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in the phase of fasting where im having intense hunger cramps even when i chug water

im going out with friends the next three weekends, so my plan for food is this week im eating sushi (its low cal) next week im nervous because im going out with my friend who i eat alot of junk food with but i should be fine and not lose progress as long as its only one day and the week after will probably be sushi again so praying i dont gain

I love the feeling when my stomach hurts from starving <3

overheard my family shit talking me im sorry im not happy and nice when this is the first year anniversary week of my su!cide attempt and i havent eaten anything today? i know they dont know but im so tired i cant cope

ana = bruising like a peach now apparently

may have outed myself as a rexie today when i said alot of calories was 1000-2000 a day and everyone was like the fuck at your size (im short asf) you should be having atleast 1600 😓 its fine they're concerned but cant do shit

wieiad!!

breakfast- a glass of water

0 cal

lunch- a piece of gum

7 cal

dinner- chicken and rice

200 cal

purged dinner, so -200 cal and exercised for 2 hours which was -576 cal

in total, 7+200=207-776=-569

gonna try to eat as little as possible tmrw without dying

I hate that I recovered, I was so thin and lovely back then. I stopped being afraid of food and became overweight, I look so ugly. This time I will do better, I will become even thinner. People keep commenting how much bigger I am now and it's giving me the motivation to starve.

i hate myself i wish i was a skeleton

ok any other asians with ana bc chinese new year is KILLING me

i hate myself and i hate binging

i feel so stupid talking about my issues compared to my friends. like, i cant eat food without having a breakdown and my mind wanders whenever i see something sharp, but every time i try and talk about it i sound idiotic

day twenty six

getting told "youre so skinny!" by people and to eat more instead of "youre not that fat" and people squishing my cheeks all the time

binged i hate myself i feel full again

was forced to eat lunch today because my friends told me i looked pale and sick yeah maybe thats bc i havent eaten since yesterday morning? tbf they dont know the extent of my 3d

day twenty five

yes, but i prefer not to, so i only do it when i have to. my first experience was when i b!nged and ate alot of high carb stuff in one go and i immediately went to go purg3

am i possibly overreacting by calculating how many cal0ries i need to save to eat out with my friend in three weeks 😭 why is a single burger like 800 cal0ries

day twenty four

it js turned midnight where i live so im doing this before i forget; i dont have much of an opinion on them? i dont rlly think its good to promote 3ds, but its a good way to filter content? idk much on the terms i use the tag sometimes for more outreach

day twenty three gang!

yes definitely, ive always wanted to be thin, and in asia (where im from) the beauty standard is to be skinny and pale, and im neither unfortunately. tbf i live in a western country now, so ive started liking my skin more

i just weighed myself after like a week im 50.1kg im so close to reaching the 40s but i have some intense training tmrw and im going to skip lunch

day twenty two

ive been incredibly sad recently so i forgot about this. anyway, my lowest weight was probably about 47kg, but then i became $uic1dal and i was convinced i wouldnt live the year out so i binged loads bc i was depressed lmao

revising bc i cant be fat and stupid :/

day twenty one

im typically XS or S but i dont look like an XS or S bc my arms and face are really chubby

day twenty

im currently doing the hello kitty diet, but i dont think i have a favorite yet

day nineteen

two weeks ago, when my friend and i went out she wanted to eat at nandos but its fine i only had the fries that day

stress binged for like a week so now ive got to starve for a week

day eighteen

hashbrowns and any type of fried food basically.

Heyyy, so if you a minor, how do u eat so less? I wish i could ☆ve but my parents force me🥲 i eat 800-1000 a day but i feels sooo muchh. Any Tipps?

hii, honestly i try and skip lunch as i eat it in school and if its a packed lunch i offer it to my friends and stuff. 800-1000 isnt bad, as thats less than the average person anyway so i would exercise more and if you would prefer, try and purg3 after you eat. if u say ur going to have a shower and turn the water on whilst you do it, you can hide it easier 💕