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loving food and having an eating disorder is so confusing
Teaspoons >>> Tablespoons
Do you know any good low calorie meals? And I’m talking under 100 or 200.
i know that cucumber and boiled eggs are good, and rice cakes are about 50cal. i prefer chewing gum tho, the one i chew is 4cal a piece plus they make me feel fuller. fruits tend to be low cal, and salmon is pretty low cal and had a good amount of protein
is it bad that i love it when my friends get concerned about my eating habits like yess validate me
This must be a sign lol
i feel so guilty every time i eat 😭 i havent had anything today but a rice cake and a piece of fried fish and i feel like a pig im just not going to eat tmrw
so close to being in the teens for bmi AGHHH
just dont eat, fat lasts longer than flavor
The debate whether I should have breakfast to get me through classes or to keep on fasting.
Big boots tiny legs is my dream
really craving a cheesestring rn but i ate lunch today so im chugging water instead, plus i only have three left 😔 rations are low
told one of my friends about my ed for the first time she actually reacted well? i love her shes so nice
idk which to do, and i dont want to inconvenience my friends ☹️
day thirty!!!
i can't believe i got thru this, im so happy, so if anyone's interested heres the 10 facts and my current stats:
1. i love philosophy, im doing it for gcse
2. cheesestrings are my favorite safe food
3. i have four older sisters
4. my most recent read was the karamazov brothers by fyodor dostoeyevsky
5. i once failed a science test with 12%
6. i am bisexual
7. i play the guitar and the drums
8. my favorite musicians are olivia rodrigo and dominic fike
9. i really want a pet cat and a domesticated pigeon when im older
10. my favorite animal is a black rain frog, search them up :)
and my stats are now this-
sw: 56.7
hw: 58.9
cw: 48.8
lw 48.6
cheesestrings are my favorite things ever 60 calories for one, fun to eat AND the taste and texture are perfect for my autistic ass
Parents: "Why aren't you eating?"
Also them:
"You'd look better if you lost weight"
"You're the heaviest in the family"
"Jesus, why are you eating so much"
"Your thighs are so big"
"How much do you weigh? You look so big"
"I was way smaller when I was your age"
"You eat like a grown man"
"Maybe if you ate less your skin would be clearer"
Irl meanspo fr
day twenty nine
my definition of beauty is like a mix of asian standards and western ones, id love to be skinny and pale, with longer lashes and bigger eyes, but i quite like being shorter than average. i want longer fingers and a big thigh gap too
what? an eating disorder?! i say as i retreat slowly, dropping my protein bars and laxatives 😊
ate lunch today and i feel worse than ever. this morning i reached my lw of 48.4kg but now i think im back over 50 i feel so ill
i fear i am overdoing this (potential foods to eat for my bsfs birthday)
i was doing decent today but i had a piece of bread with butter for dinner and even tho im def under 1000 cals i still hate myself
4 kilos away from being underweight 💕
day twenty eight!! so close to actually finishing this yay
yes i would love a bigger thigh gap, i have a small one but i want to have a big enough one that when i stand normally the top of my thighs dont touch
is it weird i want people to be concerned about me
how the FUCK was i 48.6kg this morning when i weighed myself and now im 50.3 i hate metab days. i purged aswell ☹️
day twenty seven
i have NOT been keeping up (school sorry gang) but if its food i love, i honestly have a bite but dont let myself have more, or i just pretend something gross is in it ngl