadmill + 5-minute cool down after

I was unable to use all of the machines I usually incorporate into my Wednesday leg workouts. I ended up just using one of the other machines in my routine twice. Still feel good, though.

Accountability Post #3 (21 June 2022)

Today was arm day. 

My workout consisted of:

1. 5-minute warm up on the elliptical

2. 29 minutes of weight lifting 

3. 20-minute hill workout on the treadmill + 5-minute cool down after

Since I had not done any arm workouts for over a week, I made sure to take it easy during the weight training portion of my workout. So, I did not go as hard as I would have normally liked to. However, I still think I had a great workout. I feel good and am looking forward to tomorrow (yay leg day).

Accountability Post #2 (20 June 2022)

I did not make it to the gym. However, my Fitbit registered all of the cleaning and packing I got done today as “swimming.” That counts...right? (lol)

Additionally, I made it to 10,000 steps. Honestly, this has been a very rare occurrence, given the fact that I have been spending most of my time at home these past few weeks. So, I think today was still good. 

Also, I know that I was not consistent with my accountability posts last week (didn’t even last a day before becoming inconsistent lol). But, I’m not going to be hard on myself about that. I’m just going to try harder and continue to try. I’m really determined to not give up on myself this time around.